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the truth is that there yesterday in my talk
i made a mistake and i was talking about
returning to carry sick the cure soccer and i said that down the nukes a number of women had asked me if was if i could carry the stigma and and acid that no man had asked that and if that it was kind of interesting
and then accelerate into a kind of remark that was not acceptable
there was some ah
have detrimental and i can see that i heard a number of people and for that want to purchase

hmm
so
leslie

and
last night
suzuki roshi
ceremony
ha ha ha comments a lorry brought a takedown but for this poem which she couldn't remember and it'll play work because i can never move either even though it's my one of my favorite poems fifty
so we can tell you how the girls because city great poem
this poem was on appears in the tens of kelkoo
goggins
ah
i'm anna
practice of them
cookie in the kitchen
in palm coast like this one seven three five the truth you search for cannot be grasped
as night advances a bright moon eliminate the whole ocean
the dragons jewels i found in every way
looking for the moon it is here initially in the next
oh this is a upon by so i do seto who compiled the book of record
and the way i use this as a commentary
and when he went to china
and even for you need a commentator
hmm
k o anyone would he went to china and i will
i met the tens of of not a you want
oh enlightened him as to what rep practice really is
the august one seven three five
the truth you search for cannot be grasped
as night advances and bright moon illuminates the whole ocean
the dragged stools i've found in every way
looking for the moon it is here in this land in the next
so this is like the moon the light of the moon dancing on the waves
the moon courses enlightenment
and the waves are our everyday activity
every moment of our everyday activity is why the moon is shining
ah
the irish pelvis glee
you may have seven the up with for he put in scope river that
gliese his life for sparkles of life and no waves but as they dance on the waves is what's the one seven three thought well once every three five with everything
in in i kind of random way although some commentators traitor treader attributed to something formula but it's more or less the of it what what what looks like the arbitrary
activity of like
which is not arbitrary
the seems savagery
it's just waiting follow the place one fact three when i love
damn they didn't really want to talk about this any further
after that internet and i will
and i'm prepared to do that
when tony and went to china he said on book because he was quarantined
for a couple months
and he could get on the dark here but he couldn't wander round china
and one day
an old man who was a monk came from america you want a were moving to china we visit the iowa monastery
which is over the hill from james monastery
adam
the boutiques much day
tom not downtown
and so
yeah i voted most is a wonderful place to another stupor chanson there when he older stupid from china
hmm
the continent pagoda
newtown anyway
so
and gogol scientists a monk oh man he was an unusually infinity and he was
by mushrooms
korea
for months he was the tensor time and he had walked over to my you on to burn the boat was like to my mushrooms and them
dog i'm working out there in the sand he should learn use you know i can to send some young guys to work to to do this kind of work and am
the most day the tension you know nobody else can do my work
that was one of the keys
no one else can do my work i have to do this is my me and i have to do so i get no one else can do that
and and surprised jogging and because dug in had thought that jazz in and reading studying the old cases and gently switches was my practice was
like many purists he didn't understand that daily life which where the practices did not feel that that was never presented and level voted the problem said he had with em
ha
president and the packages and japan in his day
now that
buddhism was kind of omit the mysterious thing for adults
and it still this know they feel that feeling
mysterious practice for addicts and them
a daily life with an ordinary day i was not connected with practice and so a tensor was showing something and
dog is over his practice
never share your email you don't understand practices and don't use think about my dish practice in the merchant went two three four five
how does it come on for duncan
and later when and work then he took his mushrooms went over the hill in one day
china's full of mountains
and even the mountain and the others hannah is a long way
an appeal for down but you know people water near analog no faith so i can imagine
other
we took a road that
it
so

when we were i here
so the know it you don't understand characters
terms of what his characters and isn't one two three four five
hmm

so unreasonable

philip

when i was at not jumped on a bug held low from creamy on who was serving his ten so
one day after the new meal i was walking to another building with the villa complex when i noticed
low dried mushrooms from the sat in front of the boots them
he carried a bamboo stick but had no hand on his hands the sun's rays been down so harshly that the titles along the loc bird on his feet lou work hard and was covered with slip i cannot help but feel the work was too much a strained by him
his back was a or john taught his long eyebrows were green white
i approached a nest sage his age he retired he was sixty eight
years old then i went on to ask him why he never used any assistance in the ancient other people are not be the realization that i can see can you work is the activity of the buddha dharma but why are you working so hard it is good in the scorching sun he replied if i don't do it now
what else can i do it he wasn't actually permitted train as i walked along the passageway and the hendersons inwardly the true significance in the real intenso
i arrived in china in april twelve twenty three have been unable to disembark immediately i stayed on board ship in a port of ningbo the both were dug in planted and and has remained gene is managing his town of them
monastery on top and that's what movement
unless we have the best meal in china
which is very simple cut by a few much than some women
dance i think an independent who is a monastic below it was so good but an internal issue was grateful comes a banquet every meal
but and that monastery it was likely the oil keeps you know when you eat other on this industry or york is really the best
ah
and
you read it i continue where the activities of buddha he replied he will you do now so i rarely china and twelve twenty three of of being unable to disembark immediately i stayed on board ship in the port of ningbo one day in may while i was talking with the captain and old monk about sixty years of age came directly to
ship to by mushrooms from the japanese merchants and board and writing for tea and asked him where he came where he was wrong he said he was the tensor with the monastery of that are you on and added i am originally from z zhu and although i left there are over forty years ago
and to i'm sixty one this year and i've practiced in symbols and monasteries in this country last year were living and gloom i visited the monastery my are you on and although i spent my time are totally confused as to what what's going on
hey after the summer period last year i was potential
huh
tomorrow is my fifth that hundred body his birthday
after the much i love to prepare a noodle soup but if they did not have any mushrooms to put in i came here to bhushan i asked well what did you leave i want when where did you leave a relationship after much
is far from here all about fourteen miles
will only go when will you go back to the temple and claimed planning to return as soon as i bought to mushrooms
so is there the afternoon and hot day cause the circular new
you can't imagine how fortunate i feel that we were able to meet with a key and i were able to been unexpectedly like this stolen if it's possible i wish he would stay a while longer and allow me to offer you simply more i'm sorry but that's impossible just now if i am not there tomorrow to prepare the meal that will not be made well
well but surely there must be others from that punishes largest are you want more capable of preparing meals and they will love
you will not be that inconvenienced if you're not aware of it
the emotions i can put in charge of this work in my liege it is so to speak the practice and poke my head how can i trust all that support where for others from over when i left the temple and not ask for permission to stay out overnight
but why would you want to old you will do you do the hard work of attends have why do you not spend your time back diseases and are bringing in the column for former teachers is there something special to be gained from working particularly as a cancer
he burst out laughing he remarked my good friend from abroad you do not yet understand what practices all about you do not know the meaning of characters
when i heard this old man's out monks words that was taken aback and shall greatly ashamed so i asked him what our characters in what his practice he replied if you do not deceive yourself about this problem you will be a man the way at that time it was unable to grasp the meaning of his words
if you don't understand he's come devout i on some time and we will talk about the nature of characters much will it was that he rose quickly it's getting late in the sun is about to set i'm afraid i can't stay any longer so then he left from that i want
in july of the same year i stayed on a chat on that really change monastery one day the tensor from our i want came to see me and he said as december practice period has ended i shall be retiring as tensile and plan to return home i heard that you are here in what a dream is to talk with you
see how you were doing i was indeed happy to see him and machine to cordially we talked about various things and finally came to the matter he had touched on above the ship concerning the practice and study of characters he said a person who's fetish characters must know just what characters are
and what he intending to practice the way must understand but practices i asked him once again well what our characters when tissue provide he retired but what is practice there is nothing in the world that is him although we talked about many other things
i will not mention them here
wherever little bit i have learned about characters and practice is largely due to add ginger when i met again with my teacher museum museum went to china with govern he was stand
the disciple for them
a who and to his first vintage your prevent a year and nielsen was the asians
doorman and they would hinder image change together
and then become years and day in china
but if a little bit i have learned about characters and practice is largely due to have tivo
when i met again with my teaching religion who later died in china and told him of my meeting with a tinge of about anyone one he was extremely happy with denzel
it was extremely happy to hear about later on i came across a gotta
which is in we do senco had written for one of his disciples and it goes like this
one seven three try the search the truth you search for cannot be grasped his night advances and bright moon illuminates the whole ocean the dragon students are found in every way looking for the moon it is here in this way in the next it don't
live in with tensor i had met the previous year had been had said coincided perfectly with what they do was pointing out through his gotta i realized more than ever that the tension was a man fully living out the buddha dharma i used to see the characters one two three four and five
five now i also see six seven eight nine ten
future students must be a must be able to see this side from that side as well as that signed from this side practicing with intense effort using all your ingenuity you will be able to grasp genuine jail because beyond the surface of courage to do otherwise only visual can
a lead of up by various changes in that will leave you incapable of preparing meals skillfully for the community
so to be able to see this site from that side and as antrobus said
means from to be able to see the whole from the from a particular
and be shared a particular from the point of view of the have
yeah
to prepare a beautiful wonderful meal from a time see
and ah
ah
to be able to appreciate every little bit dalmia
from the point of view of the whole meal
course meal in preparation is wasn't just truth

am
so that's left the story behind phone

but i wondered
how about talked about this recently i think that it's one of my favorite stories from suzuki roshi
which is titled and version of going to the restroom
ah
sudo which is amiss is how do you feel right now
and latin and election just i don't know how you feel but actual isn't that just reminded restaurant
even when i was young know i just i'm pretty old
so i go to the restroom rather often
even when i was young i went to the restaurant wasn't that was another's and sometimes i had an advantage because of that
when i went to be ag monastery and septum korea ferry to continue of city for several days
the required for injury is a monster in
i could go to the restroom without a guilty conscience because i had to
so if you've ever been when you got a monastery you know you voted the tabby area with the is the small small gate and squeezes he went to master it
you said for seven days for five days and whatever and how you can get em whose bathroom you eat when everybody else seats
but you know they leave his day and there's no tv and or anything just suffered
and am ah
but seducing but i think i have given to the bathroom
the he says i really had to go to the bathroom so if you tell which then big break i have
so i'm
the
when he's talking about you know is keeping ah
not only other things
two
not let yourself get cut with all the stuff that you feel that you feel you have to hang onto
ah
you know talking about our mind being a mind pollution
central pollution
whenever i think it was the second world war
may have been vietnam where he was a
but american captives i think maybe it was vietnam neighbors with were american captives were subjected to and brainwashing remember brainwashing you know it's a popular thing
why they would capture you and md with grandma she's so that you became a kind of robot and we can put all this information into the humanoid robot
but that said
the fifty five cents is that
brainwashing if you practice it well it's kind of brainwashing you're allowed to wash always on the crap out of your brain you know which stays in there and instruments and creates problems for se
hum
ah
delicious
i i think going to the restroom is a good way to look at our practice so we're so fortunate to have thousand which is actually of
way of allowing us to wash and brain to wash mine wash on the trump of my mind should ever became clear and it's not like you know it builds up the bedlam
but as a practice we should be washing telling the up on time
so
i think whenever miniature ways of practicing is to continually continuously that go continuously for they go the slip into a brand new mind if there's something that's really important it will be there but there's so much that
isn't important tennis
creates are ego
how did that go of resentments
resentment or fester and poison mind
hum
how do you
now that girl
certain kinds of desires which
you know we think that our desire to chasing us around but actually we chased them
prostrations i'm having not having what we want and have we got we don't want
which pollute our line will be hang onto them
i when we said as as in
we can see what it is that is killing her mind
can we can chew let me get this opportunity to look at
was

taking your space
so i would we have anger and resentment and confusion
so sometimes it is it's been
characterized as an airplane
certainly the field but unable to land
so we actually have a hard time sometimes being able to land to be a to land in the ground in the nine ground
because
we can't we can't land because
the stuff is swirling around and it's really event
you ever think of perfectly have had a chain of thought they'd just keep circling around in your mind sometimes it's a song
when you're sitting something what concerning your mind
what when you say it doesn't
your stuff how can you how can you let that go
oh you know what their various ways valley ago but
and
repentance is a good way
infinity she's a good way of letting go of myself my pollution because we hang got something and what the liquor
and we we don't let it go it's town
takes up space
so what do we really want to be thinking about
what is it that makes us happy
can we can be thinking that

but the my pip can filled with a pinch of stuff that clubs or ah
happiness
so to be able to liquor something
when it appears is the best way
is equip is insulted
the harder that
but if we can not harbor there and let it go away
make him back in america
but if our practice is to learn to let everything go
when it comes up erica
it's hard to let it go if you don't have a practice of letting go
so sometimes a similar thing
well how can i deal with my anger
the extended an angry way children
how can i give a bagger well they want they want a formula for you know a quick fix but no quick fix you and if you say about do it this way or that way doesn't help because you have to practice it
you have to practice let it go as a practice of time
it's just like well how can i develop to of
you can't you have to practice it as part of your be
and then it's there
so
will we kind of how quickly people want quick fixes
but that nap
in history part of you for letting go to be integral with the as you practice
when i was added at san francisco him
i wish that people interrupt me
though i shall knock him in the door tavon much vodka and i just stop whatever i'm doing
can hear that
roof is leaking but i have to i have go ahead of you
you don't have to
if you practice stopping letting go into see with your front of you you don't have to be stuffed up with sister that you think you have to seek it out on the time sometimes we feel disloyal to our emotions
that's when the biggest problems when i feel disloyal to my anger
if i'm angry at them
comes up and i have an object from anger sometimes i just need an object in order to express anger and it can be a nation doesn't have to be the true object than my anger
the be because i need to express
so it should be careful about that i need to express them pick out this little thing and express it to them
was on the time
some
time it is
am i live if what happens if i don't
the wonder an honoring my anchor i think we should honor our anger
as what it is america
what state do we wanna be in
do i wanna be an angry person and will resent for person we kind of person do i want to be
why why do i want to live like that
oh he will have to live like that because i have to be loyal to my emotions
i'll be betraying my emotions for them not be a coward
that's not true
we should really see something as it really is
the a slave to our emotions and a slave to have believe were willing slaves
we don't have the chance but where we enslave ourselves we give us as other to our change sometimes called the golden threads you know
i can saving ourselves to money is like finding ourselves with golden threat

so how do we find our freedom
we talk about treat him a lot
meet our freedom to do three him to lot freedom to have
but we don't talk about freedom from and bodhidharma is freedom from not really them to do when you have freedom from then
you've read him to do you free to do
but freedom from
remember a bishop sunni when he was the bishop is
i'm in los angeles figure she wouldn't let him up
a me just a shame
need a sissy with with fall asleep
but he had his thick and you like another state and is thick and his characters and of one of the characters me he said free from everything
and so that's scary
anything about three from everything was do i really wanna be free from everything
now i wanna be cut by thinks it's a actually we do we won't because
can we put ourselves
that there so we can become because
it's interesting
an exciting
then patel which oh my god knows and i'm just a cardinal we have three from a recent how do we are doing wanna do that
we want to practice the dharma and we put ourselves from there and get ourselves involved but then comes to a point where we have to say do i really want to do this how far do i want to go
how i don't really want to go there we get stuck somewhere but that's normal and natural
it's not bad and wrong it's just that we get stuck because it's hard to make up of the stuff that we cherish and i'm gonna go the step we cherish that is not good for us
it's a hundred that go of the stuff that we cherish the cost of pain and suffering

so ah
you know
we should we need to have compassion for each other sometimes you get angry at each other you know when we don't really see what's actually happening but i'm just for is reacting to the surface of thing
and we were reacting to the surface of things their blinds us to what's really happening
with each other
can we have to get beyond the surface and see what what is the cause of this person's activities with certain way
and not be in be free from our own reactions
cause soon as we start reacting
ah
we get caught
and so how does stay free from reacting
m a m
express compassion
joseph joe she says
you know you can slobber all over me he becomes better way to but
and i'm left him to that with you
i have to rise above that kind of
reaction or activity so that i can actually
be helpful to you
so
giving up in area mumbai know is to say that the same thing as satin
that's a thousand is giving up a little dull moment by moment you can't sit in zazen he can do seven days if session without letting go moment by moment
giving up and letting go of moment than movement if you hang onto to anything you start suffering
but
they wanted to ask these questions i could not something he said yesterday that asked the same topic i think you said middle of you're talking about girls and that people images religious and never die
did you say that anyone can say it was impassive i didn't say that but that's good
at obviously don't mean that literally and i can make up things that you met that happen if you did say that
sometimes you know if i if someone says something say something that triggers something
that you're thinking about
saw listening that it's not a hallucination
but it's a lucid
zero how's your true that's true out of that well because you weren't they were born
i really do zazen or what about people who is everybody not really for other as enough will feature that know the definite right question
jerk there are two ways that we are going
give birth and death
one way is that we were boy we entered the world that a certain time and we grew up to we got is ever gonna open and we and was left the world that's one way or less with the usual way of looking at birth and death
but
the larger way of looking at birth and death is that nothing ever really is or dies the simply continuation of dharmas
and but we've created a story about
birth and death
because our experience is we started here we enter their that's an experience but an actual when when we actually analyzed look at it
you don't know when you started
you know have to parents
and they came together and created something which but it it wasn't creating something out of nothing
and then before them that happened before i that happened so at this a continued this a continuous
life of person death
linwood and citizen it's not like that ventilation is the continuation of bursa person death so if you really do zazen and you notice so that's why you know that no that's not what you don't have no day because it's a fact
well what about people who dominate do that they don't be thing that i i can say i didn't say that if you use an agent same thing said i'm just trying to get to where you are
the
was it
i have two different conversations with two people recently and their related not really relate
one person doesn't fit started because when they sit that be very angry and all the stuff gets churned up you another person is going through the the suffering and you already believe they get isn't as
and that's just a few days apart the record these conversations and my mind is try to put something together hear about these two k
i was a extremes but these two phenomena yeah to actually say something about
that was idea if to do gave you up
the has just anger is anger choice joe
so
i'm the person who's who always gets angry when they said they should sit more
and the person who is
purchase really really should seven she said why
and the actually live
the your they should bullshit
because and that visages two sides of the same coin
we just two sides of shanghai if you fall in love with somebody years the whole world is alive for you
and that person says i hate you and leaves
and then you hate that person or just something to you he lives with another guy or simply
if you take that same energy from which he loved that person and you hate them with it
it's the same energy
so it's the same thing
so you will anchor is not a thing is just an aspect of energy and enjoyment just an aspect of energy
the just to two different term you know different expressions of the same thing
so this post said
and even out you know if the guy was the anger search lona
we might even up
are neither elated dorm angry
so the work for the person who finds a relief in zazen if you're not particularly advocating you should work or out in the world off the cushion to try to deal with your letter that i've said it you feeling is that on the cushion in both cases the people's lives for the one
three five seven

as a change
and and reviews go and get tack and and document and a cartoon cartoon and card game shows this
baggage yes yeah an airport runs chest and hobbies
but somebody to stand out
a paper game have collaborative ah there's my anger my excess to you
if if if this card games download
have the emotional baggage check
hi i had that hanging to my wall
i wanted to put it in the newsletter but that isn't it was it was doing the newsletter that time soon but they might sell us putting in newsletter not come on
but we didn't put enough or something you better effects emotional baggage chef
after a bit
we make a going back to ask questions you may have says diana
helping hundred and say that like do if you're saying is that if you really says and you may age but you know you don't have to i did say that yeah we've been here a leader
the middle age hp don't get of yeah that's fits
we may look wrinkled and so forth man now that's my goal
how about question like like the restroom practice
notice you know yesterday we were talking about how everybody is jane kenyon yes can they really be going to the restaurant
the day i noticed with great admiration that you didn't leave during can here but then you left right before services so i wonder if you had some enlightenment over ninety and
twenty minutes of service going into i don't have a go to the bathroom area you know
sesame must have left from i did i tell you i left because over the last ten days or so i've had a case of shingles
and of you know that is been through a painful and kinds it's steps out of zygi that it's irritating that it's a painful so and it can go back and forth between three and
it just can't have to learn do it's cycle or whatever and
so i'm kind of save my energy and so instead of doing morning service i go
tip to break that convey anything
now and then nothing new
no the kinda guessing this
tackling which relieves to paint a certain extent they makes me a little bit spicy my first lecture with very busy because they had taken from a minute
but unregulated gets so and would take it before my dog
left lung cancer facility
something as rescue questions that to using have at san francisco zen center
that being willing to drop like ever you're doing yes when anyone comes in a huge that's that's seems credit when i still do that
but i started doing it and and he called fitness
in my home
my wife i both retired so we hang out if the helps a lot and had have been working on something and then she'll come in and words and attention better
i know believe me
hey i see in the middle of the sentence
so am i just and you're jewish and questions said just amazes me so but i don't always do that with her
that sounds nice
as a secondary primary that's it as he always allows exceptions for your primary
when i can have such a practicing well
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who doesn't it
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