June 20th, 2008, Serial No. 01141

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come on morning
i'm gonna talk this morning about changing com is it on

okay take to ah
i'm gonna talk this morning about changing karma
it's interesting because i in a way i talked in my first stop wasting my talks about mice my own struggles with karma in my life
one of the thinks about finding myself in this
a rather unexpected position was ah
not with was finding that town
that it's kind of like being naked all the time like one of those dreams
that you wake up and you're in the middle of a business situation and suddenly you're naked
ah
because all of my actions are public actions here
i can't blend in i'm just out there so it means that i have to look at my own actions or with a lot more attention
and and come to understand what that paying attention to action really is about a moment to moment
so i ah
i'll start with some basics and go back to basics first
that really karma is a sanskrit word from the wrote create it means to do or to make
it's really any action that we take in thought word or deed there's no time when karma is not happening wherever we are whatever our understanding if we don't pay attention we may not notice that something's happening or how each action we take as a cause or condition for some a
while we eat or drink what we used to clean with how we move in our daily life what machines we use what we say the work we do or don't do as dogan says in the jinsha anger even a small amount of water can create a wave many times it's size or as new garden estates action is like an unconcealed prom
missouri note like a debt of the realms it is fourfold moreover it's nature is neutral
this suggests that the consequences
have any action however local or small that action might be reverberate through all the realms of existence and the nature of action is neutral meaning that it can be positive or negative but something always happens when we act
in the story that sojourn talked about
about the fox
the first jack a jew believed that because he had realized the emptiness of all things and presumably had let go of grasping he was free from suffering and thus he was free from cause and effect
but he was still alive he still had a body
his bodily functions still happened if he ate too much he'd gain weight
if he ate two little he might become ill
if he didn't pay attention when he went out in the cold he could freeze
every breath as an action every bodily action everything we say becomes a cause and condition for something else
so we're generating karma and karmic consequences minute by minute
if i had found this story earlier i would have actually talked about this story but i only found it while i was sitting in the community room waiting for the talk so i'll just read a few paragraphs from a story from the book of serenity that kind of speak to recognize that the him
importance of recognizing
action recognizing cause and effect
john master juju high hush hush we in shoe province after he had realized the truth once went to long jaw long jaws zhao's place zhao asked him elder where have you just come from jujuy said from cheese zhang
zhao said did you come by boat or by land juju said by boat zhao said whereas the boat dude you're set on the river
chow said without referring to the journey how can you speak of phrase juju said and competent abbott's are plentiful as flax and millet and immediately left
another story like this is the first master of done a dongsheng asked a monk where do you come from the monk said rule province don't shum said how far is it from here the monk said seven hundred dog shampoo don challenge said
how many pairs of sandals did you were out the monk said three
danke schon said where did you get the money to buy them the monk said making rain hats danke schon said go to the hall the monk said okay
i missed it again i say even hands and eyes without the body can't see through do but tell me where are the monks eyes under his eyebrows
so the law of karma could be simply the law of causation every action has a reaction without moral implications but in both eastern and western religions throughout the ages and way before buddhism and za
buddhism
karma was also was on was often associated with moral retribution
were not only does it cause have an effect but he'll put who puts the cause and inaction suffers they affect and basically it was a negative moralistic view
but
that teaching was adapted or changed in mahayana buddhism
as expressed by no you because it it incorporates the fact that merit meritorious actions can do are conducive to liberation and morally wrong actions may increase bondage but it adds the reality of emptiness that all actions and emptiness or empty
i came across a note i'd made when i was reading the garda a year and a half ago
something that garfield have interpreted from a garden is verse dependent origination is the explicit ability and coherence of the universe it's emptiness is that there is no more to it than that
so how does karma work we do take action and there is an effect
but we know that neither the actor or the action or it's effects are permanent and unchangeable
so this really gives us something to work with
it contrasts with the jade judeo christian traditions of facing a terminal the eternal damnation for bad action
yes there will be consequences but if we become aware of the activity of cause and effect in our lives
we can
set an intention or make a vow to change our actions and ramp or remedy actions in the past
for me this has been very difficult it's not so hard to work with habits of the mind that we can study and determine our mental formations or delusions like how we might respond to certain things that someone might say the trigger will trigger a habitual response
for example quite a few years ago i bent i began to notice that when i would meet a certain kind of person usually a woman
i would have a crit i might have critical or judgmental thoughts
i might i might keep the feelings inside me
but if i wasn't careful
i would gossip to gain support for my negative views the feel like i had somebody in the in the in the mix with me
somehow this this this didn't didn't end up making me feel happy in fact it meant that i felt uncomfortable with many people and somewhat guilty for wrong speech as i watched my mental action repeat itself i began to notice the kind of habit energy that made me very
uncomfortable
the people i was having trouble with had a suspicious resemblance to me

i found that i was projecting my own stuff on to other people thereby separating myself from them and my
undesirable traits
and
it didn't work very well because i still suffered even though i was separating myself from my traits i still suffered from them and i also noticed that it didn't feel like it was working with other people because although i didn't really say anything negative obviously if you're projecting negative energy
if you have negative feelings or negative responses those are felt my other people whether you say them or not
so i i did begin a practice so so now as soon as i feel that critical feeling or that judge
i try to ask myself what is it about what is it about this person
that i the that it's making me uncomfortable what is it about myself that i see there
that's making me uncomfortable and it makes it easier for me till i go up
it seems harder to me
when we're dealing with something tangible not not just a mental response but a tangible response in our conventional lives like food for example
food seems very real
and most of us have a lot of strong food habits or compulsions for chocoholics and erect dicks strong prek preferences and aversions and these type of situations it seems much harder to say that thing as empty
to see that it arises and ceases it seems very concrete at the time and the power of the sensations the power of the desire
seems
it takes it takes much more effort to work with
suzuki roshi suggest that to work with our karma
our minds should be more careful more attentive and more reflexive
so notice he says whether you are creating problems in your everyday life or creating bad calmer for yourself or others there is a reason why you suffer and it is not possible to escape from suffering unless you change your karma
when you follow karma and and and dr carmen and good direction you can avoid the destructive nature of karma you can do that by being attentive to the nature of karma into the nature of your desires activity shakyamuni buddha buddha as quoted in the abbey dharma as saying to know the cause of suffering is to know how to avoid
why you suffer you'll understand the cause and effect and how bad actions can result in bad effects as long as we have an idea of self
karma has an object to work with
for me this means that as long as there is a self seeing other sentient beings and nonsense sentient being separate from ourselves we easily fall into taking selfish or self centered acts
so how do we pay attention
how do we study the cell
one aspect of action discussed in the abbey dharma is the role of cheetah a term and poly that means of volition
and the deaf that i looked up the definition of volition and english
an active willing or choice to exercise determined to action another word that's used
from the sanskrit is cheetah pada or cheetah product very similar but it and it it it implies
intention so there's something about
and a conscious action
volition is kind of an action we take by choice we make a decision to go from here to there we made a decision to pick up the fork
and put it and put it in the food and put the food in our mouth intention implies something a little bit more intention applies something further down the causal chain we set an intention to be kind to people and how that intention happens is through volition lax
the abbey dharma states that before we act we form a mental intent an idea that becomes the primary mover and give gives rise to a series of activities resulting in an action in order to act there has to be some underlying motivation the way to avoid negative karma then is to buy
see it through studying ourselves and our actions and then to meditate on the situation
when i decide to study my karma that i don't just look at the action and reaction but what what came before that what was the stimulus
better know what time it is no time to some kind of time i'll slow down
i don't just look at the action and reaction but what came before what was the stimulus if i've taken an action that i look at and say something harmful or even see that i am at this moment doing something unskillful
pause step away
ask what is my intention
why do i choose to behave in this way
did i intend to do something beneficial and it turned out to be harmful
where did i purposely intend something harmful was i being spiteful was i intending to do something negative really down there tape where i know

so
it doesn't make any difference
with the consequences be any different
if the intention is purposeful to do well or unconscious or
mean

i talked in my first waking state away thinking mind about doing abortions and
i saw i started to think about that again when i was preparing the talk
when i decided to do abortions i purposely
chose to do them
i did them because of my belief in women's reproductive freedoms i believe that i was helping women who were suffering and that my role as a healer
where's the doctor was to help them
so what's wrong with that is there anything wrong with that
for me internally i was going i found as i began to feel more uncomfortable and suffer
was i was not at one with myself
i was going against my own internal compass
my belief in the sanctity of life and my awareness that a fetus was a living being perhaps not yet sentient or alive but would become sentient if left alone i wasn't a buddhist at the time but as a buddhist it would have meant breaking a precept
and from what i know of buddha's teaching killing is a pretty serious business and always results in negative consequences
so in this case even though my intention was to benefit suffering beings i broke a precept
i went to i i became separate for myself and i've suffered as a result in dogan san diego he talks of the severity of consequences related to the type of action and intention the less serious actions become
resulted in more rapidly experienced effects so i guess i should be glad that my suffering came pretty quickly
although i'm not sure
he did and didn't feel good but at least it was soon
in this case if i study my actions further i can see that beyond my stated intention there was a lot of separation even with myself i separated with the part of me that was my moral compass i separated from the fetus the separation caused my suffering
so what if i discover a negative pattern bad habit energy how can i work with it i'm not sure we ever really know our true intentions but by paying intention and slowing down our actions and reactions we can get a better glimpse for me it's about catching the habitual thought
and waiting to act so that it will be more of a response rather than a reaction
in the case of negative thought or emotional state one way to study it is to first see the dynamic or the feeling and then in meditation go wholeheartedly into the feeling or the thought pattern shine a light on it watch it holding hope not holding on holding it gently without
judging if you're angry being angry buddha
then just doing that will notice that something changes
then we can see that change is possible
once we realize that we can have a chance of changing something we can catch the habit energy earlier recognizing it for what it is and not reacting and thus were changing karma in real time
what about changing past karma
in the traditional temporal sense the past doesn't exist anymore
so it can't be changed
but but what if we can change how we see the past how we hold the past and concrete somewhere
for example how we hold memories of people or events
we can recognize that we hold a fixed view
and that fixed view makes a person for example separate from us and it allows us to blame someone for what was wrong in a relationship
if if we look at that and open to the interdependency and to connectedness of the relationship
we see that there were causes and conditions
that created this situation in the past and some of the causes and conditions included our part in it
this always comes up in families where members develop habits of reacting to each other and create a story or a fixed picture of how each member is
once we see our part or see the causes and conditions that existed for a person we can open to them and a more compassionate way and forgive and see them in a new way
if we realized the role of are negative action we can apologize and make amends we can confess and repent
then the part that we call the past that is still alive in us in a memory is transformed
or perhaps there's some corrective action that we can take now in the present that can mitigate the harm that we did in the past
that has caused suffering in another we can be kind and compassionate so that they are suffering in the present can be relieved
maybe they're hurtful memory can also be transformed
for me this is a practice that has been very powerful
a few years ago i had an experience
where i went to another practice place for a long retreat it was during a very stress period of my own life
i avoided opportunities to socialize with other people it seemed to me that a lot of the people there were not very friendly
and i didn't like very many of them
later when i was studying karma i realized that my feeling state and behavior was probably a major contributor tell others reacted to me

i was unable to forgive myself and others and have much less suffering because i no longer held onto the delusion
that were permanent separate beings and and that and that hurt my feelings
i wish i could say it's true for all situations but i have a quite a ways to go perhaps five hundred lifetimes as a fox
so what about changing
future karma
another way to work with karma is to create a new intention to make a deeper vow to cultivate a different approach to embody the bodhisattva vow to be compassionate to all beings
and to be lived to live and be lived for their benefit dogan talks about cultivating grandmother mind he defines this as an awareness that all actions and activities are an expression of the buddha seal
this requires that we slow things down and try to remember that h sentient and non sentient being we encounter as buddha
when we forget an act but in a way that is self centered
then we catch ourselves doing that and we can sit with it and reaffirm our commitment and our bow
getting back to the situation i mentioned with all those unfriendly mean people
i went back to this practice place again and many of the same people were there i knew that would be the case and i made a conscious bow before i returned
to see the people to meet them for the first time
to practice my bodhisattva vow
magically
these people had transformed
it was quite a deeply moving experience for me to truly look at someone
open heartedly for the first time
and it felt transformative
ah felt like
the separation was gone
so it was for me
recognizing of
working with karma in a way that recognized
the causes and conditions that generated what was a situation that caused me suffering and pain
i'm making a vow seeing my place in that situation making a vow about that
so that next encountering a similar situation
ah
i could arise in that situation in a new way
and i could create i could deal with at least my part of the dependent colorized
not necessarily others but what my experience was is that by changing my own part in it of course the situation was a new situation so it was just experiencing what i know in my head in a different way
so i i went into sojourn yesterday afternoon and i had remembered a story that i thought
oh
why wanted to include in this and he couldn't find it but he handed me this book with a bookmark in it and he said this this is this isn't really good story
he didn't really know what i was gonna talk about either he has e s p
so i thought i would read the story that surgeon thought i should talk about
apparently but didn't tell me until i asked
it's called a tunnel
zang k the son of a samurai journey journey to edo and their became a retainer of a high official he fell in love with the officials wife and was discovered in self defense he slew the official then he ran away with a wife both of them later became
the thieves but the woman was so greedy that sank a guru disgusted finally leaving her he journeyed far away to the province of booze in where he became a wandering metuchen mendicant to atone for his past and k resolved to accomplish some good date in his lifetime knowing of a dangerous road over a clue
with that had caused the death and injury of many persons he resolved to cut a tunnel through the mountain there
begging food and the day times and k worked at night taking his tunnel when thirty years had gone by the tunnel was two thousand two hundred and eighty feet long twenty feet high and thirty feet wide
very important detail i guess
remember you have to remember every part of a causal chain each foot
two years after the work was completed the son of the official he had slain who has a skillful swordsmen found nk
but found him out and came to kill him in revenge
i will give you my life willingly said sen k only let me finish this work on the date is completed then you may kill me
so the sun waited awaited the day several months passed and and then kay kept on digging that's why it was so long
the son grew tired of doing nothing and began to help with the digging
recognizing his karma of sitting around waiting
after he had helped for more than a year he came to admire zen case strong will and character at last the tunnel was completed and the people could see it and travel safely now cut off my head said zen k my work is done
how can i cut off my teacher my own teachers head as the younger man with tears in his eyes
so
karma was transformed karma was transformed in jnk cora was transformed in the sun
is the past the same
well yeah
someone was killed
but something changed something very basic transformed
through setting intention to confessing and repenting and setting intention and carrying through on that intention in that though
so it seems to me that
that that that the karma is really the heart of our practice it's the core of practice it's never done
it's every moment
so

alan
oh two weeks ago on a friend visiting your senior bereavement
years old
we were discussing karma
and the question people he said
there's some karma as a kid
referring to
the brutality generals
i'm so hungry that i wouldn't be good
changed since you can't go back and know
that there are things going forward in life
so scared on do
ah this little grebes warm
i'm not quite sure
well i i just started thinking of you know stories of the buddha with the safe and the murder
yeah and
and how the buddha the buddha could see
something there and he changed the way he changed himself he became a condition for transformation so it seems like our our teachers saying are there is a there is a condition for transformation
there are causes and conditions that those generals experienced
i'm not the nothing you excuse anybody or that evil i mean karma has to be repaid in some way even if you
it's not like one or the other you know there's a consequence of killing an evil karma
but that doesn't mean there can't can't also be transformation
gypsy the end of that young team of allah's story he goes back to his village
where he killed
hey people mc
it's unclear whether it is hill said he speak he
who said barrett
yeah
so the baby's of transformations and me
lowe said com
yeah
oh it i make them very moved by your sharing your experience that having performed abortions out but i also and i mean i really honor that you weren't
you get you weren't there was something about that lesson right
you for me yeah but it's the way you talk about it today it sounded like it's always breaking a precept to have an abortion or to assist somebody to have an origin or to perform an abortion
and i didn't feel really comfortable with that so i wanted to give you with
either you know metro say yes it's always wrong or maybe i don't i don't think it's it's not a matter of wrong or right it's a matter of killing has consequences it always has consequences
it it it's not it's not
it seems to be taking life results in suffering
so if it doesn't it without making a judgment of it happening it's going to it's gonna cause suffering i think it's a really hard one
it was a very hard one for me because i was a rabid feminist so it was a very hard one for me to deal with that but it is you is there are it's not that we always follow the precepts we don't always follow the precepts
but there are certain things that we do that have consequences of one kind or another for me it was one kind for another person it might be another
well
i yeah i guess i'm not comfortable with how absolutely is aimed better since killing must cause i mean edit everything contrasts well i don't know about must know
that regularly nothing
i don't know i guess every popular decent possibility he was again
absolutely in a situation have a choice you don't honoring the choice honoring ugly but also you some acceptance i i think but what i look what i would i would say exactly that you know there is a choice we make choices and act we break preset
it's all the time we make a choice we make a volitional act to not follow the precepts
like certain times i hopefully with its volitional not accidents sometimes it's accidental
you might have been following me yes it's not in concrete it's i don't think it's in concrete know but but there is but the fact is there is suffering that goes on in making that decision
yeah
why did raise another question about karma but i can't help getting it is
dublin i knew it was gonna happen
who you're talking as if there's only one part of that situation that involves breaking present
i'm killing also when he denies a women there need to
a others raised question
that that may also be killing me that may also be another sure
it's not just the killing of the this that is killing in that situation maybe that's the problem some other are experiencing well i think we you know it's interesting to me that in buddhism we spend hours talking about snails
and whether or not we should kill snails but somehow people get really uptight about saving the snail or saving the spider but we get really uncomfortable with this issue because i think it's a really hard issue it's a political issue you know it's a feminist issue and so it's harder for us to talk about that issue that
it is for us to get uptight about whether or not we put snail bait out
still believe how well i'm not i'm not really i mean i think that we make decisions about precepts all the time whether to follow it whether to nod because maybe we think we're benefiting all be i made a decision because i thought i was benefiting women i made that decision
and women make that decision but for me it caused suffering so i don't know about other people
for me cause suffering for me it it was a decision that cost suffering i might do it again
if abortions became illegal i might do it again now
so
musical instruments and it's it's not his work with it is a common issue in our lifetime long my grandparents had five children with fees
my grandmother emotional as he chose to and vs pregnancy and she died of scepticism
and my grandfather kept it a secret until his death bed
and to very the baby says as she have used on the
and that had and
invitations or others five children on the children
and it was a wonderful revelation from my mother to find that out of her father died that's what happened to her and she changed her portal of variation from
well
but i think that if she had if my grandmother had use a doctor there would have been a difference and and also there was suffering as a result
but the worsening that either way either way there's yes susan's guess yeah i'm so that's what i was trying to say it's not simple but but it's but for me as an individual it's my my action and what that actually that effect of that action on me that doesn't mean that you might make
the same decision you might make a different decision and have different ria response to your action equipment isn't that this we lived in soccer times for those decisions maybe we added if their lunch or said
the
right
so thank you what a wonderful talk and
oh it's was more than over by the ocean
and my question is ah
have you found a tone
you found some keys with
at the faculty so strong
just sensor having done wrong
work just as jesus
he knows consequent are you find peace with
would you lie
you let go letting the movie to something that
right i'd been working on it today
i work with it all the time he asked by confessing and repenting i work with it
bye bye bye talking about it i work with it so it's doesn't have the same charge
it doesn't have the same charge anymore i can ask i can answer questions about it
you know without crying
you've been having your head up for a long time out their current earth
when you are talking about that and i have heard that sounds that but often but i never on this the problems the person
les mis you say it automation i'm really fortunate the in my life i never have to decide to the work not or in a situation where as a besides should i help
portions you know said strangling way difficult situation so
that's something to get for i'm sorry that cause you suffer
but this issue of taking live by faith
just to be a lie
so would take them back at us now
talk about fitness or whatever
i
there's no way to completely of and so it's just a continuous just like that all prisoners and ten years now so graphics and of making decisions and
sheriff signing orders and preset me this situation right now and mary's story and we work could
paint the picture more clearly the in an action and appears to be
but definitely wrong and telling him if you will to say you will so even if anyone has ever embarked seven
so it's just such
this kind of thing
it's a hard choice you know somebody i think as baker roshi
you know why were we vegetarians i think that's a story i heard and he said when you eat a carrot it doesn't you can't hear it crime
something like that was the answer so we make decisions all the time when we put gasoline in our car or everything we are having an effect on
and the care of it
the right
yeah what kind of stuff
to they worked near and word work
surviving said something done
camp
i i in the portion japan
almost like it was a one night stand
yeah i have never felt that that ain't he is dead after he was with me and also i get the feeling that he arrived in sacrificed himself in order to lessen don't give yourself away so
why hadn't i hadn't really learn so i don't think that a he he spoke here i have a name for him young talk so nice i don't think them
he's like a spirit that i had to learn a really difficult lesson and i get dick i've never done the same dumb this case again but you suffered yeah i e i have you suffered
and you suffered and you had a reaction to that experience which then transformed you in a way transform your life
so he can
those whom he was that his life was too short
so i get stop loving his
why does he keep your change i don't feel bad about the women's and their experience you know i feel happier and i help them but that has nothing to do with my yeah you think now
ellen was raising your head for longtime yeah a kind of two thousand currently listed at you know our lives you involved killings and you don't a seen but when attracted them feel wow animals
so i mean that's just one nipples sure fortunately i have
knowledge of other technically you know i have als found that irma and now i'm happy you know well attached because right know women aren't being gang raped and mutilated to the point that there is heightened and demand that are doing this have no remorse to get they don't see the women excuse
and they don't see themselves with humans and for at least because they were probably child sculpture to stay such a great deal on their conflict began of visuals and this very poor countries one of the main resource fit this is just the resource war and one of the main resources is distrusted that views itself
and i have a cell phone so i am not separate is not that i live and feel so guilty about my actions but i am not really innocent right so i'm part of this chain of events that has raised this enormous something not just in the fungal that many other places too but the congo and really hydrates helpless
situation and just to know if this is going on and not to know how to hold it what to do about it i can't stop it i can't solve it i don't know if they can ever be healed i don't know how to make an appeal from what faith does i don't know so and then i don't know what like karma is
it's not so much as i'm a bad person but like i said i'm not innocent so i don't know how to even if i didn't have a cellphone i'm still part of it somehow
it's a it's a very difficult situation
and i also think the world is very overpopulated with now we are way beyond accurate passes and this is really a difficult situation and i think the karmic consequences of that are going to be dealt with something and my like pressure
so really it's all about being really being aware and of and then making decisions or is there something i can do here
i'm katherine
well only to go back to something to marvel at which was good the idea that breaking a precept on with currently suffering i understand the or a difference between the reception when commandments is that the precepts aren't black and white
and that some of our problem comes from sorry
affects him to good effect of america
and certainly suffering some room
that we experience as that bad name
but we don't always know
we don't always know the consequences of the consequences the effects of the effects the is infinite web that we can't really pin down
and like you i struggled with the precept against killing my own case you had to do with
someone who was terminally ill while we take a toll on the time of the end of life
and on i helped her
and i wonder how that
would play out in my own life
she was somebody i loved the lot
you are
her family supported her decision
and what i can say is that the effects have been huge
but i can't know a of
cause remains one of the effects it is the life i'm living right now
am
and
i'm one of the things that i bring to the life of living right now is that i know i fell
if something is is good or bad
by just to live out of the tension
on
is somehow or in the next step in a way that is as non harming as possible
every everything getting involved doing talking on his cell phone connection with that suffering and own fucking about i can't move without causing some kind of arm
but i'm happy
yeah i think
for me it's tuning into that
intuitive knowing
for me
is how i make a decision and i think what i was saying and when i was talking about this today was i didn't
there was some separation between me and that intuitive knowing i was thinking up here i made a decision to act based on some political thinking not on intuitive knowing for me so i was separate from that and so at that point
there were consequences that separation
tennis i'm sorry i pay nancy next okay do we have enough time for nancy
what time is
well we'll make enough time for nancy
yes and an ounce
i heard that actually was all set for several years with diesel ah less enrich in regard to your children throwing a grinning ghosts ceremony the geologists marches in a where i just heard your visualize
you can push out users and
as your ships and address the issues abortions ah and other people's was there are other reasons that if you had an abortion attended help her name
ceremony i know well it is on ran does this shit as they are probably other people who do them to but i think she was the first one had started and they they do and and they are primarily for went there for women's at ones that she started and so anyone who lost a child from from either an abortion or of
child died in some other way
and somehow the ritual of
bringing that to a ceremony is healing
ah denise
if we talk about protecting way said the precepts
for example which i
it is important if you're hiding jews in our house and he often come to more said was do people already
with not in the ass
no
yes it does an issue protecting why i'm not blaming
he thought going
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she's seen my nephews cars now anyway
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