good morning everyone where about in a halfway point the it'll fire alarm
during practice and hiking all the ingredients are here i ingredients are here and we're simmering right along in still love our practice of divine light i think everyone must be attracted to the life because we have a full house today
day and whether you're here
on saturday during our practice period or whether you're spinning every day think the energy is apparent you often treated and making this practice period happen
so i wonder at this point in practice period how is your practice
have you experienced you to buy a light
this is something that's within you is it something that without
we started his practice period advise setting for case eighty six the book of records which issue of man's kitchen pantry and main gate
where young man says to the assembly everyone has a divine light what is yours
no one can answer him
he from an instructions shows the name gate in the kitchen pantry
whatever activity wherever we are whether is too game or whether it is the holy that his eyes and like wherever we are whatever it is whether it's from something ordinary or something extraordinary of contains within it
the divine life
and so now will return to the pursuit of understanding this ordinary way hum with the case that i've been given for the practice period the title of the second half and with khan is something life perfect effort and blind faith and i'll read again
for your case nine through the moonlight time that to set the stage what's remember for protagonist we have gone to stand
who is a great teacher ah one of the greatest difference generation he lived in the midst seven hundred two hundred eight hundred and he's here with his young man who will go on to be his pre-eminence students show she'll just shall live to be one hundred and twenty hand we have more coal
on the more of his records than we do have any other teachers and he turned out to be great for wonderful little both of his things old i think throughout the sayings of joshi by james green has for many this is the first one this case in the room on hands with rest of them very ill
interesting because a lot of them or exchanges with his teacher and then is wonderful down friends for their each really far and very painfully with the other who can't really tell his to teacher and student and well i think
but in this case gym shoe is an earnest young man maybe not unlike ourselves wondering how to find his way on the path
shows she asked on sam what is the way
ordinary line just the way nonsense reply
shall i seek after it shows she laughed it can try for you will become separated from his forehead nonsense
how can i know the way unless i tried for it persistence oh shit
johnson says away is not a matter of knowing or not knowing knowing his delusion not knowing his confusion if you're really reached the true way beyond doubt you will find it is vast and boundless as outer space how can it be talked about on a level of right and wrong
wrong with easier words to issue came to sudden realization
mama is comment nonsense assault and melted away before judge issues questions and could not offer a possible explanation
even though joshi comes to realization he must tell them to it for another thirty years before he can fully understand it
i think this is really a wonderful on and one worthy of thirty years of deliberation and in it
there are multiple columns multiple questions that i've encouraged ah
encourage everyone to consider is thinking and teeth into what is the ordinary mind how is it one we are our most ordinary that were also are most extraordinary
first the friends that which is already our national birthright to fruition how do we know fully actually are through what kind of effort when it's already there
what is the knowing that is not reached by feelings and deliberation words or letters he's there on cons of this com
and
so joshua has the answer is given it a prompt ordinary mind as the way and yet he knows that he still wants as he still wants some kind of specific instruction don't we all become to practice and we have some inkling of what we're looking for
but we don't know how to apply it and he asked this question as such a way that he he really knows there is nothing he's going to be given him but still he has to ask shall i try for it he says
the answer their different translations and they all point to similar things in a different way fucking turn forth if you go against it
if you're seeking it isn't to seek it is to deviate from it
the more you seek after it the more at runs away from you and if you try for he becomes separated from it i liked the idea that fingers for separated from is very helpful their efforts here of what dogan with century will write four hundred
years later the ginger a thorn when he says when you first seek the dharma you strayed far away from the boundary of the dharma when the dharma is correctly transmitted to the self you are immediately your original sell
moving towards things were evaluating measuring comparing setting up a reality compared to ourselves seeking of seeking to obtain something even that which is wholesome and first such as an aunt who are suffering or to become a buddha we set up a duality
this dissolution of the stuff and and separation of the intimate knowing of the true reality of all being which is our own original nature is the way but the paradox is that and wanting it and going after the usual way that we go after things
by knowing fly attaining an experience we risk corrupting our various sincerity and advancing our way down very foxhole chasing after it
so what then is right effort
now we usually think of effort is some kind of exertion for strength of will some kind of mighty force and as often misplaced
have to say is i've had a lot of effort and put forth a lot of effort in my life a lot of it has been misplaced trying to do the right thing to get it right it it's kind of life trying to tighten the screw down too hard with a screwdriver and scribbling friends that was certain
kind and that sometimes name forest
a valiant ah
philly running the kentucky derby with all of her forest and breaking her legs and for she doesn't know her limits
there's also suzuki roshi tells us we should make perfect effort
perfect effort is also a kind of a cash i think and i think he was a master at giving us ah putting words together in a way that challenge a little bit of as well meaning under the so perfect after you know there's a kind of striving that can is inherent in the idea of perfection or
at least there can be it can seem to be
as the cash
he asked the says we should make sure effort here and perfect effort
effort is one of the factors of enlightenment one of the requirements that we have an order to calm and white
the fury effort is kind of like having all of the ingredients but you need medication
more a contract patience wisdom is the baking soda is quit allows it to rise this pure effort that we make
pure effort is what i'd like to call nothing special an effort the ns a of our practice
the nsa of our effort is what suzuki roshi says is the right effort to get there is some right effort is to get rid of something extra so that something extra is that which we out of ourselves to try and make some particular our
welcome to try and make it good to try and get it right but actually we don't have to do that all we have to do is apply ourselves with complete and sincere and perfect effort and it will be exactly as it's meant to be
maybe you've had that experience of doing that i think thing in the kitchen is one of the best ways to apply oneself out that way when you're the tensile in the kitchen you have multiple things going on and many people different helping a new yourself
self and and are in the middle of doing some some kinds of activities for hearing your full attention to it and multitasking thinking ahead with the meal being present who were you are with all the different workers in the kitchen and unless shirt completely giving your attention and all of your energy
to what you're doing something will go wrong the temp they will get burn or the car that oatmeal will all over
we have a wonderful practice parrot period dinner this now offering right now with many hands that are in it and you can feel that kind of activity for every one is a completely focused on what they're doing giving their full attention to it not really anticipating the outcome
how can you feel that energy as you're walking through the courtyard here may be issued to him as your cooking here together today

so i think one of the important factors thought behind this effort is the kind of intention that should have the right what is the right and attention or the quality of intention
who am i doing this for who am i in lesser just food
will freely was behind the
intention is your attitude is the attitude with which you do things sojourn roshi says per cent yourself like an offering
in order for your practice to come alive you have to offer yourself completely to what you're doing
so you are in the center of the month off and the offering has everything with she says that you put forth all of the activity that can put forth from the center of your mind all the effort is an offering to what it is that you're doing is not for you and from that other
unself conscious place
buddha nature arises
robert akin talks about in his those that instruction giving your full devotion to the breath
it's like that and everything we do effort is work there is to give your full devotion
full devotion is like being a parent when your child needs something at least a good friend when your child needs something you don't ask what about that we just give yourself over to it
this is right effort
mrs effort was nothing special added it's just doing completely out of your full heart
so joe she still doesn't know how to proceed he says the fun to know the what how will i know the way if i don't move towards with and non says sense and nonsense as the way is not subject to knowing
for not knowing when you truly know the way beyond doubt is as vast as space itself
what is this knowing knowing his delusion not knowing his blackness
we all know this is another place where inserted in the lexicon has been knowing has two sides and not knowing has his sides the knowing that we're weird commonly accustomed to as when we know something right you know he just
and we have a lot of experience with needing to know the fence and the way in which knowing things can get a sense of difficulty in medical training were taught to make diagnoses by
the nation and a based on what are the most common scenarios having a differential diagnosis a list of things that are possible and then slowly here there's a problem that will you teach medical students develop is called premature closure and what that means is maybe you know this from other realms sugar
get are not have enough of different pieces of information they have a pretty good and i idea and then a holy and live before you actually examine everything is great deal and you can make really serious mistakes what stands by cool space isn't always a horse sometimes it's a zebra and you don't want to miss
in our class as we've been studying lied and think many of us were quiet and captured by the story of shock loss around the pool was a young who writes about being a young man at age eighty to going blind and how in his blindness
his senses to the whole world open too often he could experience things where he had never experienced before has a sighted person
our brain the whole post courier part of our brain is what we used to process visual information and is meant to process that information by pattern recognition for i did five years that we get to you used to seeing certain things and we know that
something that's about six feet tall that has wheels on it and lose at a certain speed is likely to be a car so look better job than get out of a way of is coming for for you it also is what allows you to recognize your friends quickly at a distance you have some some sense as the nose and the glasses
with they were and how they law
so this is a very adaptive to survival that it's not so good as deserving students because as we have a live and harrods biologic neurology that is about jumping to conclusions and knowing things
we also have a circumstances of our conditioning for example as a greek american middle aged caucasian woman who is a position and his ah lived a lot of her life in california i have certainly beliefs and behaviors
the assumptions that reaches a starting place that i will always inherently have and will need always to be aware of that kind of cultural coloring
and more than that floor maybe than all of these in a place where we have the most opportunity to change is our preferences other things that we like and with his life and the way the things that we like and with his life color the way
in which we see the world and and life and give you an example of this
some years ago i was often along depositary tree for possibly retreats are on silent very silent
and i was in the midst of thirty days of violence and spending most of my time in my room teeth in meditation and coming out only for meals and people would eat their meals in the same dining hall family style so yeah com and you will serve often i'll sit down
and quietly each meal and go then go back and a future and your meditation scheduled and was one of the meditation hall where he could keep your own if you wanted to and i was i was on full boil in meditation this particular day i had taken it as the practice term
the path examine some a certain kind of mindfulness of certain kinds of the present moment awareness and that was on on feeling town and being aware of whether i was experienced things as positive negative or neutral
and whenever i was aware of being positive or negative i would enquire myself just to be neutral down with and raspberry and ten concentrated with all day so i come in for dinner in the dining hall and there's this could harmony of noise going on pupil or school
our counting their fourth to knows the meeting in their knives are going on they're dishing up their places with foods around planning against the serving dishes and it's just so loud and i look up in there someone who has raised for rest
of or sweatshirt on you know if you've been really fly was not the person is not burn the still people go over longhorns
and i was aware of having this really strong aversion for what was happening and i said to myself not positive not negative only new froth
and in that moment is as as someone took the volume and turn the sound way down and if he came relatively quiet and i looked over again if the person who had the bright orange sweatshirt on and i could say that it was more of a fade and teach code
so so much for knowing ha
not knowing is also something is that has two different sides to it and swing is useless and this come on and we think about it usually as ignorance confusion a lack of discrimination or
for stagnation but i'd like to introduce another kind of not known to us and is what i thought i could remember
but i thought i knew when i thought i had remembered from up on docusign that i have had a tossed a horror and i was really sure it was a particular call on and after looking at just about every one that's ever been recorded an ideal realized that it was a combination of two different
stories that had gotten put together during your docusign so i'm going to tell you a modern day toss horror home
from a young son student on a young woman but a young zone scooter sizes to go for a practice period of toss up to across the horror and is extremely excited about it for months and makes all the preparations for many months to live work to make arrangements for bills to be
paid in the home to be looked after him rented out and most importantly that her faithful dog welfare for a while she's gone and shiraz that tassajara full of light and energies and i hope system for five days of the entrance way your tongue
garrido to and visit the practice period and beautifully signs after
down with the abbess for the first ah focus on or formal interview
and from says to per teacher
i'm really so excited to be here but i really have no idea why
i'm here i really have no idea why i'm here
you feel that way sometimes
he have a reason why you've come here new the first time for the first few years instead of some kind of suffering or distress or loneliness or you know that something's missing that she don't know what it is
but after a while if you keep coming back you can i keep coming back and you don't always know why
and it's not just for the says socialization or something to feel it fun for for them
here's something else but you can always put a finger on it
i'm so happy to be here but i don't know why i'm here
to which the teacher says not knowing his most intimate
not knowing his most intimate is the most intimate thing here hard to be able to ask that question why why am i here what is this who is this griezmann not knowing last
all the possibilities in the world to being right here right now with
but the young student is not so different from show shoe when she says can you tell me anything else that of or health
to which contentious as heroin in fear to which the teacher says the vast blue sky does not prevent the white clouds from line
the vast blue sky does not prevent the white clouds from climb
the blue sky traditionally on and lexicon is the mind of enlightenment
there are on his fingers mind since the child's mind when she's how play doing something for the first time having no idea what it is for just doing it for the pure joy of lift pure effort nothing extra fun others
and white claws are are elusive thoughts or maybe they're just run fast you know there's nothing to get rid of here it's just to recognize things as they are things for what they are
not positive not negative not neutral whatever the feeling tone whatever the emotion whatever the thought it is just with an open hand to allow it to drink thought like clouds unencumbered in the vast blue sky
nonsense says i think taking a line from the shin shin man from home that was written a hundred years korea you truly realized the way of no doubt it's just like the sky why
why vast open mts
ha country so son arthur ancestors definition shooting the ways perfect like vast space where nothing is missing and nothing is an excess
and so when you hold onto something when you're not hot fire why when i'm not caught by my iversen grasping line everything is just the way it should be nothing is out of place new harvin is out of place in the universe nothing
is missing and nothing is in excess and i can trust with wrath i think that is for blind faith to faith that doesn't say that it's senses everything completely as being where they should feel it does not jump to conclusions but recognizes the rightness of
things as they are things as it is
and so when i removed my own clingy wanting and his version i see that everything realize out of a natural harmony and a national responsiveness to factors and conditions since the early experience that we have his children or were completely unencumbered
to make that effort just offering yourself of yourself with no exception expectations of the outcome i liked her on come close to the end by telling a story of memories
well and is actually a story that someone told her memorial service here so i don't know what firsthand she was out there these two people were out on the patio off by the petty a bulletin board and there was a sign posted for off a protester protesters march
have some time and guess against the first bombing the tourist iraq war vomiting and she was gonna go set of visual there
then this man walked after her understanding physical do that you really think that all accomplish anything
when she says i don't know
but if most important that i do risk
fast pure effort and why faith
so chromeos says the entire world is reflected in by the i have a month throughout your body your everyday conversation beyond irvine lines throughout your own pure effort your own perfect effort reflect your own to find
right
so before i open it up for a comments and a conversation i liked her ask the surgeon regime has anything but human life ahead of first are afraid of

having different
will anyone else be so baldwin
linda
when your thin lines is and refined our on restless nervous and he and uneasy
where is the ordinary month
his writing those activities if not resisting on the resisting them as the something extra and this is something special areas is turf
he willing to bear your own discomfort

go ahead and make the case
god has been led a trust herself filling his money on the phone

have there might be a voice saying i hate
just will just noticed that as the boys don't believe it
hello
was the last story about bally's relief
the failsafe
something i'm thinking about quickly
where is the red pepper fear
actually worse
and he's the right effort was actually getting the conversation that she had with their person he was questioned for fighter spectrum of whether whatever result
setting
robert fifty surface problems that have looked their social actually thinking that the demonstration
there's actually a good conversation
ha
course around
face-to-face with people who have these questions if that was actually really first demonstrations because it was a matter of principle for was what are real fears was was being able to have a conversation of alpha
fast where people
i really appreciate that comment and i would say at least in my experience of her and how i how i understand this kind of exchanges there was something about her bright faith though is very encouraging the people so as the conversation but it's also
so just the example for how she embodies that brand faith as an example the people and she didn't find the way in which she sat than going to the demonstrations of the conversations that she had
something it was her divine life really that people responded to go as exaggerated i've ever come down on one side of that life
is not if that like
in an incident
read there is the crowd of thousands of people nice
forget in order to generate as like that for at fisher had to be part of the larger
thank you well
lois
the talk
good fifty two acres asked for hundred hard work of ask yourself from if you're being a physician has clearly with these kinds of questions how much effort
where's your effort the thousands of effort in trying to save her
life
my time was right away to four units you can have a lot of know
i found respect for task and try to understand how would he has been such as do because i often of which is richard price
get your
your efforts south
it's a question is very intimate to me because anonymous fifteen now and i watched the ways in which he slowly unraveling and asked really is an intimate question
because they can't tell us with the human being i can have a conversation with people in the field have a very clear idea of when enough is enough but with an animal or in the position of
the sad for them and i think of
animals know how to derive they they nor not attached to their lives as us that aren't have is for an attached to them and i think that's the place where we have to have cleary and then have respect for their animal nation the animals were not memphis suffer
they are suffering because
we know outcomes we we can weigh risks and and phalluses see the future with animals are not program glass they're programmed to accept their lives as it is as they are information for shopify as com okay
there saddled with my cat had to one i'm in pakistan hockey you know
fairly simple but i'm not sure i reported project onto the cats or not leave the half life had my tendency is the overview can have very similar effort so on has been trying to free jazz
light of what you're teaching story
yo have
this is already here and is already have that she doesn't she know for the i know how do why how do i share feelings without without making you know what is ordinary my there are suffering with the price is for us as the humans to get out of
the way our attachments are love are feeling of law or feelings of concern are wanting to do the right thing all things that obscure vision about what's really happening for our animal if we can find some com and the midst of that then it becomes much clearer i think
something i was too great
use that was with spencer of the mondo has hired kind of a tangential thing but i don't think it was felt by pages the far out or if the mean that the better than half the mandola and there really are attaching are collecting through to have to find her
the restaurant serving harmony
funny that is what is the drive employees with have to kill him
yourself you don't have to go through all that
maybe just to speak to one point of that if this is helpful which is
the self is separate from the dharma
so so we talk about smalls open a big soft but really i don't i don't not so drawn to make their discrimination because i think pink as in small self a small sofas living cell phone
yeah thank you love
soon he will have free time for
i'm thinking for much for your here
who was thinking about lines faster
right
the that you remembered from life and people and and me right for projects
and i see yourself
at an is you've as the around and and i know
and you like you couldn't move
yeah i'm not sure
whining for from friends
for fusion is
can i think so for right is concerned
a relationship
i don't have anything else
of our new reminder
that
like both personal and it's impersonal
can the impersonal is the life that we all share with each other and it's always there even when our lives seems further away him crystal line that is generated you know that is generated through everything and everyone is always there

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how will i found started practicing including analysis stage in my life for councillors
suffering a lot of in a lot of darkness
was not happy and
i've read and first stroke him around
zen teachings seems to be things that i already knew the really felt like being allowed to admit that i believed this
happy to highest the were a far more that it was like coming home in a lot of ways and asked my life has gotten progressively colder i sterilize these days a very safe wonders beautiful life on a symbolism myself that i have this tendency
he kind of a drama queen about my own suffering and unsafe
something that his father's like your mouth and other if you have any has five as as about letting go of liking suffering
am i hearing that you also get pleasure out of this
i used to more i think that yeah there's something fill that a kind of hang on shoot with as if we can help to define
so it sounds like it's a habit probably so maybe it's helpful just to see it as a habit like smoking
for more than anything else and just examine whether for happy with that happen
maybe it will continue to be made you feel i can have more choice within it
with habits habits are free and grain right and gonna push a button and they go off and he might notice under certain kinds of conditioning your more drawn to that habit pattern under certain through grass or whatever the whatever the situation is what triggers it when you have awareness
as of what triggers that and you can see it and mall it loses a special
graph on you because you see analysis just what i knew under these conditions and you can make a choice about whether you really want to do there or not so it loses its specialness
here to see zero contribute a specialist
nothing special

do we have time for any more john with them free
okay so thank you all very much in have always been fine from more questions asked with