The Koan Of Everyday Life

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good weekend
morning everyone good morning
oh
i hope everyone is ok
i haven't heard any really
bad news about our sangha members for else in the day you know practicing
last time i spoke i talked about various aspects of practice given the situation that we're all in
and today
i want to continue doing that i think that my my experience is that will really express something one time we go here but it doesn't
the or carry over into our lives so much so we that to say something over and over again in order to to penetrate
or on our psyche and the practice
some critical some of these points again i think
maybe the different points or at least
reminder said on how we practice during this particular time
and i also would like to have questions i won't talk to learn
i would like to your questions and over a rather not say other any questions and then fall into a deep silence
because i know everyone has some questions and mean i still think we will be do a thorough anyway
well i think about this situation
reminds me of home
this to
terms
the archaeology and local and i talked about these are the usual ah gil g japanese term buddhist or i'm actually a been in continuous practice
are totally talks about your g a lot that and and suzuki roshi talks about a lot without mentioning the name
can
com is a ring
the ring of the way as it's the your way room or that the
the aspects of pog
the actual
ah
rhythm on my practice which is continuous
so to set up that rhythm is so important
i easily lose the rhythm
i always think of everything is brackets anyway i will be married and attention or my breath
i'm an and when my mind gets kind of loose i'll come back to breathe and breathing is always deep breathing abdominal breathing is always in the background of my actions
i really am
the deeply breathing meaning photograph
i'm not that which are those be beyond your chef and into your lower abdomen and feels like you're the after the election it's the bottom
so you have a full breath
always
a people say were elder but knew that target to do it sometimes but actually omens
that's good that's a basis of continuous practice
you know and doesn't i'll be prime out path
we come in from the a busy life and sit down and then up his life
oh we're not so wherever breathing were a breath extends to ah and well weapon at the bottom of a great list
the rising and falling a new lower abdomen as to feels like it said through involved that you feel when you inhale would have been an expanse and will you accept contract and well as a tiny
the here are my little busy and
reviews anxiety and

were caught up in a mental constructions to start and primary breath by taking a big graph like this
an action plan
when you take a breath
we've told it's like a parable attire
nuclear waste is like attire
there's a tired around you wished he played the breath and the entire expanse this is more like an inner tube
i richman
oh brother
from the intimate and their back on meat so that all branches experts doubt
and i'll get in
and about
did you get three guns than just normal people
you know
that settled divine settled human who settled the promotion in your feeling and then he started again
so taking these pauses
ms really important
the here know i learned how to do this
through
ah the pain comes after this should why i already tried searching everybody needs to go through that capable
as right the passage on pinterest legs
we've caused were underneath machines went back in the sixties
the and seventy i had so much pain you know i've been through on political views with everybody you know people like him in the already never and now
he can jump out the time in the robot but but that's not true that i went through lots and lots of difficult and brain and what's the evening was breath
oh god didn't work good it didn't work
counting on them over a member of the
of verities doesn't worry just make sure it was the only thing that would have been carried him through and lurched was really one breath at a time
the caption can't stay you get to the point where you can't stay and you can't leave
does that go on a bergen chance date and can we what do you do
so i was forced to one breath at a time my whole body mind with focus on breath and that crap cover the whole world
ah then eventually i got to the point where
i didn't need to ah
be caught by the pain difficulty
instead of fighting again or whatever constantly ah merge into it so there is no longer when you think it is
this is the secret of our practice goes to be one with
are accurately not to apply the patrol you escape from the potent
that's how we learn that to escaping to people but how to open to the cell tower there's a problem i can tell you how to get and twenty with as the weather
michelle
so i can remember
our my teachers be version and they just be one with typically
hi how do i do that hello
and then tratamiento have enough i remember running back to below
obama dunno a kitchen i bet best what i felt i wanted to get an action that i didn't manage money
ah
so
ah
practice becomes asian into your food
when at other uttered have pain in my legs
i mean what other people with nicola ten dollars a night out but to me it's not that i'm just ah some sensation know i have i don't come on every subject new ocean talking about
i'm when you're up in a tree
and you go on and fall from the tree
i'm
we should have the presence of mind can be able to find a bunch

oh
so how do you maintain a presence of mind to ordinary situation
love get caught and will point
you called freedom to them
so when i sit that shut was on them
i'm a little step nerves day animals
no away your life and work
ah but i just open up to it and are not teaching grab onto anything with it has you
whatever will pick up
i have this cup but actions cup as many as well
john how to i'm no
andrew i can come one with the pup so that islam is known
ace is though distance
even though there is distance you know it can and usually national additions and talking about
there's no separation
the company to come on the but i am recovering caffeine and the tell him you had something that turn out to hold it to them drop
so that everything is communicating and
everything i do
pick up or touch
yes saying something can be about how to relate to it
the penn relays and telling you how to relate to it
you cannot listen it winced
takes you over
go into one of us is teaching in one was
how to act together what i'm writing to you were teaching me how to really do and i have to pick up hunting down
not like i just have some idea in my mind but who you are i just forget about who you are
and should have my my to reopens
when we have docusign my mind totally open unattended or listen settlements out and they're like list and i know what to expect and all expectations you out the window

a novel again
an editing suzuki roshi lectures were in the book
and as i go through them they're outside same name our be touched
don't be selfish
that's all message
don't be selfish
and to approach each thing as if you had no idea my list
the reconnecting what where you

he talks about her a lobby and sobbing which means something like
pamela
various things average people watching i know i'll explain them into the don't understand that well
but for him while being stung mins
just let it go on your ideas
and when you see a drop of water on a branch the tree
does she had just needs is
and a it contains the whole list

so we can actually enjoy our difficulty you know that that that dude
everything's are challenged and will be master while back there admitted to the sixties
hum changed and master who used to visit him once in awhile me and my friends know
on
the same was one is my little things that i remember the day when everything is a test to see what you will know
that bracket everything is a chest
if you seem to have and practice than you're not stuck somewhere
test instead of oh my god isn't with sky falling
sky is falling
the hundred just let it all
well it will do flynn and how do we are
dance with it

as someone under the new bumper sticker to once and said
instead of putting on your raincoat is take up your clothes down tonight
and that's still good offer you get your pitching
he i wrote a bunch of blokes at night
amanda that was the beginning or what i was talking about energy and took on
a continuous bracket
so what should the hero she was talking about always and that which is always been the main things of his dogs
ah yes
practice or simply lunch
have you live your life without the a carpet

you know we always taken our freedom and then and of the trade
oh you have to earn a check
ah no world and still had the flu
ah but no by legislation
a slave not do it i'll actually our our country has been taken over by the person to them
hello reagan started in one reagan and ayn rand
you may remember when our japan selfishness is richard
and that whole idea of been building up positions until we get mr john
the park phenomenon a show of is ritchie
and all those people who want to follow nerve posted
ah
john again an i also have thought about you know
how difficult it is all started close
nobody wanted he wanted parasites you know is the kind of search work
where do you go
as a will there's a kind of deprivation
oh and i think of the deprivation
i think of on well the refugees all over the world mission predictable there will be in and twenty first century will be migrations and enormous migrations
and dutch what's happening right now and heroics the real heroics are among the refugees
note we have a hard time getting to editor the big complaint and about you know where's the toilet paper
but the wreckage in where's toilet paper
yeah refugee where's the food where's the bedding weight of having to carry your kids and a lot on march
were incredible totally incredible and our replacements
everybody protecting their space from invasion and leveraging
and ah the the real people the people who benefit most a of welcome
i don't want to go into politics
but come life is powered by his political
they can help it
but
ah those who make
who the biggest profits
the back
a arms manufacturers
the arms manufacturers help people to go in and to
divide countries and societies against each other again supplied
the earth
the guns and ammunition that they are usually guess you can
it's arrow has been thus
during the civil war there are more rapidly who made the relations
the themselves about can continue fighting killing each other than they are you there
hum
i'm weapons
hello
someone in a jungle someplace with brought up in the jungle template and those hand him up somehow gets an expensive firearm what about work
for that
anyway so the world is really in the chaotic place today and how we maintain our equilibrium l maintain our practice element can earn a earn
stayed at the mine
in all this chaos is i called our practice
how to remain upright how to remain
a stable and balanced and not yet no caught by too much by own machine but i have read your emotions which passed through the are constantly
constantly raging motions against the way they done against the splendid alan
but
i'm always grounded in my practice and i know i have what i have to do and i know that account
i can influence my surroundings
what i do
but i'm ah
doyle was on his guns
and you put out a fire over there and then fires don't prevent that they go over here to pull out the fire and the buyer don't believe so the own by the only boy one and you can put them all out and and few despair you go crazy
just
can care of our own world our own surroundings
that's an elven figure back on the world
if we lose our composure
we fall into a trap
the hard to maintain our composure loser bracket
no we have to let all this chaos go through us and that minute stop
naturally
are always know
dealing with understand i
though it's time to washing machines time to noting canon turning going to tangle the your job title whatever and that we have to find our rhythm
not falling to spare
because the world has always been it is now it just now she's stubborn it's all we can happen
you look back in history
and look at the ancestors and dog and time it was chaotic into them
villagers will be the ability to be burned and robbers rather highway and it's only been like this and there to win in one respect to no problem is we are unaware have been until the twentieth century
no we didn't know what my yeah no but the wall and going to join intended by the world think is kind to know
reordered the world
well how can together and for the ancestors have given us the status
this is the way to negotiate through the world of chaos
to the steinhauer of the world of seven shockingly good at that biography of the antigen is suffering and how to deal with it
the end of suffering but he ended several doesn't mean that submarines over
that means know how to deal with something know that suffering
is not something that well that remember at home attention
there's pain
and then of suffering
pain is pain and suffering is when you don't want him
i when you don't matter
but suffering pain and japan wishing to the secret of love him
playing just plain just the sensation he happened consumption and when we try to escape from them he suffered
instead of trying to escape to enter into

the one that would be one with news
i was leading up the one boy
no the isn't
just let me do and do nothing
whether we like it or don't want it
well that's why be shouting
a to your and when means
ah
the and emotion beyond few and beyond the just
to experience something as a rules
i tunes as a with the pentagon launched an invisible until you know how to drop everything not
jaw dropping everything needs to be one lebanon
two separate that show through emotion feeling and bot is com separation
i'm fortunate that are fun and you have to do that we should move to the world and anatomy with them
but we also have to
no to be free from the shepherd elegans worm and ultimate the target
at the same time that we aren't huge to
a letter i wrote down always need
but i never found one ever does
oh
so our present situation
his for pain and suffering for it so many people

flow the way i feel a little bit guilty because i don't have any that
letter
but somehow i'm not
i can go about my business i can create my own rhythm that to worry about where the making the ills coming from
we have some place near the a little inconvenience
call the can damage
the messenger murder when most people are going to

so anyway
if you have any questions
have you ever question please feel free to a an animal image still
america just a moment we're gonna try and brush with know what we're just in the volume after okay he was my microphone was a little bit down surgeon and so may be other people's microphones will be good to ah please feel free to a raise a hand
and under participants you can raise a hand or a glass or something and i'll call you just like alan web did remember out to lower your hand after you've been called on and off mute and unmute yourself if you can go to that ritual and again as such a like and as i would like please
he's asked a question do not be afraid and even though this medium is weird or you can type a question and i will read that question so first ellen could you on low your hand and not meet yourself and ask a question
oh i can hear okay can you hear me now yes yes i'm so when you talk about and yeah kind of had relating to pain or emotion
is that can you seen wait what am dropping body and mind have that have that connects to that yeah that's it
a question to answer it
that's a you know
like oh my work is always criticizing me know a revenge should say something they don't let them a little jab and a river an early
you know
just the way she is
no i don't want to retaliate
metallic asian creates problems
so i think maybe she's right now and then i think like what am i doing
to create the situation for her to do that
instead of she just doing something though but i'm there's something i'm doing that this year's
the problem that could that caused her to say something
so where's my part in august so the neutralizes the situation i don't have to get caught with my reaction but i'm trying to understand why jeb what i'm saying actually comes or goes run and come back to me but i don't see how it got out that happened
i just know
a reaction face and said rack into the travel of the i understand the problem
so
i'm
and if we if we make an effort to see how how when comes to us how we create visit the the environment for that to happen it really eases the situation that lot and instead of blaming somebody
the i can look at my own
well my my own position my own actions was create that which comes to it
can i ask trash can i ask a foul
and when you say dropping body it sounds so dualistic to me in our desert it fell so like two things
what are the to think me and my body
yeah like that
i'm
oh well because we think of ourselves as anybody
you know hum
if we take it literally than real problem in then parlance
you have to the not take things literally
no kanji the any spoken words or less the
so when we say body my mobile is a really good but it doesn't mean you know my arms legs
live but embodiment
my presence by a
i'm keeping my spiritual body can be my physical body can be my home
imagine a two button
the drop body and mind is a good on
everything is it you know an indo guns understanding go again said our practice is called gen joe cohen
ken job means because of everyday life
the corner presently the is presented to us moment by moment as we live our lives
so dropping body and mind it means like letting go about a preoccupation with ourself
that would be
thank you
get stuck on ben i invite you to and then will go curtain job so next band turn up yes below your hand and on meet yourself
how can you hear me okay yes as such a rush you thank you for your talk
you were mentioning hell
michelle
editing of suzuki roshi it's about don't don't be selfish
and
what they made me think of is that
how do we not be selfish or how does one not be selfish when you're in some sort of emotional distress you talked a little bit about despair i know from working for a psychology publisher some of the one or two the books we've done there's studies that show when people feel
feel unsafe or unwell mentally it narrows to your ability to feel for others connected with others and it actually increases yourself focus right and i think i'm at times experienced a little bit of that so i wonder if you can speak of how to how
to deal with that how to escape that narrowing of self that can happen when you feel like you're in trouble

them
well you know
at it will be going to help an example
did you can think of some example
because the other words can abstract this
i'm i'm trying to land at an example maybe this is a minor one
but maybe it will work just
who
i don't know if this quite lands on it but i've found since the since the lockdown
just a little writing of my the narrowing of my patients shorting about patience and a little rising the of sort of crowd genus with my wife around the house you know we're both working from home in a small apartment and i can i can observe how
how i i seem to be more strongly self-focused by default so and i don't i try not to stay there but i can feel the impulse to or it's sort of feels like a narrowing of vision or a narrowing of feeling where i feel more stuck inside my own
ah preferences and default positions if that makes sense yes will it gets good you know just recognizing that is the beginning
then
realizing that why is that happening
or
ah
how can i broaden i got my wife with it no
confined i don't know if you ever saw the japanese movie woman in the dunes
with these two people are trapped in the sand sand bar and with no way to get out because and set aside your claim out in the sandbox
the sands kids notes that this concerned back to it is no way to get out so this is the great come on
so the women when you have that feeling
as a just
how do i do with his cola
this is my gone realize that you're given the climb
a gift corn
it doesn't really cramped you should feel that this is the gift to go on from it how am i do in the seattle will go
how do was actually let go of the fruit like my self centeredness how can i let go of myself in an allow my mind to broaden to the situation
oh actually
we don't like being confined
confinement is how we actually
learn something without you find it would lower anything
this is wide
her practice zazen is the greatest confinement
new told him a pretzel
and how'd he did you find your freedom within this confinement
we all have this gif of confinement
if you see it as a trap
oh yeah cause that's what we're getting caught by it
so the drop drop the and market
this is like to let go of your confinement you can find that is simply in your mind is not
ah you know it's not the walls lucky for you combine it's in mind the you combined
mma let go of the feeling that were confined we find our freedom
so it's good to these things are coming up you know when you are training dog
back and on where you're training a dog you want to die to make mistakes so the country them
if the dog is now making its cage and trend is not doing something that no-one to do you can't train them so we wanted to do those things so that
dreamed up to your nonsense
for everything is everything is an opportunity misses work practices dropping body and my means that everything is an opportunity
instead of it and hindrance hindrances are opportunities
i love a chart
no like it
it's on next up please a curt pound by a to lower your hand and and me yourself and there are many questions in our time has grown a the closing so please let's keep our questions about
a brief
a hello ah sort hiroshi can you hear me now yes okay great ah thank you for the talk on as you are talking about in a being present in your life with your experience i a it came up for me that when i am
i am president inserted intimate with my experience the thing that i noticed that sometimes separates me or pulls me back from the world is my desire for things to be different or to be better or to there a
fear and you talked about entering into things should i try to enter into my desire is at also being intimate being intimate desire was not good or bad you know what is either and just desire ah that desire
these are the motivational tool
the desire is fire
now desire refiled and so desire can be used in all kinds of words that can be used in an altruistic way be used in the selfish way it can be used at it's up to you how you want to deal with it or or how you want to use it instead of it using you when you are
using desired
you are
ah
oh
no it's a toy and becomes a and tool for whatever removed he wanted to me when you be used by desired than you are captivated so usually only talked about desire we talked about it as been captivated by it it's manipulating you
but to just you and a good and yourself
so how do how to use desire the way we use desire for instance is called putting your effort into practice
that's desire be used
a to a to improve the europe for your practice of letting blog desire
you know
buddhist practice it's actually suicide
i will where is not releasing the said that he added it's like and it's inspired near not chile your ego but by controlling your ego
so how how we use our user get thirty go and scenario using us though who's in control
who's the master that's a big go on and a and regulation point
who is the master or mistress and whenever
who's in charge and your ego and charge you desire in charge
you can charge
daydreamer forgotten of them certain roshi we have a question from be here that's written down he says how how do how can we remember to bring our attention to our breath and the storm of emotions and well it out
breath just goes on whether we like it or not
and so on
react you have some discipline
and the discipline
i'm
if you say i am an area

the i don't think about it
i just i'm just is just blair's are sometimes to the foreground and sometimes it's in the background when i'm busy doing serpents in the background and when i'm not does he do he served with it becomes footage in the foreground so
a wizards in the foreground or background it moment by moment is just there we are being briefed
a breathing and it's not a function of our of our will
we are getting bridge well i am breathing so the universe is breeding baked and if i don't want to touch the universe
consciously disconnected brash
the breath is the universe switches and for me you have itself
and say i am new
brass
it's so wonderful why do one mm which getting better all time it's the most wonderful thing that we have as our breath
we're out of think he mode or anything it's just the vision and a because it's so obvious me miss it
truth is so obvious that we miss it
the algae is so obvious that we him
so enjoy your breath is his life with the is universally we sometimes don't realize that we are a cosmic beings
that sounds like spaceships and so know what cosmic planes we are the whole cosmos inbreeding nevada know how do we tap into the universe so i breath

oh one final question i invite you job to lower your hand and on meet yourself and ask the final question
i can you hear me
yeah sort of hi i'm such an ashy on
us you were talking about the rhythm of practice and
right now with the situation i find that the i've gotten myself into this wonderful thing on and i'm working on negotiating the new rhythm because with all the soon stomps whereas before all this
here in santa barbara i go sunday morning and i do my daily practice and now i have i was counting five different zen zoom fence all of which are wonderful
and i'm trying to do teaching which is wonderful on and of course on during my music which is wonderful about the it's definitely lose definitely on your attention on that happens
because well it happens well you'll tell me out because i wouldn't want to compose and it's going really well and then i have something and so i do the center and the same thing is wonderful but there's the transition is a tense
then and my mind goes fast during that time
so
any help you can give me that would be great
well
don't agree with him
hmm yes
that sounds like good advice to make new autumn
and nested isn't don't go to see you at
right so
well he said as a m
surgeon that's it when you final remark in front of remark
and much an msm and of yes okay on the linda
the that it is that with feel free to call and somebody how cow paul has manda ok corral lock oh i found your weapon
the okay so my my my party my party where it is
ah
ah
m
no
given our separation and or inability to be and zendo and and other
what i'm practicing with myself my my space i encourage always practicing with you at the same time
and if we all realize that we're practicing with each other even know were separated
ah that works i don't know
a
i don't need a tune in when everybody simpler than rover just paid just realized the my practice is harmonizing the or crackers
there's enough without even knowing what you doing that but i know the world to make a big effort to practice uganda situation and that i call on was right there and are permitted pitch
moment by moment
did you go on practice in everyday life each moment arises institution or i'll be going
the been
how do we harmonize be
because moves with our daily with washing the dishes