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Sunday Lecture
Feet, toes - funny introduction. Memorial Day - historical information. War. Relating Memorial Day to our practice.
The talk reflects on the significance of Memorial Day and its connection to Zen practice by exploring themes of loss, sacrifice, and the mortality of the self. It discusses the historical origin of Memorial Day and contrasts how societies across history, from ancient civilizations to modern times, honor their fallen. Emphasizing the universality of grief and the transformation of perception regarding death over time, the speaker encourages an understanding of death as a constant process of letting go—of identities, attachments, and the illusions of permanence.
Referenced Works and Authors
- Yusuf Kumanyaka: Mentioned for his poetry about the Vietnam War, highlighting the personal and communal sense of loss experienced in warfare. His poems are used to illustrate different individual reactions to the loss of loved ones.
- Pablo Neruda: Quoted for his poem "Dead Woman," which speaks to enduring the emotional impact of the loss of loved ones and the interconnectedness of humanity. This poem reinforces the theme of remembering and honoring those who pass.
Topics and Themes
- Memorial Day: Originated in 1868 to honor American Civil War veterans, the holiday is discussed in terms of its evolving meaning and societal significance.
- Historical Context: The talk reflects on how different cultures have dealt with war and memorials, noting a shift from personal and family losses to broader societal and national recognition.
- Zen Practice and Death: Considered as a constant practice of releasing attachments, where death is viewed not only as a physical end but as a part of daily practice—letting go moment to moment.
AI Suggested Title: Letting Go: Zen and Memorial Day
Speaker: Daigan Lueck
Possible Title: Sunday
Additional text: Feet too - Jonny introduction. Memorial Day - Historical information. War. Relating memorial day to our practice.
Speaker: Daigan Lueck
Possible Title: Sunday
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Vodute is the truth of Tathagata's words. Hi, everybody. Good morning. Friends and fellow practitioners, guests, There are more of you today than I had expected because of the weather and the weekend. Thank you for coming. I have an image in my mind that I gathered about two minutes ago. You know, if you do this practice very long, you usually have bare feet and you have shoes or Zori, something like that. And you come with the Zendo. And, of course, you have to take your shoes off.
[01:04]
So that means you have to bend down. And that means that over the years you probably notice your feet or don't notice them, but at least you have some kind of contact. You're looking at them hundreds, maybe thousands of times. And today I noticed them again. In fact, I got almost entranced by my toes. And I have a conclusion to make about feet, or toes, about toes. Toes are funny. I think toes are very comical. Now, hands aren't funny. Hands can be beautiful. You see pictures in magazines of hands. You never see pictures in magazines, usually, unless it's a specialized magazine for... But you don't usually see feet, pictures of feet advertising. And I always see the big toe always reminds me, it's like the boss or the mayor.
[02:05]
And then there's all these little guys following behind, or like the locomotive of a train. There's that little caboose, the little one in the very back. Anyway, I think toes are strictly vaudeville. Harlequins. And of course they do all the heavy work, don't they? I mean, they support. They do all the work. In a sense, they support all of our weight. They carry us around the world. They do all the support work while the hands get all the fun. They have to touch everything and feel things. I hope you Pisces in here are not offended. Pisces rules the feet, you know, not here. Anyway, you didn't come to hear about toes. And I really didn't come here to talk about toes. But now that I did, I'm glad I did. Today, this weekend is Memorial Weekend, of course.
[03:06]
And so I thought it might be appropriate to say, to look at this holiday, this Memorial Day, because a lot of complicated feelings in this day and age about it, I think, at least for some people, some of us. I thought it might be worthwhile to both look at the day historically and also how it relates to practice, since it is about the question of death and dying. You know, I didn't know myself much about it. I haven't done any real research on it, but I did hear that Memorial Day is actually begun in 1868. Did you know that? For the Civil War, for the veterans of the Civil War.
[04:08]
And particularly the Union at that time And that's understandable, you know, a great civil war that resulted in enormous carnage and divided a country, a culture, against itself, family against family and so on. One would want, one would see the necessity even for some kind of closure, some kind of healing, some kind of recognition of the sacrifices that that so many made in that war, both North and South. And in fact, I'm told that to this day, the South has, besides this day as a national holiday, many of the states of the South, correct me if I'm wrong, have their own Memorial Day for remembering the Confederate dead. Did you know that? Several of the states have their own day for remembering the past. You know, it's hard for me to imagine something like a Memorial Day in the ancient civilizations.
[05:26]
I can't imagine that the Greeks or the Romans, particularly the Spartans, would have had something called a Memorial Day in the sense that we know it. Maybe some sort of mythological pain of homage to the greater powers, Mars or whatever. But... And, you know, the Trojan woman, the story was that the mother would say to the son, come back victorious or come back dead on a shield. So it had a lot to do with the values of a culture, how we remember the fallen in conflicts. Anyway, I find it difficult to imagine, or even in the Italian city-states, in the medieval times, the Renaissance and so on, that they would have had something called a Memorial Day since then. Most of the battles, armies were fought by mercenaries. It didn't seem to be kind of a grassroots movement. It was not such a thing as a draft.
[06:31]
And earlier, of course, they were often fought by slaves. So, you know, when did this thing come about, this idea of a Memorial Day for a particular group of people, a particular group of those men, usually, who had died for some so-called national purpose or greater purpose. And of course, I think it had to be the 19th century where this thing really became important. The Napoleonic times definitely was a time when conscription began. the time after the revolutions, the American and French revolutions, in which the sense of equality, so-called common man, became important rather than just a Caesar or an emperor. I don't know if the Grand Army and so on, after their disasters at Waterloo
[07:34]
or the great battles of Borodino and Australis and so on, those particular disasters, human disasters, if there was a national recognition of the suffering that had resulted for so many millions, actually. Probably. But at least the idea came about that a group of people were dying for a just cause. dying a sacrifice for some kind of justice, a just cause. I remember Memorial Day before the Second World War when I was a child, and by that time, of course, it was much more a family day, you know, as it is now, going to the graveyards of your relatives and laying flowers on the graves. cleaning up the grave sites. I can remember playing around the graveyards, the old gravestones, hearing about and then noticing the flags on certain of the, and asking my mother, what are those for?
[08:45]
And she said, well, those are for the soldiers who died in the Great War, the Great War of 1914, 1980, recognition. What do you mean the Great War? Well, there was a great war to end all wars. And, of course, planes would fly over and drop flowers. The military essentially existed in those days, which wasn't much. And there was, of course, the unknown soldier and the rituals at Arlington and so on were going on, but I didn't know much about them. It wasn't until the Second World War, the end of the Second World War, that I became aware of what we call Memorial Day as being something more than just going and sprucing up the family graveyard. And although this country didn't suffer the catastrophes and losses that Europe and Asia did, by any means, still there was half a million dead, something like that.
[09:49]
and stars and windows of gold stars and mother's windows and so on. Anyway, there was a family sense of loss and there was a sense of... What should I say? There was a very naive, I guess I would say, a very naive sense of a national identity pulling its weight, our weight, against forces that once they were overcome, we could go back to a so-called normal life. Oh, how sweetly naive and dumb we were, so many of us in those days, to believe that that was the truth of the world. I bought it. I was a kid, of course, and I was enamored by millions of men going off to war and coming back heroic, defenders of some faith or other. I wanted to be one of them. And so when they played taps or when the planes came and dropped flowers and so on, I would think of
[10:59]
I would think of all of those who had gone and had sacrificed themselves so that there could be at least something in the world different from what we had been taught at least to believe was evil or dark. We were the good guys. We wore the white hats. They had died for a reason. It was understandable. But of course, you know, there's another part of this. Before the Second World War, at least since the times of chivalry, there had been a kind of code of honor among the combatants that the civilian populations should be spared the disasters of war as much as possible. This was, of course, not always observed, not even in the Napoleonic Wars, Lord knows, in Spain and so on, some horrible things that happened to civilian populations.
[12:02]
And of course before, in the days of Genghis Khan and in the old days when clans fought one another and encircled their castles and so on, people were wholesale, there was wholesale slaughter of civilians. It was the way things were run. The women were either raped or sold into captivity as concubines and so on, and the men were either slaughtered, or if they were worthwhile, they were forced into labor. It was the way the world worked. But then something had developed where, as maybe the instruments of war became much more powerful, that the civilian population should be saved from some of that. So in the Civil War, our Civil War at least, from what I've read, civilian populations didn't suffer so much in terms of loss of life as they did, of course, loss of property. loss of values, and those kinds of dying. But the Second World War, we opened the doors again on everybody's fair game. And we all contributed to that.
[13:04]
And I don't think even in this country for a long time we recognized the the kind of dogs we had let slip, actually, by doing so, by the fire bombings of Dresden and Tokyo and, of course, the atomic bombs and so forth. Anyway, the complete devastation of the cities and their populations has been fair game. And that particular tendency, of course, as we know, has carried on up to this day so that now, in our many little wars around the world, there are many more civilian casualties than there are combatants in many cases. So this is something to consider when we consider Memorial Day, just for whom are we holding these memorials? Genocide in Africa, India, the Balkans.
[14:06]
All these crimes have been perpetrated since the end of the Second World War. Of course, it was only five years after the Second World War that the Korean War started. So my generation, the generation that was born in the early 30s, too young for the so-called glories of coming home victorious in the Second World War, could catch that one. It would seem after that that each one of our generations in this country at least could have their own little war. But by this time, at least as I remember it, the whole new attitude had settled. It was cynical among the fighting men themselves. It was an attitude of desperation and of hopelessness in many cases. I don't believe that when I went to Korea that there was anybody that I knew, whether they were from West Virginia or the South, who actually believed we were going to fight the Chinese and behind them the Russians, who by the way had been our noble allies only five years before, that there was a single one there who went to believe they were fighting from some abstract idea called freedom.
[15:17]
I don't believe so. But I do believe that we discovered, which men in most wars and probably always will discover, that ultimately when it gets down to it, what you fight for are your friends. What you die for are your buddies. And then, of course, All of us here know what happened in Vietnam. And I think really dealt a death blow to our naivete in this country, finally. And I wonder how many, why people today, young men today and women now, want to go to war and sacrifice themselves, this is my opinion, I'm speaking from my own opinion, for multinational corporations.
[16:21]
In a world of growing interdependence and globalization, why anyone would have some ideal that we're fighting for values worth dying for on a battlefield, that those values could not be demonstrated or adjudicated or processed through diplomacy, through international agreements and so forth. But it's still happening. It just happened again. And now we have in the East a whole series of nations.
[17:26]
And they're not actually nations, a series of people, countries, what we call countries, who are held together with a religious ideal, Islam, where you're Islamic first and your national identities are second. people who are willing to die for their religious ideals rather than have McDonald's maybe or Hollywood movies set their tone for how they want to live. So, what does this day mean to us now? Besides the fact that we recognize our families, the loved ones that have departed from us, for all of those who have died, who have given their lives, where does it stop?
[18:27]
When we blow taps today, aren't we blowing taps for humanity instead of a group of people who died in this country or that, for this reason or that? But I personally, and of course I want to, I hope I can connect this with what practice is about in a minute or two. But first I want to say a little bit more about there are among us, even now, and not only in this country, but all countries maybe, men and women who have survived the horrors of combat and for whatever reason at least want to remember their beloved dead. And there's some poems about this.
[19:35]
Here's a short one, Memorial Day. It goes, of course, for the ones who were there, this day may bring back the smell of nitrate in the thousand-yard stair. Never mind the whys and wherefores, this day may stand like a ghost in the door, waving to the ones who made it back from over there. There is a poem, there's an African-American poet Yusuf Kumanyaka, you know his name? Yusuf Kumanyaka, I think that's how you pronounce it, I'm not sure. He's a Native American, or an African American, born and raised in the South. Went through the Vietnam War and discovered his gift for poetry. Became later a Pulitzer Prize winner, is now teaching at Columbia University, and so on, an amazing poet.
[20:41]
written extensively about the experience of loss on all sides, what this means. Now here's one attitude, here's one result of a death in a war, and it's called Between Days. And I'd like to read it to you. Between Days. Expecting to see him any time coming up the walkway through the blue wood and the bloodwort, she says, that closed casket was weighted down with stones. The room is as he left it 14 years ago, everything freshly dusted and polished with lemon oil. The uncashed death check from Uncle Sam marks the passage in the Bible on the dresser next to the photo staring out through the open window.
[21:46]
Mistakes, mistakes, she says. Now he's going to have to give them this money back when he gets home. But I wouldn't. I'd let them pay for their mistakes. They killed his daddy and Janet, she and her three children by three different men. I hope he's strong enough to tell her to get lost. Lord, Lord, mistakes. His row of ten soldiers lines the windowsill. The sunset flashes across them like a blast. She's buried the silver star on the flag under his winter clothes. The evening's first fireflies dance in the air like distant tracers. Her chair faces the walkway where she sits before the TV asleep as the screen dissolves into days between snow. So there's all those also who on this kind of day remember those who were so close to them and who hang on to the memory and won't let go of it.
[22:57]
In fact, I have a distant relative in my own family that I remember from my childhood. Her son, she lived on a farm. We used to go visit them in Minnesota. Her son was killed in the South Pacific. She held on for over 10 years, wouldn't let anybody go into his room, kept it exactly the day he left it and so on. Could not accept, could not accept the truth of his going. Until one day, all at once, she let it go. And then she changed, her whole life changed. In fact, she divorced her husband, went out into the world and got a new life. Amazing story anyway. Those kind of little mini-dramas, millions of times repeated in this country, in all countries all over the world. Here's another one that he wrote himself about his experience. I think it has to do with the Vietnam Memorial. It's called Facing It. My black face fades, hiding inside the black granite.
[24:05]
I said I wouldn't, damn it, no tears. I'm stone, I'm flesh, damn it. My clouded reflection eyes me like a bird of prey, the profile of night slanted against morning. I turn this way, the stone lets me go. I turn that way, I'm inside the Vietnam Veterans Memorial again, depending on the light to make a difference. I go down the 58,022 names half expecting to find my own in letters like smoke. I touch the name Andrew Johnson. I see the booby traps, white flash, name shimmer on a woman's blouse. But when she walks away, the names stay on the wall. Brushstrokes flash, a red bird's wings cutting across my stare. The sky, a plane in the sky, a white vest image floats closer to me. Then his pale eyes look through mine. I'm a window. He's lost his right arm inside the stone.
[25:07]
In the black mirror, a woman's trying to erase names. No, she's brushing a boy's hair. So what are the ideas? You know, the question of death is interesting because we've moved from a kind of a collective progression in our culture from fear of death to fascination with it. to a kind of acceptance of it. And now in this kind of culture, in this kind of setting that we have here, into insight, toward insight into death, into the great message, which is the great message of the universal is not that we survive. The great message is that we awaken into a process in which nothing whatsoever ultimately survives.
[26:10]
And the awareness of death becomes our practice. Not just death down the road, not death in some particular context, but death from moment to moment. Breath to breath from day to day, the letting go of the attachment to the separate self-sense. The separate self sense, not only as an individual, not only as a family member, not only as a member of a community, of a business, or a national. Identity. All identities. Dying from moment to moment. All clings to forever. In whatever war, in whatever place, however we look at it. Dying. Grief. Going through the process of grief and letting go. And there's no way out of it. There's only a way into it. And there's not a person in this room sitting here who has not experienced losses, losses of identity, nameless wars, family wars, business wars.
[27:22]
And so the question then is, what is the principle of teaching? I think, what does the principle word come down to in dealing with this kind of situation? I think it comes down to the word sacrifice. From moment to moment, giving up our attachment and the impossibility and the recognition of the impossibility of doing it. I can't do it! And the echo comes back, do it, do it, do it. I can't do it, [...] do it. I won't do it, [...] do it. Because whether we want to do it or not, it's all going to get ripped off. In some sense, every day, every minute is a memorial moment, is a memorial day from the point of view of practice, from the point of view of attachment, from the point of view of losing something beloved. In my version of the Buddha story, you know, it's like, you know, men, they're never around when you need them, you know.
[28:40]
He's off somewhere in the world doing important business. His wife is lying back home staring into space with her dead eyes. He gets the message. Comes over to a telegram. Somebody hands it to him and says, you got to get home. Your wife died. He tries to fly back from his important business. It's delayed on the way and so on. And finally comes home to face that. To face that. It's not quite the same as sitting in a cave somewhere. Not the same as getting the final signature on the business deal. He had to face that face. Staring at him with dead eyes. And that's when he decides to cut his hair. That's when he decides to strip off his old identities. That's when he decides to go out into the world again and leave the fruits and flowers of anything that he considered holy or sacred to find out how to end that agony. That's the job we all have.
[29:42]
That's what Buddha is to me. And Here's another poem, of course. This one you will know. This one is by my friend Pablo Neruda. It's a beautiful poem. This part was used in a movie. But I think this is, even in translation, is very moving. If suddenly you do not exist, if suddenly you no longer live, I shall live on. I do not dare, I do not dare to write it if you die. I shall live on. For where a man has no voice, there shall be my voice. Where blacks are flogged and beaten, I cannot be dead. When my brothers go to prison, I shall go with them. When victory, not my victory, but the great victory comes, even if I'm dumb, I must speak.
[30:46]
I shall see it coming, even if I am blind." No, forgive me. If you no longer live, if you beloved my love, if you have died, all the leaves will fall on my breast. It will rain on my soul night and day. The snow will burn my heart. I shall walk with frost and fire and death and snow. My feet will want to walk to where you are sleeping, but I shall stay alive forever. because above all things you wanted me indomitable and my love, because you know that I am not only a man, but all mankind. That's a wonderful poem, isn't it? That's called Dead Woman in translation. So those are three or so poetic expressions of people's experiences that come to mind or come to the fore, so to speak, on a day like this, on a weekend like this, a time to remember, time to get in touch with that kind of loss.
[31:55]
the veteran in you that is suffering, the one who died that you sacrificed for, the one that you gave up, the one that will never come back, the one that will never come home again. We have Veterans Day and other days, you know, to take care of the more flag-waving aspects of it. I do not see Memorial Day as a flag-waving day. I see it as a day to open the heart and to include everyone everywhere, everywhere. In all countries, men and women, it cuts across all lines and maybe all the way back. Imagine the cries that have risen in this world from the wars that we have suffered, the battles we have been lifetime after lifetime engaged in. No wonder the ocean is filled with our tears. No wonder fire burns with our eyes. Looking at that kind of thing.
[32:59]
No wonder the women in Cambodia went blind. Went blind seeing the atrocities. Went deaf. I remember in Korea, one of my friends going deaf. Nothing wrong with his ears. He couldn't hear it anymore. He didn't want to hear the cries of the wounded. They couldn't find anything wrong with him. He just shut it up. Memorial Day for them for that. I don't see any other reason for me to sit here and talk to people if that weren't the case in the world. And what would be the need for Buddha, Christ, Allah, whoever, if this was not the case? This is the case. This has been the case. This will continue to be the case. It is called the world. It is Memorial Day, 2003.
[34:01]
We must celebrate it and celebrate our lives joyously together. Must. Indomitable, he said, be indomitable as all the heart of man, indomitable of humankind. I can't do it alone. I fall into hopelessness. I fall into helplessness by myself. When I read the paper in the morning, when I hear the news and so on, when I shut myself away from it, when I say, oh, those fill in the blanks. When I put my fingers, and then when I say, if only they would wake up, I would be happy. And I know I'm conning myself. And I can't help it. That's why I wear all these robes, all this cloth.
[35:05]
For centuries, people have been putting on robes, you know. This was the Indian robe. And then this was the Chinese Confucian robe. And that's the Japanese robe. And that's the American T-shirt. And under all of it is our pimpled, warded, wrinkled, differently colored flesh, human flesh, stuffed with consciousness and pain. Hey John, I need you. You need me. And Next time we meet, some of us won't be here. And some of the people that you know today will no longer be around.
[36:07]
Bye-bye. Any day now. I just said goodbye to my first wife. I haven't been with her for 40 years. We married over 50 years ago. She was a foreign national, Japanese. We have a son. And I thought when she went, I would feel some grief. But you know what it was like? The way I look at it was like a, you know how you might have, in your smoking days, you might have dropped a little ash, and you look down and suddenly there's a hole, a little hole, in your pants or in your shirt or something. A little hole was burned there. It's like that. I look down and suddenly there's this little hole in my life. Well, while somebody's around, even though we don't see them anymore, even though they're not our friends, even though they're even our enemies, they're still in the world. We have that feeling they're here. And in this day and age, you're not six degrees of separation.
[37:11]
You're about one. Boom, hit the .com or hit the Google or something. You'll find them right away. But suddenly they're not there. You can't find them anywhere. They're gone. They leave a hole. When too many holes happen too fast, who are we? We're just holes. That's what interdependence means. I'm made up of everything that's out there of you. It's all my relationships with everyone else. So suddenly I found this hole in my life. And then through that hole came all the memories. I did tell her once I loved her. She said the same to me. And then she was gone. I was gone. We were all gone. new relationships, new loves. You know how it is. It's an old story. So anyway, this is a day that's full of holes. And as we walk along, there's another thing. I was walking along looking at my feet walking in the dew, you know, the dew, the heavy fog.
[38:14]
I was thinking, all right, I'll get up there. See, we're quitting. walking along leaving a footprint. And there's a name in each footprint. Another name. The name of those that are gone. You live long enough you can walk a mile and fill every footprint with a name. Memorial Day. Well, I think that's my spiel. We're going to get together in a few minutes and talk some more, so if you have questions, we can discuss a little bit more. I know I always leave out the most important thing. I always do, you know, but I'm sitting here just a moment to say, oh, I was going to tell him this, and later I said, the most important thing I had to say, I didn't tell him.
[39:16]
But it seems in my world, at least, it's set up that I won't remember it. I can sit here until tomorrow. I still won't remember it until I get back. Oh, yeah. It'll come then. Well, even if you're an atheist, even if you don't believe in anything, say a prayer. We need it. May our intention...
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