i want to remind you once again
how well you're doing

and my friend said no
it was still about ground by next sunday i'll say that aren't new footage
so not only are you a background that
forgot
i also mean
you know out
no maybe how well you're doing is not the right expression back
it's rather a username mark for the ticket prices
where to spend a day and salmon
a friend of mine the other night said that her daughter i moved to dallas
she added print there
and and she moved into our and then when she went to do that than the
know the one of the occupants of the house tell she had to move out because it was
how can the devil's work or something
dallas
how did is america
you know i think we can can take for granted or forget how
punisher with it
just sit quietly
are experiencing our experience and of thing
kate in knowing
catch him i live
and to keeping this way and to walk and to spend a day quietly is
a to experience or itself and ways that we air state
have the opportunity to teach you
whether it's to notice in more detail for to
he were still and quiet
what you feel our feelings or to note itself
my mind races
here's they were further engaged in their life and we're not quite so
aware and returned and tattoo rotate during experience so intimate they are
experience
thanks they were ever you're experiencing today you know this is awakening
notice this realization
we have the idea of course and various ideas about what
we might attain or accomplish
you know some special experience we might have
it was particularly
a pitch for required a particularly brilliant to a dazzling
and a court and you know people have from time-to-time such experiences
and then what
the new year's day he'll just one another one
and after you did when it doesn't laugh to wonder what's wrong with my practice now
get today i had such a great experience
or maybe you tried to tell everybody i packed it's great experience
i expected about nathan now i know
but you know it affect you know what will it do for you in or even if you had something
any experience that can arise and appear and you can define you know is why that can be will disappear
so it was aged one more experience and the experience is derived from disappear
and actually it's not about you know any to have any dreams that
when make all the difference in your life from now on
can't you think
it's tempting to want to have a one experience that will make all the different
now
and you say we think you know if i checked and kid get rid of my anger or my desire or and i sit my still
our pay more concentrated or be my settled the packages
did that then i would get the experience to would make all the difference in my life on
stand out a company can only be difficult but it's impossible
fill in other words into mistake to try to have
to try to get four times
whoa and then of course we encourage her to
had experience for having
to let them experience come home to our heart
to be touched and fire experience
to letter wearing tattered things to detached to be moved by his an incentive
respond to things
huh
and of course the big or i think the biggest burden in her life is that we don't like ourselves
the biggest know painful thing in her life is not accepting or not liking ourselves
so what's the problem
why would we
a token them and
ha out to not like i said
cannot accept ourselves you know basically our humanity
why would we do that
and years they would think in that in order to like myself in order to
respect myself or to love myself except by now i would have to improve a lot
because if i win
if i could meditate better or if i didn't have so many problems in my life than it laugh i could like myself i could like somebody who was successful poland
no com and enlightened and compassionate and kind and buoyant and cheerful i could like somebody like that
actually are those people are crazy curtain

here's the we feel they're hiding something

but you get my i'm hearing
here's they we think we need to improve a lot before we could like a job and we forget that
where the critic that their appreciate
and someone who quite from here
oh with some good intentions and know with a good heart
who doesn't know it to you know isn't perfect
and we can accept herself
her sitting like there fact with in later today nowhere x the in moment after moment we're practicing for example i saw him sometimes we do we have good practice to the setting herself and sometimes for not so
get at it
and we encourage felt to even accept somebody who's not so good at example
so for this reason you know celebrated teachers many times will say you don't have to practice
for ten or twenty or thirty years to get yourself to finally
ah no to any time you can have a bright smile for you are
decide to except yourself or forgive yourself
how to forgive others
you can decide to ah
get fit and be with yourself
he picked his side to be seen
are you breath
and alive
how and the present and the room with you
you picked you know we can do that
how does it not and you know services
not use of the instructions you know that we have for meditation
preparing the you know appreciate is a similar except yourself
it's too hard
he takes the a big challenge you know and most of it that ready
so if why don't you follow your breath
and that said
but don't mean to the left or right don't mean for that
why don't you just sit in the middle of your life
hey
what it's like there
huh
and we can have
how at times quite elaborate instruction
how to accept yourself for to
they say to yourself
to love yourself isn't
no one of the last things that we will do
i had be exams before i do that if i accepted myself before i got somewhere i wouldn't have any motivation anymore
hello for the thirty motivating their jobs by rejecting itself
good for you
after the lawyer in oven quite a good doctor apparently
he was on sixty minutes a to go
if a very charming and man
right right
thing but
apparently if you know one of those kinds of people who you know when he's on television like that it's kind of like an angel and then when he's been the but worrying is like a cabbage
how bet he said his father has never
tell them he did a good fight i don't think it's ever been people
or anybody has been beaten them later
when his father's never approved
an alcatel advantage
are there in the wine does your father prove
and he said well if my father prove is afraid that i would lose my motivation
i try very hard and i trained very hard and i fight very hard to win his approval

so would he be a get about thirty know it
if he didn't have that kind of motivation
so many everything not a different thing you know we with ingrained new wave incorporated into it you know some parental rejection
the rejection of her parents
and you know it the motivation to
visitors
i like to do a thing to accomplish things
he was actually can be you know quite and
beneficial or if not beneficial anyways
it's certainly a stage of my life
have we don't grow up without having them
degree of self rejection that motivated to strive in her life
at some time of course when we arrived at the bar for thing
the limitation of this kind of way of going about things
and you know we wonder how will i actually ever arrived
could i finally be accepted in a family except myself
can i find a fit in the center of my life and we decide you know i will i will fit
in the center of my life
kept in my experience except in myself
you know my strength in my limitations
ah the blessings and curses in my life
and we're not sure which is which

huh
hello again it will be a kind of the
take to think that
a by improving little by little and over time
ah accumulating and great and wonderful experiences you know we would finally be worthy of acceptance or approval for love
you know that we could earn it
this is big problem you know how them and christianity
and why no in various ways and in various traditions of christianity
e no one receives god's spread
it's again it's not something you can earn a because you
i lead the certain kind of life god's grace is said to be there far as i know for everyone
but anyway i'm not much of a crystal film
i couldn't tell you that much about it
but you know the i do that forgiveness or great are acceptance survive is not something you earn it something you to give
it's a vintage to given to you and you can and at some point we're just willing to give it to herself
and in a small way it is you know to spend the day and retreated to give ourselves is kind of attention
i'll give herself is kind of love
it's kind of interest in our experience
it's kind of care
we're giving ourselves is wonderful get at the empire awareness
ah good heartedness
and actually of course when we sit together
in a group like this we're also giving it to one another
together we create this kind of hasn't spain
oliver can fit in the midst of it
hi so we're not just a sitting or for ourselves
but sitting for one another
her presence
ah and awareness to again
i'm that we share
huh
huh
huh
huh
huh
her may
ways in which
i lives are very challenging
i'm quite careful
how people in our lives to know and become thick and people die
in their thing challenges a relationship and where we live and work and
i you know that texting a particularly easy being a human being
this is something you know that
ah here in america the american myth method it'll be easy
and if you were easy for you something's wrong with you
it's a kind of the idea of our culture you know if you don't have as is inferior life that the people and five field what's your problem
they make a joke everything in the whole lot of fun and they don't seem to need to worry about money and of a the chapter on making a couple of million a week
the way
the home
how i mention this because you know the fact that our life is difficult and challenging in many ways
i mean it
the point of our tendency to be to look for help
and no one someone else to take care of it perhaps
to make it our work better
whether we look for a on or we live content to her children to her parents
our teachers to a spiritual teachers someone will make a difference you know make it all worked better
then came to emphasize know the notion that
you can rely lying your self interest yourself
and that the difficulty of your life when new
when we respond to it in a things out return to live in every period
how so we have the kind of understand you know not to look at guide or looked elsewhere and but to answer can look within
i so are you know suzuki roshi mentioned
i'm going you're dying
and nothing will help you
not even enlightenment will help you know when you have no more moment to live
the moment you know we arrived yourself for the express yourself for it
i have the full experience every life
huh
i lately i've been using again on my expression you know like getting married to yourself
where do you have the body and mind
home fitness and health and difficulty and six said
knowing health and fitness new and health and wealth and poor poverty where you have this friday where you have this line
and when we say yes to the degree than yeah i will i will have this life i will have the body i will have been mind
well you know you don't need to look anywhere else
for some answer
no custom solution and way out
you've accepted take pride in his mind to life
and then you can find your way
as long as we're trying to get out of our life you know it's very hard to find our way how to go forward
and we want i like to be without the promise around to it
to look like we think of in our life is supposed to work
it is very difficult for it
service this or where you have the body will you have a my disease
again very similar to accepting yourself
appreciating a loving myself finally
can no no longer bitterly rejecting herself as a motivation to succeed or get somewhere
help
again thank you very much for being here and i'm creating this wonderful state
taking the time in your life too
they with your things in the way we can do it is quiet
in a seven
how will be going outside and in two minutes or at walking
but you weren't field at on
and patricia for their thing you would like patricia offer a short yoga time when we have about twenty five minutes for or
thirty minutes or listening faith if you'd like you can do for the uk restorative wow i have no restorative person or you can go outside and walk
oh i'm outside on the bench or better put out some various flyer and
one is on thursday nights at a meditation group and center field than the information in there about that
how to around thanksgiving a thanksgiving ten patrician air during his fan in yoga workshop is famous for being a fairly simple furniture
the retreat actually dirt on wednesday night before thanksgiving but
if some of you need to anyone needs to have and i had thanksgiving plans are ready you can always come friday morning
for we're we're making it possible for people to invite
you know a limited number of
you know spouses earth
people need you might otherwise have thanksgiving with we're actually getting go and everything is dinner and in a vivid and top
they will go back into silence from between our panic retreat anyway courage to admit it or others of fire and in a big day we do here at gringotts has more emphasis on fitting
the retreated think giving will have a about equal emphasis for you know as many hours of been doing yoga as doing kidding
so they'll be an increase but an assembly some of you may have been to russia as a hundred dairy of months as and yoga
so this is more like that can be yoga and thin
he would happen sooner
this is our intention nice to have
bert yoga and fan and about the same amount and time diverted and offer the and council
things in the sunday off at the end of that retreat or undoing a layered nation for some people who have already talking about it
so people who come to the retreat can office take a nap
i'm that's to say that during the retreat i'll be giving some talked about presets and recognition of things which those of you who you know what you're interested you could come to that are not but is a but you're certainly welcome to come to any the types of ventures and
the separate
how are you can enter be doing something else if it's not clear interests we try to be flexible you know we try to think yes of course for you will do that
but of course you know we can't save everybody
and it was a thursday thanksgiving and then in january we ever are getting younger workshop is mount madonna till we have been there are certain that madonna out there if you think to attend of january would be a better time period to saying yoga for a little thanksgiving
and is that though
i seen at the core constituency but the frog with the poem for movie about the waterwheel so you can pick up on a vertical like to overhaul national thing
in cinemas here at and in reading
an
oh anyway find the island
the donation that in here by the door inside here
patrician i offered in our the teaching here today without charge the fee paid a green card to is to support green gulch and earn an additional here and the activities of the center of the guidance and support
how in a lunch and second so if you would like to make a contribution made by u two and two and eight donations you will have to offer to pay them in about it here
it would need to support patricia night
and i like to express my appreciation and gratitude for convert to stand for your support and
you're very kind and generous and thinking
so download will be going into gone by now and walk or stay here for some yoga thinking
that can