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yesterday someone asked whether dogan made the hydro wish her wogan go or not
i found logan's all hundred i think or shower have a your
i'm not sure whether it's very true to his hogan handwriting by bit fab
and in this sunset job with a collection of bogans calligraphy is
and
this is his own lighting of san pedro and in painting it said show bogans or are i need you to me means twenty nice a fast sigma chapter visual buganda so if this is truly his hundred
she's a far from the crew made a title
ah
i read this book on the table so if you are interested in take paper oh crap
is it okay to leave the books here trading fishing
can prevent pig
just take a look good good

okay yesterday i talked about the pedro show bougainville
and i said i'm not sure how this means but
how do we know is that this is a name of dharma fridge
have been performing get it from chicago when you put that to my car shopper and through the generations of
our ancestors to go him and through a dog in to us and so this is that was in are important thing
even though we don't know if activities
i saw his show ball game means that the ifit says that do it
things
with through or garima our as true dharma
so in order to deed study and understand a dog and the lighting
in sheboygan though we need this guy to that him up i i program is we don't have such a knife
maybe maybe do we have
but we studied dharma or study in also grass or buddhist text or crusher bougainville to study denmark
so with few we still don't have that i threw out my
we think we are studying and practicing or with our pitching in order to get or a page such as nine

so this is a kind of a process our practice study on practice is a process to see a things as a to dharma
and so on this morning i start to talk on this
tata sons three jaw in this case configuration really simple one for the meaning with very korea i think you all over you know families and one pens and a fundraiser waters
i'm happy to suit us
so maybe i don't need to explain
natasha sun sea water under us go up or emissary mountains and rivers
i'm sutras
ah
one understanding over this title is the sutra about the mountain and mountains and waters
i'm happy the fact is she's writing
but ah
in his writing ogun doesn't say that way
but he says ah the mountains and the us ah themselves shooters
so we need to understand this difference is it's not that go against writing
about the mountains and to orders thing with to dharma i
but ah
if he is saying is mountains and waters ah them service sutra and will fit around course means a collection of with as pitching
and in would have pitching he taught us he showed us the reality of all beings to fitch he awakened to
so
you know what i've put with of pitching was decoded
not the issue from the beginning but memorized by his students
and transmitted from mouth to mouth after the mass to yeah
and must be
through for ah autumn of five hundred years and he the indian people started begun to recorded in writing
how about the beginning over the first century was party and sanskrit
and party cannons or trust transmitted to to the south east asian countries and sanskrit version or transmitted to china through north and translated into chinese
and we add this sutra the literal meaning of sutra boss in sanskrit in party for cigar from party sutra in sanskrit and killed in chinese actor the choice japanese
to the pronunciation of a chinese a walk
anyway
of all both sanskrit word sutra and ten in while co means the thread or stream
thread or string to maker
garland of flowers for provides a means but as teaching or tooth
for through isn't know a string or fled and with as teaching what tooth are kind of correct pete are compiled for sutra
a collection of thou was telling my allies

and then right before the died he said
thing he was dying she's a student properties hug because he were lost their pitcher not zero
simply a teacher but people with for second money while special person no one could pick
a takeover his position
buddha sakyamuni was only person who was called buddha
you know in buddhist sangha no one to cover a title or buddha
for i was only one person and they lost that person
so there are of course fun
but and buddha said
if you see karma you see me
so if we study and practice dharma in discussion with of pitching if we study and practiced pissed
this ah with of teaching and leave following a teaching then we see buddha
so ah with as pitching or burma is not simply fat buddha said
but people who started to think miss dharma is reality or truth itself so even beyond fat buddha shakyamuni said
the reality of visible in a word is paramount itself and the people started to think that is to package of pub sakyamuni made shakyamuni into buddha
but as awakening to that reality makes ceremony of a human beings into buddha
actually this reality of all beings each buddha
and they call it card data makhaya this dharma gandhi only pure beef and pay award each and away each and every thing is is dharma and this dharma is architect of buddha
that is are beginning i think beginning of the idea of panama kaja
so

they found i mean special in mahayana buddhist people found put down as value-added of all beings in this world
no fan when all i could we awaken to that reality we really need the buddha
even though second mini guide you know from now ah ah about two hundred fifty twenty five hundred and pov call in india and we awake to that reality or beings and he added to our life
this moment
we really see a buddha

so often do him called this writing fanfic joe or what mountains and what as sutra
when we see mountains and the sutras i'm so the mountains and the workers with our through that of my eye or how and i
we really see the buddha and we'd get a share your teaching or without and puppies sutra

i think because the meaning over this tighter for very simple
ah
ah since i decided to studies on feature
ah during this session
i decided leicester i from our phone
i tried to find our books helpful to understand and talk about fanfic your
and i found the one book
ah this is a book about ah ah
when off issue fisher is a very famous ah
monk paint down
in denied permission
huge he he lived in the and i've seen a fifteenth century saw about two hundred years after dogan thought they had ah
not too personal connection
i don't think fish you read physique your
she was a in the manga
ah
i think who are you may see this page picture is very well known as picture this kind of painting is called fan sega mountains and the vase painting
particular a painting of vice issue and juggling look fancy got a picture or painting or mountains and workers by a issue is called sunseri to come
cho means wrong and become means role
and
this is this painting is called in this phase token what a long roll because it really wrong
ah i see
i assure you
this is one painting
and said it has the length of this painting is sixteen make us pat cummins
it's about fifty feet
and how can you imagine how people fall off wouldn't see this painting
you know ah
and how are based on this painting
and i was out i didn't know that but i was amazed
in the shape of this painting
he's
it's the basic
this
it's at all
so they raleigh
and this you know shape or this way the same as in all ah
with his footrest
what is the driver was also our role before they started in china started our print by could block printing that was about ah
pencil a table century so in song from dynasty before that or sutras where a of like this and the thin we know say chapter or visual bougainville chucked out our facet or seventy five by
volumes of of show bougainville know what is it want for this chapter our fuzzy or
volume is marcie
i can be jar lower
so ah i think this this title painting sega stop it also in song dynasty
in fish or this issue followed ah
why not a very famous chinese painters whose name was cocky and okay
it's about the same time with logan
so
if you see in these pictures i'm i'm paintings by says you maybe you can have some a he made of fuck dogan had his mind if from this
what as and i mean mountains and water is not amounting and work on he with i mean as i should be yesterday's from he got this chapter he didn't leave in the mountains
she khashoggi was ah
located enough at priests and andrea ah
so how can i load like hue behind that pimple for appetitive and bergen said in the very first sentence the mountains and the world does of this present
is this doesn't mean that lewis he deemed in the mountains and he's talking about the president mountains
ishida looking at or he's living on
so this was this expression fountains underworld has all the prison
means some particular meaning
and that is fun i think i'd want to talk and you may i also leave this book
on this table so if you are interested please take a look at
oh go i'm off to methinks
if are you
if if there are some people who the japanese
i made a copy of over packaged who is japanese and english translation so if you want to see young to deed goes in japanese and english ah if it's possible you can
copy
so i'll be this to on this table
this has nothing to do with unsecure but pieces or he'll say that are from my community
fans indian community if you are interested in this please take the you can take this
and you is i start
ah not pakistan or fancy job
in this
copy
cause
if i did sunseeker i think it into one
two three four parts
ah first part is the kind of ah ha introduction on page eleven darfur one paragraph his introduction is a faster park
and ah
how to put up
to call or not
on the second part is about mountains
and third apart from the second i'm right side or page thirteen
dogan discuss about waters
on the page fifteen
now here's another division and after this dog and discuss about the mountains and work as other how can i say as a our dwellings cope ah phases and wise man

and
he i'm cara didn't a
put the another division but i think
that last two just two paragraphs in pages sixteen
is a kind of organs conclusion

so
yeah i think we have ah
five exceptions

i'm in the second section about the mountains it can be divided into another to her parts fast to our fast parts dogan in from the
petty ravens he discussed about of widodo case saying blue mountains
the blue mountains are constantly walking
the stone blue man gave us a bus to outside in the night
and
ah from that
second the power from the last or page twelve
he said the great master you men conscience has said that is mounting movies over the water
the heat from here he discussed about a month thing or is about two months about east mounting is walking over the order
so maybe you can separate are into five sections and to more subsections
who
anyway i
on the first paragraph this morning

the he did the first paragraph and
these mountains and the us
of the present ah the expression of the old us
each abiding in its own dharmas take flu fears the exhaustive branches because they are the circumstances prior to the caravan of emptiness
they are peaceful life of the present
because they are the safe before the combination of enemies had to resign
they are the liberated they are liberated in their actual occurrences programs since the virtues of a mountain
ah high and broad
the speech out of power to ride the crowds is always master from among things and the marvelous ability to follow the wind is in
a recovery liberated from campaigns
the understand

somehow we don't understand but somehow it's beautiful sound of youtube very poetic
so
we want to understand
you know this desire to understand
is a desire
and dogan sometimes i emphasise the importance or significance or not understand
and i think this is all important thing we did this kind of
do not understand
not understanding is a negative thing it's not understanding he she said phooey

ah she's through through me to do
and home is not a beans understand
new jedi or as i have a huge are a common usage of guesswork beans i don't understand
it's a negative thing but he used this way as a compound by one we're not understand and put to do
do we should do not understand that
i think this is really important
same family study tokens writings
i have been doing but understanding for thirty years
the
sometimes i feel i understand
but next moment or next day i found it's not
so
not understanding is really important thing
i mean
you know that then we better go of i thought
decided to go for is not understanding
fob is understanding
by i can go we do not understanding and this is really important things and to me this sitting
letting go of photo or opening the hundred phone is a true that in mind that means we are not
how can i say grasp things with our cosmic consciousness who i thought come up from a comic consciousness cosmic consciousness means god
hmm storage off our past experiences
and fat according to your vagina pitching
our consciousness are categorized into eight players
and the first five our consciousness made or create by our five sense organs i e r nose tongue body
and the sixth consciousness is our usual ah psychology can function of our brain
discriminating mind and seventh is called miners miners who are monarch consciousness and this is sometimes transit as ego consciousness in english and if is an idea
i are
is another work which is translated as though
though initial bougainville scarf or storage for this deepest how they are over consciousness is called as to laugh or stories and are all the experiences we have a the park from the past for
from our bath or even before the buff is torn in this ah pissed pay out of our consciousness
and i you know when we encounter some object were some situation
some depending upon what kind of a seed astrolabe we view things and ah understand or incorporates seen the object
so are depending upon fab kind of feed we have a way we view things are different
and that way we he react to that
object illustration different that is how we are unique he joined by side you need can be called the we have different seas in stored in that and i are consciousness but is
teaching of kind of up with psychology
in often we sit please
i understand
there's some some kind of a silly come up here come some kind of said we have fritsch you could correspond with correspond with up
right
and you know i was as in sitting facing the world is kind of very unique thing because we face the womb know but you'd still so many things come up from our consciousness
and in our doesn't it's very clear that whatever come up in our mind his illusion
it's not reality came from our consciousness
so we can it go
and even read it go we are safe so that a very unique think you know our activities in all our to be peace in our life
please
yeah
a p
yeah a or if he's there are days when
in
yeah
have one him that they are coming from
say that i think
the fuck that we have seen it is a is stored is the fact is reality but says i'm not sure with us each seed or the i do not
our opinions
but it says this elia is arising and polishing each moment it so it's a ally our consciousness is it i got rebar
it's always knew but always changing
please
hmm
puppies are not
no so
the yogurt or other people
ha create for concept of arya e o that could explain how how our life have continuity without safe
so it they said they said folk our consciousness is there but nothing
so continuation got are so our life is it got river there's nothing fixed a safe
but there's something
continues like got water is always flowing on deliver but each moment that what i defined what is new forget no such things called are dubai but i'll give our our life is just what i got
waterfall or oliver
the always changing already moving but still got some kind of continuation
in our consciousness
help idea okay
anyway
i was talking about thousand

so families to to facing the wall know there's no object only a white or black or brown or wall
so and yet so many things come up from our consciousness
you know of for example are we sometimes think about some incident which make me angry
maybe yesterday
that are is didn't become is so powerful and no matter how many times i tried to let go to come up
ah but when we are sitting on the facing a wall the incident is already over already be gone so it's not reality anymore
but still it's realities continue you my consciousness and it's come up but because guess no object known that person is not the front of me it's very yeah it's our it's our ah
illusion and it's a kind of ah how can i say
energy
still remain from that incident
and
you know families sit doesn't and
not one want to kill him but ah
my teachers a title practice we have five days machine
i'm getting five day and we sit a one period was fifty minutes and we have a ten minutes q and we sit in this way for
see fourteen carry on ebay
we had no
ah tempting
no picture know book some know walk pinot nor nothing
so we had three meters for
we have a city meters and short break after it after each muse
so we started to sit up for four to six to play out before breakfast and we sat from seven to twelve by noon five can straight
and we had our lunch and short break and with up from one to six five pm straight
and we had a bar and which sub another to period after
a
and with in that way for five days
it's really quiet and no action
and and peggy we had this session
ten times a year
so
almost every three weeks we have fish you
and it was very difficult to me that was in my twentieth know i had so much energy too many things i have because i actually do so many things but i had to somehow stay in on the question facing the wall
score
my the our twentieth so many folk were thinking or ah
emotion or desire
it's very difficult to sit out as it's still
what it was very a powerful practice i practiced in that way a fantasy for five years
i was hoping for and i was twenty two nineteen seventies and
i would share my last my teacher retire that seventy five so i practice with him have not received five years or less than five years because fast two years i was ah university student
ah and ah when he retired she's and city over his as to them to this country so we came to wear
i went to massachusetts very small agenda
and how your nearby zindagi
and we continued this kind of a session
and they are we had a threat of fishing or yeah that means it every month
it's really no five decision every every three weeks
so i practiced in that way you know totally panniers
and i went back to japan
and i stop it to for kind of are praised for yeah i could practice with people from marx had footnote japan and walk on transportation
i again had about seven basis and five day
not exceed ten times a year but ah that's the dreading i was in total i e not fourteen calendar day but twitter because i he was a campaign cup of a pimple
so as our obligation as a caretaker i have to tend to tempting
and about abby as a duty over caretaker i have to clean that can program so we had one
the
in the morning before breakfast with chanting
and we did our cleaning
and in the afternoon we had our work period or know our period mindy
waiting
so it's kind of different but basically just that the are just sitting
and i practiced in that way for me but the decision
so i plugged the seem that way for twenty years until ninety two
when i went to minneapolis
not in minneapolis i decided to practice following category oceans time
so the obsession since then i helping and practicing and teaching
i think same way with your fishing fishing the please does and chanting ah ok new
hi roxanne walk piano i'm so on
so i have a twenty years of just sitting experience and penny as of possession with have activities i see how it'll be difference
hope but i see the different difference
you know fan we have that kind of system find session every three weeks
you know session has a kindle
what about
how can i say i have a kind of a different word of fishing different reality beside bay today a things
of course better the things he you know god influence father in our
a condition of mind of course as i said if someone makes made me angry no for the about that person and try to figure out why she said so fedora bit at a thing
and ah he not only thinking but anger for example
hunger is kind of energy
and it stays and come up no matter how many times i tried to let go anyway to come up
but you know and we we're sitting facing the war the person is already gone
actually the passage through the city if by nice
that guy
actual estate is gone it's already in the cost is not reality but still it there
and i'm british i found this is illusion came up from our consciousness in the beginning it's come up from a shuttle consciousness that means about dicks discriminating mine i could i've tried to figure out or
what kind of person in this
a fight he usc did this one now
and we i tried to understand
but fun
know with i continued to think in that way interest in
no doesn't we have could it go so the ah you can never we found i'm thinking i have to let go
and by doing this in a moment by moment for fourteen hours a bake somehow it's come down because i get tired of thinking
so our somehow you know i found that that reason five this person the disrupt this was a that isn't
go but somehow the anger and as he is there
and fan i sit with this energy it become deeper and deeper called people and people
and visit the and this is not anymore that anger caused by the particular action or particular person but the sun god become my here
and still i tried to see in our fit a pinko of appear of our community
tough keep sitting
ah not always but sometimes i experienced it's gone
ah much older explains which caused the same kind of bunga come up as a memory it's kind of a strange thing but i experienced this things
many times
and i found no anger is not that anger is not really caused by a particular person's acura saying or action
is in here
that person's action or coke was pitch he just her kind of are knocking well are open the pit of my consciousness so actually anger who are not only hung up any yeah
and the feeding or
she actually even thinking
is came from my consciousness
and when we did go to kind to go and or cake he now it's like him so that then is really how can i say ah unique and also believe
precious practice
that is how i found through my own at an experience
you know families
stand up from cushion and go outside we cannot let go of everything it's dangerous
and we can believe me that way but at least in the zendo we can get dirty it called everything
hmm isn't really divination
not for division from the condition he our daily lives by also our degradation from my comic consciousness but is created so you know i actually my
ah treaty karma
is so in order then we don't create new karma
because we don't take action based on whatever thoughts come up for to are feeding wild emotion
we don't do we don't do anything but sitting
so i police in our doesn't we are really liberated from our karma and we don't create new quarterback
that's kept enough since our thousand his dependence
it's a kind breed

in galvin

hmm

hmm
well
thing with a know get out of the agenda we have to think again and we have to depending upon my understanding what my view of who i am
and i did my duty i make choice
and i mean choice for new he should be done and should not be done because i think i'm a buddhist priest or teacher and for now this is my duty to
talk about my understanding of tokens teaching i tried to do my best this is my choice
and i try not to or something nervous i tried to focus on ah yeah coaching
saw in this case in in this sense in on visit my choice my discrimination because i am a buddhist priests to talk about dharma it my duty so i tried to do my best
this is my a discrimination our my choice based on my discrimination about who i am up is my a disposability at this moment but when i go back to minneapolis and stay with my comedy i don't
go cover took in this wish
to my children
even if i tried they don't listen
so i'll try not to be a teacher to mature trees
i'm not sure
wow
you know even thin we sit in this posture
tarzan
i mean it as syndrome sometimes we do that and sometimes we going to have them
to understand of a mean
i'm the thing we don't do that in
in general of course we're making karma
it kids might be good car model about the kind of mouth
but we are making kind of my
anyway so to me from my a not a point of view my understanding of dogma wow
caught by my teacher and my teachers teach us hockey de she says then it is itself through it or my atom is not seeing things with our cosmic consciousness
is true that mine
and button
true got to way of doing things is a may not
expressed by richard morris has a pink gold thought and circular i said in one thousand we see things from our coffin coffin or casket
means we already did
so i have no opinion no desire no right to request anything to any people
in our in japan of in someone died
yeah
the casket is
that phrase in i do wind up in usually in the person's house or sometimes in pimple
and are give us on fence or stay overnight with luck
possum in the custard and they will cause talk about that that person
and even you know
people talk about
person
the person that person given got the agree to public person cannot
countdown
i can say that that person can't complain
and according to our kiddos however then is you know that kind of dog that that the person in the casket
no way with our not know people say the about me good or bad rap my paper i cannot complain i can't conquer you i just keep silent and you know but it doesn't
so the things really to me a powerful thing
it's country completely different from my he way of doing things my way of doing things you know how to my daily lives using my knowledge my understanding my system or value and my and
hi picked out and log created by my kadima means my experience
it's of course it's not necessarily bad thing it it can be bad and good but i actually that is how we create our life i will we take auction
but the nods as in we stopped doing wrong
and
to me
we can do this on the indians in
think we you know get adam van on somehow we have to do something he would like to do something we have to make choice and making choice is depending upon my system of value
i can to be free even fan i tried to do
things for the sake of burma not for the sake of this person still this is my choice and and as far as
this person's choice
you know that's a karma
so
our practice in our daily lives is how to make enough is our core create a good karma
could look out of my she share means how we can
hi
manifest
that we experience now and as him in our daily lives and this is also a kind of a choice
and we take them to lou take that to make that choice and beef
toward that direction that is our practice
based on as as in practice
and
yeah
according to the terminals the way our does in function for walks in our daily lives is dawkins has a golden pulled the three minds
three minds are magnanimous mind
ha joyful mind and polenta or not charging mind
those three minds are taught by duncan
and was beaten in the eastern action for pencil for i think that you are familiar with this three minds
and
i think know to
do things with those three mind three architects the the in altitude
i mean ah know margaret animals mind has something to do i think with fancy job
she said would only my mind is a mind like are bumping
she said great man pain
which doesn't in a mood it's pretty stable and yet on that mountain like a mounting allow or
different kind of living beings you stay and and grow
big or small plants are being awesome or any mars and he different kind of living beings lived on that mountains and we a man pain doesn't change and moon actually in fancy car his he said mountains moving who are working
but steady more sturdy than our emotional mind
and ah
nice
not telling mind or parent or mind is a mind to
didn't care about us
you know parent taken up today
and parent could can find a joy in taken care of children
but children can find joy on the in being taken care of that's a difference between parent and children and we are too often
terrorists were like oh baby
we cry or complain fan we're not taking care of
so that's the opposite of are not setting mind while carrying her mind
and
within a whacking who are doing things with ah mahmood ali much mind which means no
ah
distinction or discrimination
and
i bought my where and magnanimous mind he ought for gorgon also said that is a mind of the ocean great the ocean which doesn't detect any water from any device
and make
you don't make all the all water from different leave us from different source makes it own
there's no separation no discrimination and that and the orszag is just awesome
that's kind of mentality is magnanimous mind
and ah
the father is joyful mind
joyful mind
ah is really a necessary we need joyful mind
when our situation is not a joyful
when our condition is joyful thing we don't need joyful mind right because it's joyful
we that's enjoy from mind
it's very difficult to find a joy in a difficult difficult painful condition
and
yeah we have a difficult condition while often than joyful conditioning
that fight we need to remind
remained is his mind you know we can find joy even losing if current condition
and that is possible please that a parent remind while that fitted to vowed to
a terrified us then we can find ah joy
even with different situation than we
now try to help others or tried to do things cooperate with other people even always in if kind of condition we can't find a joy
by sharing
ah speed
so to me in both three minds is a way out thousand
lux in our daily lives
and then i e
made my own sanga i named sizes and community and the xing is japanese word for three mind's i i keep the japanese expression san xing because three mine's
doesn't sound right
it anyway
who told a the five to eat it
so i think
i talked about myself and practice but because i think to me for me how to that my is the way we view was see things from them from visit from customer
that means without you
without egocentric mind
so to me been dogging it thing in any
in chapter over show bougainville is about that in
how we can deep what we should be following ah a spirit or experience and practice about as in in our daily lives and how are things i'm out loud
it looks like from outside in experience
and
this this chapter i'll the sure bargains in a fancy job he talks about mountains and waters but not only not simply now mountains and orders but mountains workers are kind of are examples
oh fuck away and conquer
i mean
dogan ah
in a very fast checked out show bougainville danger coin dogan made distinction of wisconsin definition of puppies terrorism and the fuck is enlightenment
and he said to you carry out on
to all beings to media him us
and carry out projects enlightenment
is the erosion
that is his definition no delusion
and he said all myriad things come to us a thief
and the carry out practice enlightenment is an argument
ah all all media thinks automated dermis it come to other safe and carry out practice indictment through the sieve
his enlightenment so those two bogan definition of derision and enlightenment ah kind of are you know car over the collection of our attitude without me try to not take our survey
is to to add all beings have come on in and rivers i'm see a see them based on my comic consciousness and make a definition or value or make concept and
kind of a footnote try to arrange things are in the way i feel safe
that way of practice are you will use a in that way we tried to practice to make our life
in order
and the way we put things in all is that caught you know we have many kind of draws of concept
something is good something is a pettigrew something it's beautiful some is agree something really valuable some something is not very ever and the thin we he encounter something like this i tried to understand the purpose is i know
of course this is a notebook and ah is not expensive one is a cheap multiple so it's not so valuable
of course
but because i blog about something really important
for me to me i've had show organs are so this notebook is very important to me this kind of you know evaluation is doing and i saw i have tried to keep this not book in a safe place is a whole week
a
take action make our life in order and try to protect something valuable and try to get rid of something us and that is how we kind of or kellyanne plugs and vitamin
ah
using these patterns
he now has a desire to make her my dive a peaceful can ah safe and ah
how can i say me
and make this person powerful string string and important
but he said douglass at whale practice is harry based on the erosion
but ah she's definition of enlightenment is all beings come to add a safe and carry out practice enlightenment through the surf so the subject of this practice is not this person isn't it
even though in i show how can be deceiving
using show how body and mind still this is not show haircuts activity
you know ah media dartmouth come towards shock and make chalk see
so nice thing is not clear in chocolate as personal action based on show how could a personal choice according to show how cause
our system of values if i can do make choice in that way i don't want to see
of
sometimes i really want to think but or often
i don't want to fill
but something made me wake up
and make me know my loaves and make me will not walk to the zendo somehow i cannot register
even though i want
actually i think that is the feeling we have fan we
sheep
i know this is my choice what
this is not in my trees
you know for years on proofing how are you were yesterday i said for new terminals asked me to study english
i didn't believe everyone
somehow i couldn't say no
so i really i started to study english and the thing with chamorro's asked me to come to discount country
ideally anything to want to
but somehow i couldn't say no
and i wonder for we made me a lot to say no
this is not meech actor this is me but this is not me
what is this
i think for for our own time this was my kind of column
you know if ah oh to become a monk or priest is same thing you know to live as a monk is very difficult of think actually able in japan and i know it's difficult in this country
even in japan to become to be a yellow them practitioner
it's very difficult
so when i asked iv to do terminals and asked to him to be
ordained with amorous first thing which whichever said is i never encourage people become a monk
because it's very difficult to the not to be at to monk means through the interactions
on the hill because because there are so many already so many mean english monk
in japan and she says she doesn't want me to be a monk
if i want to be are meaningless priests
so he said if you really want to be a real to practice on our fans in he will on a me so she didn't encourage me to be obeyed
and i had to make choice i have to make my own mind
perhaps something to say
oh okay
anyway
time
ah
hmm
i think i'm talking about that
do the the way
do you are viewing things with true that my and that way doing since with our cosmic consciousness and this to are kind of different
and yet we ah
yeah as that both sector by you know we miss to find a way
to see things with to that my
but still important point is true we are not free completely free from our cosmic consciousness we have to leave out our comic con karma and we need to use in essence use our
our karma
you know that too
can i say but the fulfilled by but in order to practice about i would fuck them about
so
you know mike caroma other i so as a puddle my karma i'm not japanese
i saw english is not by you know ah my punk so i don't really want to speak in english
but somehow i i i think it's meaningful to
speak about my understanding of burma or dog and teaching in english at this moment
so i tried to use my karma as japanese using know i'm thinking in japanese language and speaking in english so my brain is area had a work so praise for be compatible
but anyway this is i think this is one of the way i use my karma what are they called burma
i think that is that our attitude to add a petty lives and in our guys in we are leery
we can be ready to go of our karma and we are nearly evaporated and we need a poolside as my
life
ah
well
i don't even start to talk about the fast and
anyway i think dogan is trying to say in this writing is
how fat the
not give us but this word including human for five look for me
as to work
it
i don't think it
the to talk on the first sentence so
i do it this afternoon
we have about two more minutes any question
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which monastery the monastery dollar in china if your dog and practice on
when he will be he brought this before going to turn
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the name of the monastery he practiced in kyoto before when going to china was our can mange and as i said yesterday can dingy was founded by essays so can enjoy was really are fast the
monastery in japan
but
as a teacher was really nice so beans eyes a monastery
but it a funny
a i went to china he was already are
waiting on pitcher in tendai school
so he he his practice is not a
simply isn't but he combined them practice with other practices in ten guys

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kinda is on
i kinda is up to ah
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most important school example established in china and transmitted to japan and established ah and i think our nine centuries by a priest named ah
and that characteristics of kinda practice is a combine everything
ah they have a kind of meditation practice corgis come
can either
japanese colonization of a tiny the world or
translation of sanskrit word shama been good persona
so they had starting base meditation practice and they are not teaching or fear for fee is based on ah lotus sutra
and yet after japanese tendai was established ah the shingon show watching locks you shows are kind of our budget and japan in the budget diana buddhism transmitted by ah great really great priest with no
thomas cook i have found out which japanese shingles
and and i
was it
by this budget i asked what is or can they at a time of golden is a combination of ah scum scum in the pressure summer ban personal meditation practice
the ah teachings of based on lotus sutra and this guy's italiana practice and also pure up
buddhism has also developed with a nice cool
the kind of a mixture of not different a paypal
and people in tendai kind about make a choice for stay on
so suitable for them
kenny gee ah he says the monastery then is puddle their practice not single not only one thing
and probably don't get busy cracking
he wanted to publish ah
i don't like this one but maybe or in
not a bigger
can you do as much bigger than it had no to be doggone are funded yeah
welcome who are instruction for kendall
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and he said
i'm
yeah last and new in spirit or practice said
would tend to python was there
angel didn't go to kitchen
something that oh
kenny gee was not that idea to
on committee for hogan
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free time
him
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i think so i think so i think that was one of the reason she had to leave kyoto
yeah
yeah you know the candy was has not only delicious but also a political our not only political political power and economical power and even military power
dad are are recall in ah soldier monks
actor they fought each other
monks focused
so far token not only dorgan but ah
seven and press in that age try to escape from pin diode not from month here and tried to fund their own kind of our our practice with january's peyto buddhism that fi you know so many he needed of so cold
kamakura new buddhism appeared a question or in sinden and i asia is i found out or bajaur the shoe punching done it or find out jodo shinshu in boston bizarre ah pure land buddhism
i'm
and is i brought then from china and go him also started checking out transmit them from china and that knitted in
so they have to
ah in high school and founded his own school and those schools founded by those pictures
the still in japan and they are
yeah kind of our so-called japanese buddhism they created for japanese buddhism
so i'm pretty sure duggan was kind of evolutionary
ah for the first puppies

view

i think
ah
not use using
i said
it all we see we are no good
clinton's i think and luck is true that like that we're are no good is reality of life
you know we're saw in or ah
set of center forever we tried to do even for that dharma is in awe you faced by my is i yeah
because i know in that ah right handed pitching
as civils consciousness that is our ego consciousness cling to the case our courses at me
and self-consciousness try to control the are fast six consciousness
that fi our view out with thinking is self centered
and in as as in or out with our to determine age we see that distortion
how of that we are
i think that is with them
in a very kind of our kind way that if i you know ah
it a try i said fathom his dependence and also doesn't is a practice of our vow
in a wow under the pink pants should be always together
without taking vow has no way we pension
so repentance is that i'm sorry dependencies are kind of our awareness or awakening
to that
hmm to incomplete missed incompleteness of our practice or wow
without tech without you know practice ah following our wow
we can see in our com incompleteness so this awakening to our incompleteness encourage our practice oh wow
so depend on us does not mean thing i'm sorry i've made its attempts such mistake but dependence is really
peep awakening
two how much we are you faced by civil consciousness
think
and to see that is to through their mind to me in the very kind of way
ah three that time
oh i'm sorry but
we continue this afternoon
we go back to say thank you
he saw number is
the same them

oh
much older experience which caused the same kind of bunga come up as a memory it's kind of a story the scheme but an experienced this things