The Seeds and Fruits of True Awakening 

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In our first class, mainly I talked about aspiration, I think.
And I left the class towards the end with the kind of encouragement to contemplate what your aspiration or what aspiration is living in your life.
What's the big wish of this life?
And I had a big wish that you would wonder about that.
And I still have a big wish that you would wonder about that and that would become clear to you, what the big wish of your life is.
If I had the big wish of enlightenment being realized in this world, that would include the wish that beings would have that wish.
Beings having the wish for enlightenment, is concerning Buddha's enlightenment, is fundamental and necessary.
Enlightenment is the fruit of this wish for itself.
And the Buddha's enlightenment is helping others with the understanding that others are who we really are.
It's the kind of helping that goes with the understanding that others are not separate from us.
There's other ways of helping that are not joined with that understanding.
That's not the Buddha's enlightenment. The Buddha's enlightenment is the kind of help that helps people in the context of that wisdom.
So it's the kind of helping that actually not just helps people, not just benefits people, but will eventually liberate them.
And not just liberate them, but initiate them into helping others in the same way that they were helped.
So the Buddhas want to help people in any old way, but the central way, the most important way to help people is to help people become helpful, in the most helpful way.
When I see and hear about the way this world looks to people, at that time, the world kind of looks that way to me.
When people tell me the stories they have about the world, I often kind of see the world the way they do.
And people tell me stories about how horrible the world is, and they tell me stories about how unhelpful some human beings are to each other, to animals, to plants.
So I hear a lot of stories, and I hear about problems which seem almost like, how could we ever do anything with such a terrible situation?
And at that time, I often don't have any bright ideas, but I do have a wish, still, often.
I still wish that enlightenment could be realized right now, and I also understand that for that to happen, I have to wish it, or there has to be the wish, and there is a wish, so that part's good.
And also I understand that for this wish to come to fruition, for this wish to be realized, I have the understanding, which I'm happy about, I'm happy to have the understanding,
that not only is there a seed, a wish, to realize enlightenment in this world now, and now and now, but also there are practices which take care of that wish,
and bring that wish to the point of supporting the entry into reality, a reality which does not deny the stories, does not deny the unhappy stories,
it just understands them as insubstantial, ungraspable, and in that understanding there is a liberation from those stories,
without messing with them, without degrading them, without disparaging them, without saying that they're stupid, that the stories are stupid is another story.
But actually while those stories are going on, while they're being witnessed, there is an understanding that they are actually insubstantial, and there is liberation with them.
And then the practices which take care of the wish, the aspiration for Buddhahood, those practices are then engaged in more fully than before the entry into the understanding.
And then those practices continue to care for this wish and to continue to bring it into full realization as the best understanding, the most helpful possible understanding,
the most helpful possible wisdom in the world as it stands, as it sits, as it is for the moment.
And then the job is done and the job is that Buddhahood just keeps working and working on living beings, stimulating them somehow to give rise to this wish.
And then stimulating them to hear the teachings of how to take care of this wish, and then they take care of the wish, and they enter reality, and they continue to take care of the wish, and then they join Buddhahood,
and then again they join the process of stimulating living beings somehow to give rise to this aspiration, take care of it, enter reality, and take care of it beyond entry into reality to Buddhahood, and so on.
And that's the picture of this class, and that's the story of this class, and I wish that this story will come true.
And the practices that take care of this wish and bring it to the point where the wish gives rise to a wisdom which is able to enter reality, those practices are called the six basic bodhisattva training methods.
The six basic bodhisattva precepts, the six basic bodhisattva practices, and they're also called the six perfections.
They are six perfect practices, they are six perfected practices, they are six perfecting practices, and these six practices are called giving, ethical discipline, patience, courageous effort, concentration, and love.
Those six practices take care of the wish that Buddha will be realized and that everybody will join in that realization, that Buddha will be realized in order to help everybody become most peaceful and happy way possible now,
and that that process will go on until everybody is participating in it. That wish is protected and developed by these six practices.
And again, they cause the entry into reality, and then after entry into reality, after initial awakening, those six practices are continued, but now more effectively than before.
Now with the correct understanding of what they are.
So that's the basic picture that I offer you, the basic picture for this class.
Any questions about that basic picture, or the innumerable implications of it, and questions you might have about it?
Yes.
Ben.
Could you repeat the six again, and could you repeat it after me, when you repeated each other's names?
Good idea, Ben.
Thank you.
One, two, three.
Giving.
Ethical discipline.
Patience.
Heroic effort.
Concentration.
Wisdom.
All these six are actually the ethical practices of someone who wishes to realize Buddhahood,
because if you wish to realize Buddhahood, you have an ethical responsibility to realize Buddhahood.
Does that make sense?
If you commit to realize Buddhahood for the welfare of this world, then you have an ethical discipline to follow through on it,
and these six practices are what you do to realize Buddhahood.
So the second one is called ethics, but really they're all included in the ethical responsibility of one who wishes to realize Buddhahood.
Yes.
Yes.
Could you hear what he said?
He said there's some stories about people who, the story is they had no training,
and somehow they had awakening.
So, for example, the sixth ancestor of the Zen tradition in China,
he was walking through the marketplace in Guangdong, Guangzhou I mean, which used to be called Canton.
Guangzhou.
He was walking through the marketplace in like the late 7th century,
and he walked by a fortune telling booth or something like that,
and the person in the booth was reciting the Diamond Sutra,
and when he got to section 10c, he said that a bodhisattva,
in other words, somebody who is aspiring to realize Buddhahood for the welfare of the world,
a bodhisattva should give rise to a mind that has no attachment or no abode.
When he heard that, I think, I would understand the story, he entered reality when he heard that.
When he heard that, he entered reality.
And Adam is saying the story is that he had no training before he heard that.
But I never heard the story that he had no training.
All I heard was he was a young man selling wood in the marketplace and he heard that,
but I never heard that he wasn't trained.
And the bodhisattva teaching is that when somebody hears a teaching like that,
which the story I heard is that he heard it,
somebody who hears that teaching and enters reality,
well, other people were in the marketplace, this guy was chanting it there,
other people were walking by, did they hear it?
Well, they heard it, but they didn't hear it in such a way that they entered reality, he did.
Now, in the background of what I'm saying to you is a teaching from India,
coming from a bodhisattva named Asanga,
who lived about 200 years before the sixth ancestor did, in India.
And he had a friend named Maitreya Buddha, who was his teacher.
And anyway, Asanga now is teaching us that the people who enter reality
are the people who hear a lot.
In other words, who listen to the teaching a lot.
So, according to that, this bodhisattva, who became the sixth ancestor,
had been listening to that teaching a lot.
It doesn't say that somebody, that ascension being the first time they hear this teaching,
for example, about what a bodhisattva is like,
the first time they hear it, they go from believing that things can be grasped,
and they hear the teaching not to grasp things, and as soon as they hear it, they stop.
They have to hear it over and over.
So, the Mahayana teaching, the teaching for bodhisattvas says,
the people who can hear this teaching, that there's nothing to grasp in this world,
enter reality and save the world, like the sixth ancestor did,
are people who listen to that teaching a lot.
And when you listen to this teaching, just like you're listening to it now,
when you listen to the teaching, your body and mind are transformed by listening.
But the people who actually hear the teaching and enter
are the people who have done a great deal of listening.
So, the story of the sixth ancestor does not say that he did not train before he heard this.
It just tells us, here he was, a layperson selling firewood, he heard the teaching.
The Mahayana teachings say that somebody who can hear the teaching that deeply
has been listening to it for a long time.
But we're not told, I don't know the story of his listening career.
And I would say, and I don't know Ramana Maharishi's story,
maybe they do say he had no training.
We also have a person named Shakyamuni Buddha, right?
What about him? Well, did he hear these teachings before he discovered them?
In other lives, previous lives.
The historical Buddha did not say that when he awoke,
that he hadn't been studying for a long time.
He told us that he studied with other Buddhas before.
And he listened to their teaching before.
And one of them said, you're going to be a Buddha.
And your name is going to be Shakyamuni.
So, our historical Buddha told us that he studied with Buddhas in the past
and he listened to their teaching in the past.
And he had lots of enlightenment experiences with those previous Buddhas.
But his enlightenment experiences were the ones where he entered.
And the sixth ancestor also, when he heard that teaching and he entered,
he still was not a Zen master.
He was pretty good.
But the person who was reciting it told him,
if he wanted to learn more about this,
there was a person up in northern China that could teach him.
He knew enough to know that he needed more training.
He didn't think, I had no training and now I'm going to start training.
He knew he needed more training.
So he traveled north to receive more training from the so-called fifth ancestor.
And again, the story that I've heard is,
on the way, the sixth ancestor who heard this teaching
and awoke in the marketplace,
on the way he met a nun in a temple.
And he talked to her and she realized that he was awakened.
And she asked him to give talks, or give a talk at the monastery.
And he gave a talk.
And the people appreciated it.
So they asked him to give another one.
So he gave another one.
And he gave talks.
But the person giving the talks was on his way to study with his teacher.
So he finally realized, wait a minute, here I am stopping
and now I've got this huge congregation of students,
but actually I need more training before I'm a teacher.
So he said, sorry folks, I hope you enjoyed the show.
I have to go.
I really have to go.
Sergeant Pepper's Lonely Heart Club Band.
He's moving on up north.
So he goes to see the fifth ancestor and gets more training.
And then after he becomes the successor of the fifth ancestor,
the fifth ancestor says, okay, get out of here now
and do not teach for a long time.
Go hide. You're not ready to teach.
So then he continues to train.
After he becomes successor and receives this responsibility
and this authority, he still has to mature more
before he can actually come out and do the responsibility of teaching.
So from the time he awoke until he started to teach,
there was a long training period.
The first part of it was actually relatively short.
In other words, the time from when he heard it
to when he walked to his teacher
to when he spent with his teacher,
he only spent eight months with his teacher.
But the time from there to when he started teaching himself
was 16 years.
So he trained for about 17 years from the time he awoke
before he started becoming the sixth ancestor.
How long did he train before?
I do not know the story about that.
But I'm saying to you,
if anybody here didn't wake up tonight,
don't worry.
All you've got to do is do a lot more listening.
Because the people who enter reality
are those who listen to the teaching a great deal.
And when your mind, your karmic mind,
or when my karmic mind,
thinks about things like stillness
rather than thinks about things like gain and loss,
the karmic mind is a mind that has a shape.
And the shape of the mind is the karma of the moment.
And when the shape of the mind is the shape of the teaching,
there's consequence of a mind that's shaped like the teaching.
And the consequence is the unconscious mind,
which supports the conscious karmic mind.
And the unconscious mind
then supports the arising of another conscious mind
which has a better chance of shaping itself
around listening to the teaching.
And if it does, the consequence of that
is that the unconscious mind is again transformed
and transformed and transformed
until there's more and more conscious minds
that are kind of like,
I don't know what they're kind of like,
coral or something.
Just kind of like looking for the sunlight.
Just ready for the Dharma.
Is there any Dharma around here?
I want to listen to the Dharma.
So, that's what I would say about those stories.
If you just look at the historical Shakyamuni Buddha
and don't listen to what he said,
it looks like he only had one life.
But the Buddha and Suzuki Roshi and so on
would say, if you think that Shakyamuni Buddha
is the only Buddha, you don't understand Shakyamuni Buddha.
Shakyamuni Buddha was preceded by other Buddhas
and studied with other Buddhas.
That's what Shakyamuni Buddha said.
So, again, I do not know the story
of who the Sixth Ancestor studied with
before he was this wonderful guy
walking through the marketplace.
I don't know his story before that.
However, his teacher, the Fifth Ancestor,
there is a story about him.
Kind of an amazing story.
Want to hear it?
So, the Sixth Ancestor's teacher,
the Fifth Ancestor,
he was a Buddhist priest.
And once upon a time,
there was a man in China.
Before there was the Fifth Ancestor,
there was a man walking around China
and that man met somebody
who is called the Fourth Ancestor.
Are you following it?
So, before the Fifth Ancestor,
there was the Fourth Ancestor.
And there was a man in China
who met the Fourth Ancestor
and the man said to the Fourth Ancestor,
please let me be your student.
And the Fourth Ancestor said,
you're too old.
Get a new body.
And you can be my student.
So, the man went down to the river nearby
and that's the last we hear of him.
And there was a young woman down at the river
and when she came up from the river,
shortly after that,
she found out she was pregnant
and she didn't know how she got pregnant.
And her parents were very upset with her
because here she was pregnant
and she wasn't married
and they weren't nice to her.
So, here she was pregnant.
So, she had this baby
and she was kind of ostracized
or rejected from her family.
And she had this baby.
She was having a hard time.
She's walking along the road in China
and she runs into the Fourth Ancestor.
And the Fourth Ancestor says,
would you like me to take that boy off your hand?
And she says, as a matter of fact, I would.
And so, she gave him her son
and that boy became the Fifth Ancestor.
And now, if you go to the Fifth Ancestor's temple in China,
there's a big building there
which is called, you know,
something like the Great Mother Hall,
dedicated to this woman
who performed the service
of making the Fifth Ancestor.
So, there's stories like that,
but there's not a story about
what the Sixth Ancestor was up to
before he was this guy walking around the marketplace.
Now, if I have the aspiration,
or not even I have it,
if there's an aspiration to realize Buddhahood
for the welfare of this world,
if there's an aspiration to help people
in this world be at peace
with this world,
and then help others be at peace with this world,
it isn't like I aspire to be at peace with this world
with all these terrible stories,
I aspire to be at peace with it
and happy with it,
and everybody else continues to be miserable with it.
That's not what I aspire to.
I aspire to work for the thing
that will make everybody happy with this world,
or in this world.
I aspire to realize Buddhahood
so that everybody can find peace and happiness
in this world.
Not waiting for it to get fixed
before they get happy,
but waiting to be happy and at peace
so they can help others be happy and at peace.
And if everybody is happy and at peace,
I don't know about fixing the world.
But maybe if some people were happy and at peace,
some things would get fixed.
I really don't know.
I'm just wondering,
can we work on this before things get fixed?
Because I just can't figure out
how they're going to get fixed,
at least not very soon.
But I can figure out that people could wake up
and be happy right now
if they would just stop believing the way they think.
Thank you.
It looks like Bill fainted.
And now Bill is lying down.
How's he doing?
He's fine.
Did you know he fainted?
He dozed off.
Bill heavily dozed off.
And we are still wishing for his Buddhahood.
Dreaming of that.
I just said quite a bit.
Any questions?
Comments?
Yes.
Yes.
Well, it's a difficult question
because it's,
what do you say,
it's a little bit
tricky about calling people Zen masters.
You know what I mean?
People may say, well, so and so is a Zen master,
and blah, blah.
So that's kind of difficult.
So who are we going to say is a Zen master?
Who are we going to say is a Zen master?
Well, I personally cannot figure out,
I cannot see,
I don't understand how I could possibly be in the position
to be able to
be supported
to think about the Dharma so much.
I can't figure out how that happened.
So I'm kind of, to me,
it makes sense to me that
I have a lot of background
that makes it possible for
my mind to be thinking about Dharma a lot.
When I became engaged to be married,
my mother-in-law
said this
Chinese phrase,
which means,
he must have broken a lot of
mokugyos.
A mokugyo is a wooden fish
that people,
it's a wooden drum
that people strike when they're chanting.
So she said I must have broken a lot of those
to have the good fortune to marry
the person I married.
They really don't break
unless you work them quite a long time.
She said I must have broken quite a few.
But that Chinese expression for
you must have been a beautiful baby
because baby look at you now.
You must have done a lot of good
because look how fortunate you are.
So that's a concept.
But to actually be able to see
how many mokugyos have been broken,
I can't see it actually.
I do not understand how I could be so fortunate
to meet the people I've met
and to receive the encouragement I've received
to study the Dharma.
But for example,
all of you are encouraging me
to study all week,
to listen to the Dharma all week,
so I can come and tell you
how important it is to listen to the Dharma
all week.
And I don't know how that comes to be the case
that I'm so fortunate.
I don't know how that works.
I cannot see how it works.
But the teaching is
that the ability to enter into the teaching
is dependent on doing these practices
and the ability to do these practices
comes from listening to stories
about these practices.
When you hear these practices,
these six practices,
tonight we have listened to those practices.
You have heard those practices.
Your mind has been transformed,
has been perfumed
by your mind thinking of those practices.
And also one would say
in order to even be in this room
you must have done a lot of good things
to be in this room.
To be able to spend this evening
in a quiet place,
it isn't, you know,
lots of causes and conditions
make that possible that you could have
such a nice quiet place
to be in for a few hours.
But I can't actually tell you,
I can't actually see
how each of you got to be
so fortunate as you are to be here.
Some people almost never have a chance
to sit for half an hour quietly
and to hear that enlightenment
is living in silence and stillness.
That's a very fortunate thing to hear,
that you are hearing
the great vehicle teachings.
When you hear that,
you are hearing the great vehicle teachings.
And when you hear the great vehicle teachings,
they are not separate from you
when you are hearing them.
You can't hear something that's separate from you.
You are a person
who is hearing
and your hearing is not something different.
What you are hearing
and the action of hearing
that you are going through right now
is not something in addition to who you are.
It's not like there is you and your hearing.
You are a hearing.
You are a hearer.
And what you are hearing
is not separate from your hearing.
So when you hear these teachings,
you are these teachings.
When you hear the six perfections,
I'm not saying you are the six perfections,
but you are the hearing of the teaching
of the six perfections.
And when you are the hearing
of the teaching of the six perfections,
then there is a possibility
that you will practice them
because you are the hearing of them.
And if you look at the hearing of them,
you will realize wisdom.
Because in the hearing of them
is reality.
Is the reality that there is not
the teacher and the teaching and you.
When you hear the teachings,
the teacher is not separate from you
and the teaching is not separate from you.
And if you hear that over and over,
you have realized wisdom.
And at that time,
your aspiration is nicely protected.
Yes?
Yes?
The shape of the mind,
in a given moment,
the shape of your mind
is actually the definition
of the karma at that moment.
So,
technically speaking,
the historical Buddha defined karma
as,
karma is sort of a Sanskrit word,
and he used another Sanskrit word
called cetana.
And cetana means the shape of your mind
in a given moment.
Now, cetana is often translated as
intention,
or will,
or volition.
So, if you look at your mind,
in your mind,
there is some tendency.
So, just before I started talking,
I looked in my mind and I noticed
there was a tendency to want to tell you
that there was a tendency.
I looked in my mind and saw
an intention to speak,
and I stopped before I spoke,
because I was intending to tell you later
of what I just told you.
And what I told you was,
I looked in my mind and saw
the intention to speak,
but I paused,
so it would be easier for you to understand
that I actually looked in my mind,
saw an intention,
the shape of my mind was,
it intended,
it wanted to tell you something
about the definition of karma.
And so,
I actually did an example
of looking in my mind,
looking at this,
reflecting on the shape of my mind,
and I saw that intention.
That intention is the karma
of that moment.
And then I
expressed that intention verbally.
That verbal expression was
a physical ramification
of the mental karma.
It was a physical karma, vocal karma,
to reflect the mental karma.
So, karma is always cognitive,
but there are three kinds of cognitive action.
One is mental cognitive action,
one is verbal cognitive action,
and one is postural cognitive action.
And they all have shapes,
and the shape is the definition of karma.
And then the karma
is wholesome, unwholesome, or neutral.
Neutral means you can't tell
whether it's wholesome or unwholesome.
I, in this case,
thought that those intentions were wholesome,
because I felt pretty clear,
I wanted to make something clear to you,
to help you understand this.
So I thought,
I'm looking and I'm saying,
I think that's a pretty wholesome intention.
I did not have,
there wasn't much trace of,
I really didn't feel like I wanted,
there was no ill will towards any of you there.
But sometimes, if you look in your mind,
you might actually find ill will,
which means ill intention,
which means ill volition.
That you actually look in your mind,
and you can think,
oh, I actually would like that person
to not do too well.
For example,
if you're in a race,
you might actually wish the other person
to not do very well.
That would be called an unskillful action.
Those kinds of actions,
generally speaking,
you can't say for sure,
but they look kind of unskillful,
and they probably will
make you unhappy soon,
or later.
But we don't exactly know how it works.
To watch out for
ill will.
In other words,
watch out for minds that have the shape
of wishing somebody to not be happy,
or wishing somebody to be sick.
That's like ill will.
And that's a shape your mind could have,
which probably most of you
have occasionally
seen that in your lifetime.
You've certainly heard about it,
that someone actually wishes somebody to be sick.
That's ill will.
A mind that's shaped like that
is a karmic consciousness
that has that shape,
and we usually call that unskillful,
because ill will really does
usually cause,
we don't know exactly how,
Buddha knows how,
we don't know how,
but it causes suffering,
especially to the person
who has a mind shaped like that,
like shaped towards,
I wish this person would be sick,
rather than I wish this person
would be happy.
That's another shape.
And then there's a mind which thinks,
I wish this person would be happy,
but there's another feeling
which says,
that wasn't really that sincere.
So you can have that thought
and think,
well, I wasn't really wholehearted about it.
I said it,
but a little bit I wish,
I hope they're not too well.
Or,
I'd rather have somebody else
think they would be,
or something like that.
So in that case,
you can actually look in your mind
and see this,
and what you're looking at
is the shape of your mind.
You can also,
when you're thinking of a teaching,
like when you're thinking,
I would like to practice giving,
just to think of giving is,
your mind is in that shape,
and your mind is now in the shape
of a practice which is conducive
to teach the shape of giving
to think,
I really like to practice giving,
that enhances the shape
and makes it more
receptive
and in accord with
that which will protect
and develop this wish.
I'll stop there
and see if you have any questions.
Anybody?
Yes?
Could you say something
about the technical writing
of these comic formations?
I remember being in a room
with some friends,
with people who have
murdered people and so on,
and when they told their stories,
I didn't think that they were,
they had just done something
or kind of,
it sounded to me like
they were talking
about
the decision of something.
Could you say a little bit more
about the,
so you're in prison
and people are telling you
about their minds now in prison?
Telling a story.
About the past?
And what's the story you want
to use to give an example?
It was mostly men,
who were talking about
violence
and young kids
who had to be violent
to survive.
And they had this
consciousness and it thinks,
this is a common story,
it thinks,
I must be violent,
otherwise I won't be able
to survive here in the street.
That's a karmic thought.
And these people told you
that they remember
they had thoughts like that.
Okay, now what's your question?
There seems to be
an environment
that supported this.
Autonomous protection
It was coming
to be in this particular
context.
Like I said,
how did I get to be so fortunate
to be in a situation like this
where none of you probably
are wishing that I will think
that I need to be violent
in order to survive.
None of you are wishing that
for me probably.
I guess that.
None of you want me to think
that.
So I'm in a situation
where everybody is supporting me
not just to not think violent thoughts,
but you probably all want me
to think non-violent thoughts,
I imagine,
probably.
And if I would do anything violent
you probably would have
lots of questions for me
about what's going on.
I imagine that.
So then I think,
how can I be so fortunate
that everything is supporting me
to think of non-violence?
So then you wonder,
how does it happen that
somebody gets in a situation
where everybody seems to be
saying to them,
they say,
if you're not violent
people will attack you.
So the kids say to each other,
if you don't come on as tough
people will think you're weak
and they'll attack you.
They tell that to each other.
Or people are talking to them like that
and making it so hard for them
to dare to think a non-violent thought.
Because if they think it,
they think if I think it
these people tell me
that they'll attack me,
that I'll look weak.
And then thinking that thought
I will get hurt.
How does a person get in that situation?
And what did I say for how I got
in the situation of you all supporting me?
What did I say?
I don't know.
I do not know what training
led me to be in a position
where you're all supporting me
to think of non-violence
as the way to go.
You're all supporting me to think
if I think of non-violent thoughts
I won't necessarily get beat up tonight.
But you're also not telling me
you're not telling me
that if I think non-violent thoughts
I won't get beat up tonight.
You're not telling me that, are you?
Because you don't know.
I might get beat up.
If I wasn't thinking of violence all the time
you're not telling me that.
I do not know how I got in this position.
And I do not know how
other people get in a position
where people are saying to them
you must be aggressive
and you must not show people
the slightest weakness.
I don't know how to get in a position.
But I do know some of those people
who live in those neighborhoods
something happens to them
and they change.
And they dare to be vulnerable.
I know there's those stories too.
That they live in the neighborhoods
where they were told when they were kids
if you show weakness you'll be attacked.
And they listened to that
and they showed toughness.
And they watched.
How were they fortunate enough
to see what happens
when they acted tough
and when they got in trouble?
How did they come to learn that?
But now after going through that course
of be tough otherwise you won't survive.
They were tough and they did survive.
And then somehow at some point
they got to a place
where somehow they thought
I'm actually not going to be tough.
I'm going to dare to be vulnerable.
How did that opening happen?
That they dared?
In the same environment
where they heard these stories all these years
and they were tough all those years.
What happened that they somehow
tried something different?
This is what I am in life for.
I'm not here to beat people up
so I can survive.
I tried that.
And I did survive.
And here I am.
I'm alive.
And I was mean to people.
And now I just tried something really different
and I thought this is what I'm here for.
How could they be so lucky
as to make that turn?
I don't know.
But when they make the turn
then they make the turn.
And it's not that they never
turn back to the other way
and say well that was foolish.
So you know that story
in the Les Miserables
where this guy, kind of a nice guy,
steals something and then
they get put in prison
where if you show your weakness
if you show your goodness
you get attacked.
And he got tougher and tougher and tougher
and then he escaped from prison
and he met this priest
and he stole the stuff from the priest.
He stole the stuff from the priest.
You know that story?
You don't?
So he stole the stuff from the priest.
He was a mean guy.
He got mean.
How did he get mean?
By being in prison
and if he showed any goodness
this prison warden
saw the goodness
and he attacked him.
Just like people say
you show your goodness you get attacked.
Who do you get attacked by?
You get attacked by somebody
who doesn't dare to be good.
Who thinks that they'll get attacked.
And they see you
and they want to make sure
that you don't get to be able to do
what they're not allowed to do.
So he was running around
looking for help
and he met a bishop.
The guy took him in
and when the bishop left the room
he stole the bishop's candlesticks
or either the candlesticks or plates
and he ran away.
You know the story Anna?
It's in Being Upright.
I haven't read it either.
Have you read Being Upright?
I haven't read it either.
Anyway it's in there.
Or seen the musical.
Have you seen the musical?
So he stole these silver candlesticks
and the police caught him
and they brought him back to the church
and they said we caught this thief
with your candlesticks
and the priest said
I gave them to him.
And the police said
okay and they left.
And then he said
you didn't give those to me.
I stole them.
I stole those silver plates too.
And then he snapped.
How did he get so lucky
to run into that priest?
I don't know.
These stories are saying
we do not know how people get in situations.
Only Buddha can see
how somebody gets in a situation
where people are telling them
if you're not violent
you're going to perish.
I don't know how they get in that position.
However we are being told
that somebody
has to come and help them.
Otherwise they'll just keep
spinning around there forever.
How they got spinning around there
I don't know.
But somebody has to go there and say
I gave you the candlesticks.
Somebody has to show the person
that vulnerability
is the natural state of affairs
and if you admit it
you can open to the beauty of this life.
Somebody has to go and show this person.
If somebody shows them
they can turn around and wake up.
How did they get in the situation
in the first place?
The Buddha says do not try to figure it out.
Buddha maybe says
okay I'll tell you.
But after I tell you
don't spend any more time
figuring out how you get in the next situation.
Do not put your energy into that.
Put your energy into your aspiration.
What do you aspire to?
Well I aspire
not just to be nonviolent
in this neighborhood where everybody is violent.
I aspire to teach everybody
in this neighborhood nonviolence.
How am I going to think of that?
Somebody is going to have to walk up to me
and show me how cool that is.
Without that I'm not going to think of it.
Just like that guy.
The priest had to show him.
Whenever this aspiration arises
the only way this aspiration can arise
is because we hear it.
Somebody has to say it to us.
Our karmic consciousness
which has been doing
these normal stuff
being selfish and so on
does not think of this.
It does not think of it.
It happens because somebody
talks to us and we hear it.
How do we get to hear it?
Somebody talks to us in another way
and we hear it.
How do we get to hear that?
Somebody talks to us in another way
and we hear it.
And gradually we start to open
to more and more outrageous stories.
And this woman who I heard
who lives in the streets
and helps kids in the streets
who was one of the tough kids
and she was in gangs and stuff
and she said,
I did what was necessary.
Somehow somebody talked to her.
She gets through to the other girls.
She shows them
that the path of nonviolence
is somehow cooler than the path of violence.
It's somehow more beautiful.
So I aspire
to realize
nonviolence
in such a way
so thoroughly
that other people would actually
open to nonviolence.
And I do not know how
people get in a position
where they're not open to hear that yet.
I do not know why the other people
in the marketplace did not hear it
and the sixth ancestor did.
I just know the story is
he heard it
and then he was this great person
for many thousands of people
because he heard it.
And I aspire
to work to realize that kind of realization.
Not for myself,
not as myself,
but to have that kind of realization in this world.
And I've also,
there was a person in these classes in the past,
one of the people in the past classes here,
who taught and teaches poetry in prisons
in California.
And she also teaches poetry
to the kids in Richmond,
in Berkeley.
And one of her students in prison,
she decided
that she wanted to be married to him.
So she married him
and she is married to him.
So her husband is a prisoner
and she teaches,
and she visits him in prison.
She's his wife.
They have a marriage.
He's in prison.
And I told the story many times.
Here it is again.
She said to him,
when you were doing those things
that led you to prison,
could anyone have stopped you?
You had to do those things.
Did people try to stop you?
Yes.
What would have helped you?
He said,
what would have helped me
is if somebody loved me.
So,
if someone loves us,
it doesn't mean we're not going to make mistakes.
It just means that
if somebody shows us love,
when we do make our mistakes,
we have a way to learn.
Like,
we're violent
and someone showed us love.
So we can say,
oh, well, there's another option.
I think I'll try that next time.
Matter of fact,
I think I'll try that from now on.
However,
I probably won't be able to do it from now on
because I have a habit of violence.
But that's the way I want to go.
And I know this violent path.
I do not want to do it anymore,
but I probably will.
I want to learn this new one.
Somebody showed me that.
I want to try it.
But I don't know.
Now, if you do this path long enough,
you will enter into this space
where you understand how this all works.
You can see how it all works.
But you won't necessarily go around
and tell people how it works.
You'll tell them how they can get into a position
to see how it will work.
In other words, you'll teach them how to be a Buddha.
When you're a Buddha, you can see how it works.
You'll focus not on figuring it out,
but how to get into a position
where you will be able to see it.
Where you won't have to figure it out even.
Where you just see it.
In other words, you will aspire to know
whatever will be helpful to people.
And how do you do that?
Well, you have to want to.
You have to actually want to be the best possible,
to devote yourself to the best possible thing
for all beings.
And then you have to do the practices
to take care of that.
And you will eventually know
exactly how that all works.
And that will be one of the facets
of your realization.
But it's not the most important one.
The most important one is,
that gives you confidence,
because you actually see,
oh yeah, this really is the way to go.
I can see how it works that way.
But the thing that's important is
you'll be able to get people to practice.
That's what the Buddhists can do.
And not just Buddhists.
Lesser beings can also encourage people.
Yes.
Okay.
Okay.
So apparently,
I don't know who it was,
the name I know
that got there to help
was a partner
whose name I don't remember.
My name's Douglas Noel,
N-O-L-L.
And they started something called
Prison Peace Project,
or something like that.
Prison Peace,
you can find it on the internet.
And one of the most interesting things was
that the women said,
we started to try to do
some of the things you were teaching us to do
even though it was the internet
or in letters.
And we found one of the most important things
that a lot of the younger women
that even we didn't know how to do
was we didn't know how to listen to each other.
And so they started practicing
listening to each other.
So that's my excuse.
Good excuse.
Thank you.
Any other responses, questions?
Yes.
I just wanted to share that
there's a film called
The Women Interrupters,
which is about two women
who show up every day.
Yeah.
The story I'm talking about
is one of these women
interrupters.
Yeah.
And she was a woman
who was,
this lady was,
yeah, she was a tough cookie.
She was a gang girl.
But now she's an interrupter.
And now she dares to be vulnerable
in a skillful way,
in a way that will
that will encourage nonviolence.
There was a document,
there's a documentary about it
and then Terry Gross, I think,
was interviewing the people
who made the movie, the film,
plus this leading example,
this woman.
People who are committing violence
are the most vulnerable.
People who are committing violence
I kind of think that everybody's vulnerable.
And I think the key to nonviolence
is to witness vulnerability.
The more you can witness vulnerability,
the more you can respond nonviolently.
I propose that.
Yeah.
Martial artists are really good
at witnessing vulnerability.
They can really relax with it.
So in sort of
reflecting on your question
about what it takes to shift
from a certain situation
to another situation,
from the way you've been living
as a gang member
to open to the light,
I'm thinking of some young men
that I worked with last year
who it seemed like
they really identified themselves
with their thoughts,
so they had a lot of violent thinking going on.
And they thought they were that.
And they were very,
like they didn't really see
any other self.
And I kept thinking during that time,
I wish somebody could help them
reflect on their thinking
and just in that kind of simple act
of that you're not that,
that you're not your story,
and you're not your situation.
Come in and have this.
I mean, I'm thinking
that everybody comes in
with their own consciousness
and it's there for you to take care of.
And I just have this longing
for somebody to help me
and not finish my story.
Remedy
by
breaking actions.
Okay.
I heard you, I think.
Now, I have a different view.
Okay.
I think we are what we're thinking.
I don't think there's me
in what I'm thinking.
And I don't even say
that I identify with my thinking.
That's too dualistic.
I'm just what I'm,
all I am as a karmic being
is my thinking.
What's helpful is not somebody
to come in and fix me,
but to witness me.
And then in that witnessing,
the person might say something like,
this is what I witness
and I think you can do something better than that.
Like somebody witnessed me
when I was a boy
and said, you know, he witnessed me
enjoying being a naughty boy
and then he told me how he was a naughty boy
when he was a boy.
And then he said to me,
you know, it's easy to be a naughty boy.
What's hard is to be a good boy.
He wasn't trying to fix me.
He was just trying to challenge me
with something more,
I don't know what the word is,
more interesting.
Well, I'm telling you
not so much that you are that,
but you are nothing other.
It isn't like there's you
in your unwholesome thoughts.
You're not other than it.
Now, if you wish to realize
Buddhahood for the welfare of all beings,
then what do we do
with such a thought?
What do we do?
Ben?
Observe it.
Yeah, but then what practice do we do?
We're observing it now.
We've noticed that it's unwholesome.
What do we practice?
Right.
We have this unwholesome mind.
We have this unwholesome mind
and we also have this wish.
Got the wish
and now unwholesome mind comes to visit.
I wish for Buddhahood
for the welfare of all beings.
Now an unwholesome guest has come,
which could be called my mind
or it could just be called
an unwholesome mind
or it could be called me,
unwholesome me.
It has come.
Now, because of this wish,
I want to practice with this
otherwise my wish will get derailed.
I don't want my wish to get derailed.
I want to take care of this wish.
I want to bring this wish to fruition.
So I've got to be kind to this,
whatever nasty creatures show up,
inwardly
or, you know, outwardly.
So practice giving
and then we move on to
ethics.
I'm going to practice ethics with this.
I'm going to be careful of it.
I'm going to keep my eye on it
because there could even be
some faultiness in my giving.
So I'm going to check out the precepts
in relationship to this difficult guest
and now I want to be patient with it
because this guest is kind of painful.
Ill will is painful
and so on.
I'm going to do all these practices
and now things have changed
and we're going to get another moment
but if I could do all those practices
with that
there could be
entry into reality
on the spot with this ill will.
It's possible.
Now we'd have liberation with the ill will
and then these practices
which I've done now
with the ill will
there won't be any ill will anymore
but with the next thing that comes
we'll be more skillful with it.
Any questions?
You okay?
You don't feel fine
so what do you want to do with that?
You're witnessing not feeling fine
and you're being compassionate
towards not feeling fine.
And how are you being compassionate
towards not feeling fine?
I'm loving myself.
You're loving not feeling fine.
I'm loving not feeling fine.
Yeah.
Just like you would love
a little boy who wasn't feeling fine, right?
Yeah.
Thank you.
Thank you for being honest.
Yes.
What's the function of
what do you mean by immaculate conception?
I guess you just answered it.
So the point of immaculate conception
is to make Buddhas.
I guess it has interesting implications.
Among the interesting implications
which one are you referring to?
It seems to leave out
It seems to leave out?
It seems to leave out
It's on the tip of your tongue?
It seems to leave out a father.
It seems to leave out a father.
Yeah.
Well the father in this story
was the fourth ancestor.
He's the father.
He really doesn't see it again.
The father,
the man that you don't see again,
he's the boy.
The man who went down the river,
he winds up
in the womb of the woman by the river.
He's not the father.
He's the boy.
The father is the fourth ancestor.
But he doesn't have sex with the girl.
It seems to leave out the story.
It doesn't mean it didn't happen.
Okay, that's your story.
My story is
tonight it's immaculate conception.
But the sixth ancestor
also became a Buddha
but he wasn't by immaculate conception.
He had a regular father
and a regular mother.
This is not a sweet answer.
You can't answer this question sufficiently.
If I can't answer this question sufficiently,
to what?
Okay.
Well that's that.
I have some time.
How much time do I have?
Any other thoughts?