1999.09.04-serial.00149B

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i want to remind you once again
how well you're doing

i and my friend tells you know
it was still above ground by next sunday i'll see then aren't enough vintage
so not only are you a background pet
veronica
i also mean
and know how
know maybe i well you're doing is not the right expression but
it's rather a new and for the ticket prices
our to spend the day and simon
her friend of mine the other night said that her daughter
i moved to dallas
she added been there
i'm and she moved into a house and then when she went to do that than the
so the she had to move out because it was
oh no in the devil's work or something
dallas

this is america
and you know i think we sometimes take prevented or forget hell
a new show with it
to sit quietly
i'm experiencing our experience and thing
kate in knowing and
catch him alive
and to safe in this way into rock and to spend a day quietly is
a to experience or itself and way that we don't use day
have the opportunity to to
whether it's the nerves in more detail for to
he were still and quiet
what to feel our feelings or to notice now
my mind races
here's they were further engaged in her life and we're not quite fill
aware and reagan and thatcher take the france of intimately are
experience
so actually whatever your experiencing today you know this is awakening
no this is realization
we have the idea of course are various ideas about what
we might attain or accomplish
you know
special experience we might have
it was particularly
a will required a particularly brilliant or a dazzling
in a court and you know people have from time to time such experiences
and then what
the new years he he'll just one another one
and after you enter to when it doesn't last to wonder what's wrong with my practice now
yesterday i had integrated thing
oh maybe you tried to tell everybody i've had this granted game
i expected about nathan now i know
when you know in effect you know what will it do for you in or even if you have something
any experience that can arise and appear and you can define you know is one that can be will disappear
so if it were featured one more experience and all the experience is derived from disappeared
and actually it's not thought you have any to have any friends said
when make all the difference in your life from now on
can you think
it's tempting to want to have a one experience that will make all the different
no
and you say we think you know if i get and can get rid of my anger or my desire or in a fit my still
our be more concentrated on a more settled back
judge do that then i will get the experience that will make all the difference in my life on
journey to stand out difficulties in only a bit difficult for it's impossible
fill in other words into a mistake to try to have
to try to get times time
whoa and then of course we encourage ourselves to
had experience for having
to let them experience come home to our heart
to be touched and fire experience
to letter everyone wearing tattered seems to be attached to be moved by as an incentive
respond to things
huh
and of course the big or i think the biggest burden in her life is that we don't like ourselves
the biggest know painful thing in her life is not accepting or not liking ourselves
so what's the problem
why would we
he token them and
carving out to not like i said
cannot accept ourselves you know basically our humanity
why would we do that
and years they would think in that in order to like myself in order to
respect myself or to love myself except by now i would have to improve a lot
because if i win
if i could meditate better or if i didn't have so many problems in my life than it left i could like myself i could like somebody who will for poland
no com and enlightened and compassionate and kind and buoyant and cheerful i could like somebody like that
actually are those people creative content

and here's the we feel they're hiding something

but you get my idea you know
here's they we think we need to improve a lot before we could like a job and we forget that
where's the could accept their appreciate
and someone who's quite sincere
oh with them good intention and know with a good heart
who doesn't know it to you know isn't perfect
and we can accept desktop
her sitting like this in fact in later today nowhere x the in moment after moment we're practicing for example
i saw can sometimes we do we have good practice to the setting yourself and sometimes they're not so good at it
and we encourage felt to even accept somebody who's not so good at example
so for this reason you know some celebrated teachers many times will say you don't have to practice
for ten or twenty or thirty years to defend yourself to find finally
no to any time you can have a bright smile for you are
decide to except yourself or forgive yourself
how to forgive others
you can decide to just fit and be with yourself
he picked his side to be receive
are you breath
and alive
how and the present and the room with him
new you know we can do that
hi this is not and you know services
not use using the instructions you know that we have for meditation
preparing the you know appreciate is a similar except yourself
it begs the a big challenge you know and most of it that ready
we why don't you follow your breath
and ted
but don't mean to the left or right don't need further back
why don't you just sit in the middle of your life
hey
what it's like there
huh
and we can have
at times quite elaborate instruction
how to accept yourself for to
they say to yourself
to love yourself is this
you know one of the last thing we will do
i had exams before i do that
if i accepted myself before i got them where i wouldn't have any motivation anymore
a to the thirty motivating and jobs by rejecting itself
good for you
after the in him quite a good that they're apparently
he returned sixty minutes a few weeks ago
if if an eternal and man
heard great thing by again
apparently if you know one of those crimes the people who you know when he's on television like any kind of like an angel and then when he's been the park ring is like a savage
how bet he said his father has never
tell them he did a good fight i don't think it's ever been people
anybody has been have beaten them later
when his father's never approved
can i get a romantic
there in the wine doesn't your father prove
and he said well if my father prove is afraid that i would lose my motivation
i try very hard and i trying very hard and i fight very hard to win his approval

so when he be get about thirty know it
if he didn't have that kind of motivation
so many everything not a different thing you know with with ingrained new we've incorporated into it
parental rejection
the rejection of her parents
can generate the motivation to
pacific
yeah right
to do very thing to accomplish things
who it actually can be you know quite and
an official or if not beneficial anyways
it certainly a page of my life
how we don't grow up without having them
degree of self rejection that motivated to
dr and life
i'm a ten time of course we realize the parker
when
the limitation of this kind of way of going about things
and you know we wonder how will i actually ever arrived
could i find be accepted couldn't find a except myself
can i find a fit in the center of my life and we decide you know i will i will fit
in the center of my life
accepting my experience is said to myself
you know my strength in my limitations
ah the blessings and curses in my life
and we're not sure as which is which

huh
hello again it will be a kind of the
take to think that
by improving little by little and over time
ah accumulating and great and wonderful experiences and know we would finally be worthy of acceptance or approval for love
you know that we could earn it
this is big problem you know offering christianity
and why no in various ways and in various traditions of christianity
i e no one receives guards for it
it's again it's not something you can earn and because you
i lead the certain kind of life god's grace and is said to be there far as i know for everyone
but anyway i'm not much of a christian so i couldn't tell you that much about it
but you know the i did that forgiveness or great for acceptance and love is not something you earn it something you to give
it's something to given to you and you can and at some point just willing to give it to herself
and in a small way it is no to spend the day and retreated to give ourselves is kind of attention
i'll give herself is kind of love
it's kind of interest in our experience
it's kind of care
we're giving ourselves this wonderful game at the nearby awareness
ah are good highness
when they actually of course when we fit together
in a group like this we're also giving it to one another
together we create this kind of as in spain
oliphant can sit next to them
hi so we're not just a fitting for ourselves
but sitting for one another
her presence
ah and awareness since again
actually that we share
huh
huh
huh
huh
huh
where many ways in which
i lives are very challenging
how could it for
how people in our lives you know and become sick and
people die
in their thing challenges their relationship and where we live and work and
i you know that thing a particularly easy thing him again
this is something in your bed
ah here in america the american method it'll be easy
and if you get ready for you something's wrong with you
it's a kind of the idea for a country know if you don't have as is inferior life as the people and fine field what's your problem
they make a joke everything in the whole lot of fun and they don't seem to need to worry about money and a do the chapter on making a couple of million a week
the way
the home
how i mention this because you know the fact that our life is difficult and challenging in many ways
i mean that it the point of our tendency to be to look for help
and you know what someone else to take care of it perhaps
to make it our work better
whether we look for a partner or we look sometimes to her children to her parents
our teachers to in a spiritual teachers someone will make a difference you know make it all worked better
then came to emphasize you know the notion that
you can be lying yourself and trust yourself
and that the difficulty of your life for new
when we respond to it in a things out our resourcefulness and every period
how so we have the kind of understanding know not to look outside or looked elsewhere and but to answer can look within
and so are you know suzuki roshi mentioned
i'm going your dying
and nothing will help you
not even enlightenment will help you you know when you have no more moment to read
so on this moment you know realize yourself from the express yourself for him
i have the perverse experience of your life
huh
i made me i've been using again on my expression you know like getting married to yourself
where do you have the body and mind
a sickness and health and difficulty and six said
you know in health and fitness know in health and wealth and poor poverty where you have this friday where you have this line
and when we say yes to disagree with in yeah i will i will have this life i will have the body i will have been mine
well you know you don't need to look anywhere else
for some answer
no custom solution and way out
if accepted take pride in his mind to life
and then you can find your way
as long as we're trying to get out of our life you know it's very hard to find our way how to go forward
and we wanna like to be without the problem of to it
to look like we think of in our life is supposed to work
this is very difficult for it
so this or where you have the body will you have is my witness
again hurt them they to accepting yourself
appreciating a loving yourself kindly
no no longer physically rejecting yourself as a motivation to succeed or get somewhere
help
can thank you very much for being here and i'm creating this wonderful space
taking the time in your life too
they with your thing in the way we can do it in a quiet
in a spin
how will be going outside and in two minutes or at are walking
but you weren't field enough
and patricia for their thing you would like patricia offer a short yoga time when we have about twenty five minutes for for thirty minutes isn't a say so if you'd like you can do for the yoga restorative wow the have no restorative person or or you can go outside and walk
oh i'd sat on the bench or better put out some various flyer and
one is on thursday nights at admitted patient group and center fell from the information and care about that
how to around think giving a thanksgiving ten patrician air during his in yoga workshop has been it's been a fairly simple furniture
the retreat actually dirt on wednesday night before thanksgiving but
if some of you need to if anyone needs to have and had thanksgiving plans are ready you can always come friday morning
we're we're making it possible for people to invite
in a limited number of
you know the spouses own
people believed you might otherwise have thanksgiving with we're actually getting her and everything in general in a vivid and top
they will go back into silence or between our planet retreat anyone interested in that order to fire and in a big day we do here at gringotts has more emphasis on fitting
oh to retreated thanksgiving will have on about equal emphasis for you know as many hours have been doing yoga as doing sitting
so they'll be improved but an assembler some of you may have been to russia it as a very of months as on yoga
so this is more like that can be yoga and thin
he would happen sooner
have bird yoga and fan and about the same man and time and separated and offer the be some cards
hey think in the sunday after at the end of that retreat i'm doing a layered nation for some people who have already taught me about it
so people who come to the retreat can office day for that
that's okay to say that during the retreat of be giving syntax about precepts and may read nations things which
those of you who you know if you're interested you could come to that were not but either but you're certainly welcome to come to any the talks and lectures and classes to separate
are you can a be doing something else if it's not tear interests we try to be affected by you know we try to think yes of course
for you will do that
but of course you know we can't save everybody
well
and it makes a thursday thanksgiving and then in january we ever been in yoga workshop it mount madonna here we have lived there for a sherpa mount madonna out there
if you think to attend in january would be a better time period to turn year that rather than thanksgiving and is that fell on i say a quote from says accuracy but the frog with the poem for movie about the waterwheel so you can pick up on a vertical like to overhaul and actually
a thing
in center fear afternoon reading
oh anyway find the am
the donation that in here by the door in guy here
patrician i offer an hour the teaching here today without charge the fee paid a green card to and to support green gulch and and an additional here and the activities of the center of the garden from separate
how in a lunch and second film if you would like to make a contribution made by u two and two and a donations human i'd like to offer to place them in about it here
an advocate to support patricia
and i like to express my appreciation and gratitude for and the to stay for your support and
you're very kind and generous and thank you
so camera will be going if neglect by now and walk or stay here for some yoga thank you
that hand