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Sandokai Lecture XI
Saturday, June 27, 1970
Tassajara
[The following lines of the Sandokai are discussed in this lecture:
Line 33 Bammotsu onozukara ko ari,
Line 34 masani yo to sho to wo iu beshi.
Line 35 Ji sonsure ba kangai gasshi,
Line 36 ri ozure ba sempo saso.
(Transliteration by Kazuaki Tanahashi.)
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Line 33 Everything––all beings––have their own virtue.
Line 34 You should know how to apply this truth.
Line 35 Things and emptiness are like a container and its cover fitting together,
Line 36 like two arrows meeting head-on.
(Translation by Suzuki.)]
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Sources: Contemporaneous typescript and notes by Marian Derby; City Center transcript entered onto disk by Jose Escobar, 1997. Transcript checked against tape by Bill Redican 6/1/00.
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File name: 70-06-27: Suffering Is a Valuable Thing Branching Streams Flow in the Darkness, p. 135, (Verbatim) crk
[Begins with indecipherable whisper.] Today's lecture will be about how we observe everything-- how we understand everything and how we should treat things-- with what kind of understanding is the-- will be the purpose of tonight's lecture. Everything has the--
[sudden loud feedback from the sound system. Suzuki stops speaking. Whispering exchange takes place about the sound system.]
Oh. Okay.
Before I talk about the value of things or how we understand things, we should-- I think I must explain those words [referring to the text on the blackboard].
* The important words here is—this is, you know—bammotsu is "myriad of things." It means "many things," "all things." [Ari means]* "has." [Onozukara means]* "naturally"—"naturally." [Ko means]* has "function" or—this ko means "function" or "virtue." Because, you know, if something has some function, you know, that function will be virtue for us—value, you know, exchange value. Or—value as a, you know—mostly we—when we say "value" it is exchange value, but this value [ko ] means more—it—a wider meaning. This has more wider meaning, you know. The ko—this ko— Ko is not [exactly?] function or—utility [searching for word and seemed to find it in "utility"]. So utility is more like value, you know. But it means more—it has more wider sense. Ahhh. I don't know what to s- [partial word—"say"?]— [Laughs.] Funct- [partial word—"function"?]—ko. Ko is— It is sometime— It may be "merit," you know. Sometime it may be someone's—what someone did, you know, in his life or in our society or in our small society or community. Ko. This word include those things like virtue or utility, or some merit, or some deed. Everything has its own, you know— Because this [bammotsu] is—this "everything" include human being, and mountain and river, and stars and suns [planets]* and fixed stars— Everything. It include everything. So function of—. Its function is, you know— Everything has function. Because of this function, that function will be for us value or virtue. So this is, you know— This function— When we say "function"—function, you may wonder, "function of what," you know? Function of something. That something could be ri. And we must crit- — I have to use many technical terms tonight, so [laughs] I want to explain, first of all, those technical terms I have to use. For an instance, you see something. You see— Oh. [Laughs, laughter. The sound system is suddenly turned up and Roshi hears his own voice coming back from the loudspeakers.]* You hear [laughs, laughter], you know, voice, you know. But this voice is, you know, will be— You say you are listening to me, but you actually what you are listening to is maybe my voice, or you are listening to some function of, you know, electricity or machine, you know. That machine, you know— The electricity will be the function of something, you know, function of some universal, you know, entity of electric, you know—electricity which covers almost all—whole world, whole universe. So actually you are not listening to me, you know, you are listening more like listening to our universe—univer- —voice of universe, maybe. Voice of electricity. This is, you know, one understanding of my lecture. And another understanding will be, you know, you are listening to my nature, you know, what kind of nature I have. And you are listening to the nature of electricity. So when we, you know—when you see something or when you listen to something, already you have idea of whole universe. It is so-called-it, maybe— When we, you know, understand things in that way, we call it understanding of tai. Tai means "body." Body. But it is more ontological, you know, big body which include many thi- [partial word—"things"?]—everything. And its nature is sho.
Because, you know, if something has some function, you know, that function will be virtue for us-- value, you know, exchange value. Or-- value as a, you know-- mostly we-- when we say “value” it is exchange value, but this value [ko ] means more-- it-- a wider meaning. This has more wider meaning, you know. The ko-- this ko-- Ko is not [exactly?] function or-- utility [searching for word and seemed to find it in “utility”]. So utility is more like value, you know. But it means more-- it has more wider sense.
Ahhh. I don't know what to s- [partial word-- ”say”?]-- [Laughs.] Funct- [partial word-- ”function”?]-- ko. Ko is-- It is sometime-- It may be “merit,” you know. Sometime it may be someone's-- what someone did, you know, in his life or in our society or in our small society or community. Ko. This word include those things like virtue or utility, or some merit, or some deed. Everything has its own, you know-- Because this [bammotsu] is-- this “everything” include human being, and mountain and river, and stars and suns [planets]* and fixed stars— Everything. It include everything. So function of—. Its function is, you know— Everything has function. Because of this function, that function will be for us value or virtue. So this is, you know— This function— When we say "function"—function, you may wonder, "function of what," you know? Function of something. That something could be ri. And we must crit- — I have to use many technical terms tonight, so [laughs] I want to explain, first of all, those technical terms I have to use. For an instance, you see something. You see— Oh. [Laughs, laughter. The sound system is suddenly turned up and Roshi hears his own voice coming back from the loudspeakers.]* You hear [laughs, laughter], you know, voice, you know. But this voice is, you know, will be— You say you are listening to me, but you actually what you are listening to is maybe my voice, or you are listening to some function of, you know, electricity or machine, you know. That machine, you know— The electricity will be the function of something, you know, function of some universal, you know, entity of electric, you know—electricity which covers almost all—whole world, whole universe. So actually you are not listening to me, you know, you are listening more like listening to our universe—univer- —voice of universe, maybe. Voice of electricity. This is, you know, one understanding of my lecture. And another understanding will be, you know, you are listening to my nature, you know, what kind of nature I have. And you are listening to the nature of electricity. So when we, you know—when you see something or when you listen to something, already you have idea of whole universe. It is so-called-it, maybe— When we, you know, understand things in that way, we call it understanding of tai. Tai means "body." Body. But it is more ontological, you know, big body which include many thi- [partial word—"things"?]—everything. And its nature is sho.
So this is, you know-- This function-- When we say “function”-- function, you may wonder, “function of what,” you know? Function of something. That something could be ri.
And we must crit- -- I have to use many technical terms tonight, so [laughs] I want to explain, first of all, those technical terms I have to use. For an instance, you see something. You see-- Oh.
[Laughs, laughter. The sound system is suddenly turned up and Suzuki hears his own voice coming back from the loudspeakers.]
So actually you are not listening to me, you know, you are listening more like listening to our universe-- univer- -- voice of universe, maybe. Voice of electricity. This is, you know, one understanding of my lecture. And another understanding will be, you know, you are listening to my nature, you know, what kind of nature I have. And you are listening to the nature of electricity. So when we, you know-- when you see something or when you listen to something, already you have idea of whole universe. It is so-called-it, maybe-- When we, you know, understand things in that way, we call it understanding of tai. Tai means “body.” Body. But it is more ontological, you know, big body which include many thi- [partial word-- ”things”?]-- everything.
And its nature is sho. But that sho does not mean some special nature. It means nature of everything-- basic nature for everything. And when we understand things more than-- something beyond our words, we call it ri, “truth.” Truth is not-- Truth, when we say “true character,” you know, it is something beyond our idea of good and bad, long and short, right or wrong. That is ri, which, you know, include various meaning of things.
Ko -- and we have another word here, yo. This word [yo ] is used-- related to ri. And this word, yo or ko [it appears that Suzuki corrected himself and decided on ko ], is related to things-- virtue of things-- and this [yo? ] is application of the truth, you know.
Looks like same, you know. Ko is “virtue,” you know. Yo is, you know, “usage.” But when we say yo, it is more function of truth or ri. When we say ko, it is function of things-- each things-- each thing [ji]. This is-- Of course, we sometime we use it for, you know, for many things, but mostly here, we-- in Buddhist technical term, this is-- this word [yo] is related to ri.
And here -- mmm. It doesn't [laughs] make much sense [laughs, laughter]. Maybe I will translate it literally: "Ea- —Everything—all things—has— There is virtue in all being—myriad." This [bam] is myriad. This [motsu] is "things." "Many things." "There is their own virtue in many things."
You should say-- masani means “you should.” “Should,” you know. This [iu] is “say.” And its application [yo ] and the place [sho]. “You should say”-- here it says “say,” but it means “you should see,” you know-- ”see” and “say.” “You should notice.” When you notice something, you will say [something], so same thing.
“You should say,” or “You should notice its application and where the truth is applied.” So if you see things, you should know there-- there is-- true teaching is revealing itself. And you should see it. And, you know, in what w- -- Sho means “place.” “In,” you know, “in what place the truth revealing itself.”
Hmm. And sometime we use this word [ko] and this word [yo] together: koyo. Ko means, you know, “function.” And yo is its utility. Koyo means, you know-- When we say koyo, we understand each things [ji ]. And not only each things, we understand background of each things, which is ri. So we do not understand things just as you see [them]. You-- we understand background of each things.
And we should know how you use it, you know. To know how you use it is to know the teaching. When you know the background of things, or way things are going, that is ri-- way things are going. Then you will know how to use it.
So “to understand things” means to understand background of everything. And to understand value of it means to understand how you use it in right way-- how-- and according to the place-- according to the place-- according to the things-- we should know how you use it. To know how you use it is to know the background of each things. That is to see things-as-it-is, you know.
Usually, to see things-as-it-is, means, you know-- Usually, even though you say, “I see things-as-it-is,” you don't. You see the one side of the truth, or one side of the each reality-- one side of the reality, not the oth- [partial word-- ”other”?]-- background. You don't see the background, which is ri. You only see things in term of ji-- each event, each things-- and you think each thing exist in that way, but it is not so. Each things are changing and related with each other. And each things has its background. The reason why-- There is reason why they are here.
So to see things-as-it-is means to understand ji and ri is one, and distinction and equality is one, application of the truth and the value of the things is one. When we understand in this way, we understand things-as-it-is. So we, you know-- for an instance, we thinks, you know, all universe is for human being [laughs]-- only for human being. That is not right understanding, you know. That is very selfish understanding.
Our understanding is mostly based on, you know, human-centered idea. So you don't see true value of the things. You don't appreciate the true value of things. Nowadays we talk about, you know-- our idea is more-- became wider. Our way of understanding things are more free and wider. But even so, our understanding of things is very human-centered understanding.
So you have many questions [laughs] to ask me. If you understand this point clearly, there is not much things to ask. Most of the questions and problems are, you know, created by human-centered selfish idea. “What is birth and death?” you know [laughs]. That is already very self-centered, you know, idea. Of course, birth and death is our, you know, our virtue [pointing to ko].
So every-- almost all the question comes from narrow understanding of things. So it is necessary, you know-- to understand things in this way: more wider sense, more clear understanding is necessary. You may think to talk about this kind of thing doesn't help you at all [laughs, laughter]. It will not help you [laughing] as a selfish, you know, human being. It will not help any selfish human being. Buddhism does not-- do not treat human being in special category. When we treat human being in a special category, we treat human being who has very egoistic deluded being [laughs]. That is human nature.
But you accept, you know, actually. You do not reflect on our human nature and try to, you know, find out some truth-- try to find out some confidence in yourself. But that is not possible, because background is wrong.
So here [Bammotsu onozukara ko ari] we say, “everything-- all being-- has its own virtue.” So human being should be in the place where we are. [Writes on board.] Sho. Tokoro. “Place.”
And human being has some nature. So according to the nature, we should live like human being. Only when we live like human nature [being] who is-- who has selfish human nature, you know, it means that you are following the truth in its greater sense, because we count [take into account?], you know, our nature in our judgment. So we should live like human being. That is how we should live in this world. So we cannot-- we should not try to be a cats or dog, which has, you know, more freedom [laughs] and [are] less selfish. Human beings should be put in a cage or [laughs] invisible, you know, big cage, when dog and cats is-- has no special cage of morality or, you know, teaching or religion. They don't need any religion. But we human being need religion. We human being should say, “excuse me” [laughs], but cats and dog don't need to say “excuse me.” So human being should follow our way, and cats and dogs should follow their way. This is, you know, how we should apply our-- the truth for everything.
Although, you know, if we, you know, observe human way and cats and dog observe animal way, it looks like human way and animal way is different. Why it is different is because we human being has different nature from animal and different form from animal. Although it is different, but background of our nature is same. Because, you know, the place we live-- where we live-- is different-- so application of the truth should be different. Like we use electricity, you know. We will use it as a light, you know, and sometime as a speaker. But when you use electricity, according to the usage of the electricity, you know, the mechanism should be different.
So human being has its own mechanism, and animal has its own mechanism. So, you know, even though way of using it is different, but we are all using same electricity. So is the application of the truth. This is actually what he is talking about-- Sekito is talking about.
So we should not attach to the difference of the usage because we are using same nature, or same thing-- same true nature or buddha-nature. So we are doing actually same thing. So time and-- according to the situation, we will use buddha-nature in different way. That is how we apply-- how we find out the true nature in-- within ourselves in everyday life.
Next two line:
Ji sonsure ba kangai gasshi,
[ri ozure ba sempo saso.]
Ji means-- I explained already ji-- ”various things and events,” and including things you have in your mind-- ”things you think about” is ji. Ri is “something beyond your thinking or beyond your understanding or perception” is ri. And again, ji and ri is same thing.
When we think about [something], we are think[ing] about this [ji?]. So actually, it doesn't-- Same thing, but we must understand in two ways. We should not-- our understanding limit in this area of ji.
Now, Ji sonsure ba kangai gasshi. Ji-- when we see-- where there is ji, things, there is ri, like cover [gai] and its container [kan], you know, meet together. Ri is, you know, understood in this sentence [Line 35]. “Where there is ri-- there-- ji-- there is ri, like cover and-- container and cover meet.” It means that where there is someone, you know, that I am here means that the true buddha nature is here. So I am, you know, tentative expression of buddha nature, and-- I am not just “I,” you know. It is more than “I.” I am expressing true nature in my own way, so that I am here means that all whole universe is there [here], like that there is lamp [referring to the kerosene lamp on the altar].
Ri means-- I already explained. Ri ozure ba. When ri accord with the event-- ”the way ri accord with ji “ (events or things) “is like two arrow meet together.” And there is old story for this. There were-- in China, in old China, in War Period, there were famous-- famous archery master [Hiei]. And his disciple, Kisho, you know, were-- was also very good at-- in archery [laughs]. And his disciple, you know, became very ambitious, and he [laughs] wanted to compete with him [Hiei]. And he was waiting for his master's coming with bow and arrow like this [demonstrating].
That, you know, that I am old, for an instance, there is some reason [laughs]. Without reason, I do not become old [laughs]. And without reason, you know, I cannot be-- I couldn't be youth, you know, a boy. With same reason, I became old, you know, so we cannot complain why I became old [laughs]. The background of, you know, my being old is the background of my being raised up as a youth-- as a beautiful boy [laughs, laughter]. If I should complain, I should complain when I become a, you know, good youth and see a beautiful girl [laughs]. I should complain at that time also, because, you know, background of my being old is always same, you know. We-- we-- I am supported-- I have been supported [by] same background, and I shall be also supported [by it] even [when] I die. [Laughs, laughter.] That is, you know, our understanding.
When you, you know-- To accept things, you say, looks like very difficult, but it is not difficult. It is very easy to accept things-as-it-is. Very easy. If it is not easy, if it is difficult, “Why it is difficult?” you should think, you know. Maybe, you may say, it is because of your shallow, you know, selfish understanding of yourself. But you say-- you may say why [do] we have selfish understanding of things? But selfish understanding of things is also necessary. Because we are selfish, you know, we work hard. Without selfish understanding, we cannot work.
So we need some candy [laughs] always. That candy will be selfish understanding. It is not something to be rejected, but it is something which helps you always. So, you should be, you know, grateful for your selfish understanding which create [laughs] many questions. That is just question. It does not mean much [laughs, laughter]. You can enjoy question and answer, you know [laughs, laughter]. You can play j- [partial word-- ”joke”?] play game with it, but you shouldn't be so sincere about that. That is understanding of middle way.
The understanding of middle way could be understanding of ri, emptiness, and understanding of somethingness, which is ri [ji]. And both is necessary, you know, because we are human being and we-- our destiny is to live for maybe 80 years or 90 years as a human being, so we must have some selfish, you know, way of life. Because we have selfish way of life, we will have difficulties, at the same time, which we should accept. When you accept, you know, in that way, it is middle way. You don't reject it. You accept it, but you don't stick to it, you know. You just enjoy it-- enjoy your human life as long as you live. That is middle way, you know. That is understanding of ji and ri.
So, when there is ji, there is ri; when there is ri , there is ji. To understand in this way is to enjoy our life without rejecting problems or suffering.
Suffering, you know-- I noticed something, you know, very important, which I did not put emphasis on it so much so far. Suffering is very valuable thing, I think. Our zazen practice should be, you know-- I understand today, when I was talking with someone-- discussing with someone, you know. Our practice may be-- could be, you know, suffering-- practice of suffering. How we suffer will be our practice [laughs]. It helps a lot.
I think most of us has suffering, as you have pain in your legs when you sit. In everyday life, you have suffering. Bishop Yamada-- do you know him? Perhaps some of you may know him. His-- He put emphasis on unshu, which Hakuin Zenji practiced for a long time. He was weak. He suffered consumption when he was young, and he conquered the illness by zazen practice. His zazen is called, you know, unshu. Unshu means to-- when you take breathing, you do groar-- what [how] do you say-- ”m-m-m-mmm”?
Students: Groan?
SR: Groan? M-m-m-mmm. When you suffer, you know, you say “m-m-m-mmm” [laughs] or “m-m-m-mmhh.”
Students: Sigh?
SR: No, not sigh.
Students: Moan?
SR: Moan-- no. More strength-- like a tiger in pain.
Students: Roar? Growl?
SR: Growl? [Laughing.] He always said when you-- your breathing should be like breathing you when you suffer. M-m-m-mmm, m-m-m-mmm. [Laughs, laughter.] Instead of saying “m-m-m-mmm, m-m-m-mmm,” [laughs, laughter] he said you should put more strength here [pointing to hara]
When you, you know, you suffer just from-- by here [pointing to his chest and panting]
Bishop Yamada, you know, had from his-- he has had always difficulties until quite recently. He became-- he, you know, is, maybe, over the cloud, you know [laughs]. So maybe when he was in America, he suffered a lot in Los Angeles [laughs, laughter]. He suffered. But I have-- at that time, I have not much suffer, you know-- suffer from, so I couldn't understand-- I couldn't agree with his practice of unshu, like, you know, a sick person [might]. “M-m-m-mmm.” [Laughs, laughter.] “What is that practice?” I thought. [Laughs, laughter.] “M-m-m-mmm, m-m-m-mmm.” But I found out, you know, why he practiced that kind of practice. And I found out that that practice helps us a lot. Of course, he understood, you know, what is suffering. No one likes suffering, but our destiny is to have suffering. That is human destiny. And how we suffer is the point. No one enjoys suffering, but we should not be completely caught by suffering. We should know how to suffer our human suffering. That may be Bishop Yamada's practice.
So, to find out oneness of ji and ri, oneness of joy and suffering, oneness of joy of enlightenment and difficulty of practice is, in one word, our practice which is called “middle way.”
Mmm. Do you-- did you understand [pointing to Lines 35 and 36]?
You may say, when there is suffering, there there is joy of suffering, or there there is nirvana. When even you are in nirvana, you know, you cannot be-- get out of suffering. That is true nirvana. Buddhist nirvana is something like that. In suffering there is nirvana. That is true understanding of nirvana. “Extinction of-- complete extinction of desire,” we say, but what does it means by-- by it is to have complete understanding of it and to live accordingly. That is zazen, you know. You are like this [sitting upright]. You are not this way-- this side of-- leaning over [to] the side of nirvana, or leaning against the side of the suffering. Right here. That is our zazen. So everyone can sit, you know, [everyone can] practice our zazen.
Mmm. No time to have question and answer. Ah, maybe.
I am talking about-- I am following his poem one by one, or-- so-- it is-- but actually it is necessary to read from beginning to end, you know, like this. If you talk about [it] piece by piece, it doesn't make much sense.
But next lecture will be the something like conclusion of all the lectures we-- I gave. He is very strict, you know, in the conclusion [laughs]. Very strict. You cannot escape from him. [Makes humorous noise.] You cannot say anything [laughs]. If you say something you will get a big stick, that's all [laughs, laughter]. [Makes another humorous noise.] At [In] his time, you know, the Zen world was too noisy, so he became angry with it. “Shut up!” [laughs]-- that is what he said, actually, in one word [laughs]. So I shouldn't talk so long. Maybe already too long [laughs]. Excuse me.