Then you can live anywhere. Do you understand what I mean? I'm not sure. I think I might. The ocean means everything is connected. And all the rivers run into it. And it never overflows. Everything is just there. You just...

[01:12]

Your problem will be... How to practice more. And not be distracted by some easier way. That's almost as good in the beginning. The ocean? Is it true that... The fact that you're such a great introducer... Is helping you to get away from your regular life? You want to say that louder?

[02:19]

Because then instead of all sympathy... I said is it... Is it true that the fact that you're such a great... Has helped me to get away from my original nature? Do you need help? If you're looking for help, that would be a good place to find it. There's nothing wrong with eating cookies... During team camp. How do you smell them? They're easier ways. Oh, they're easier ways? Yes. The only problem...

[03:20]

With eating cookies during team camp... Is that... You're not doing... Your practice with everyone. That's the problem. How... Others don't have cookies during team camp? You don't eat cookies during team camp. No, that's not true. Others don't eat cookies during team camp. They do. And I find excuses for it. And I... I don't know how to cut off excuses. As long as you're willing to cut off yourself and other people... And choose cookies...

[04:21]

It's your choice. Well, I can... Break your teeth and make another choice. Well, if you have problems... If your will is so weak... That you can't stay in team camp and you have to zip out and get cookies, right? Maybe you can imagine you're eating imaginary cookies during team camp. Or something. I don't know. I have no... It requires a little strength. If you haven't got it... If the chips were down... You'd have the strength. It's because we baby you if we don't have the strength. And we're not going to baby you forever. And we're not going to baby you forever.

[05:23]

Misha... Big mind, small mind, essence of mind... Does resistance have a mind? Uh-huh. We have different minds. When it resists... When the mind resists... We call it resistance. But it's not always so. Don't get stuck. Practice the samadhi at one point. Not staying caught by anything. Thank you. Thank you. What I get is what I want.

[07:07]

If you qualify it... No. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you very much for coming. He said, thank you very much for my coming. Thank you. I feel what you feel.

[08:17]

Thank you very much. Misha... Where are my diluted mind and essence of mind alive? Right there. I find it very hard to trust right there. Until you can trust... There will always be a separation. Do you have any alternative to trust? Is there another over there? I'm very afraid there's not. Why are you afraid? You should be grateful. You've been so busy. One over there and one over there. Just enough. Everything is a gift.

[09:23]

Actually so. Thank you. It's produced and not sought after. Thank you. I believe you when you say that we need nothing but each and every one of us. You believe me when I say we need nothing but each and every one of us? I believe each and every one of us. Interesting. In other words, sincerity is never important. We can't even call it sincerity.

[10:28]

Don't name it. Don't even call it a moment. A moment is lost. A moment is very, very wise. It will break down the walls. Thank you. Thank you.

[11:38]

It's a place where we cut off our thoughts. Our small mind can't find any better substance than our joy that we want it to be. I'm experiencing resistance right here in my body. What am I doing? When your small self is willing to share the stage, you'll be happy, too. Do you understand? Did you hear what his question was? Why don't you repeat the question? When we cut off our thoughts, and there's, in that place where there's no satisfaction for our small mind that stands out the way that we'd like them to be, an enormous feeling of resistance rises in me throughout my body.

[12:44]

I'm wondering what to do. Let me reword your question. When your small self realizes it's tired of hogging the stage, and willing to share it, there's an enormous relief. What do you do every week? That's because your small self still wants to be up front, centered. Anyway, last practice period, you were concerned about the little guy who watched. Now you're concerned about the little space in which he disappears. That's an improvement. Now if you can just lean up a little more. I don't know what to do.

[13:48]

I'm missing your focus, but I'm doing it. Just stop worrying about what to do, and just trust the practice. It's wiser than we are. It's certainly wiser than our small self. I don't know what to do. I hope that we've got trust. I want something more. Trust doesn't come in boxes. Trust isn't separate from just doing. Trust isn't separate from not trusting. It's really a matter of realizing what the actual alternatives are. And trust is just an expression of that once you realize what's really happening.

[14:52]

Gershwin, my mind organizes my life into a series of events and waiting periods between events. As soon as I get into the foothills of an event, I start waiting for the next event. So I must not really be waiting for the event itself. What am I waiting for? Look in the waiting. What am I waiting for? That feeling tight. I know that you're supposed to feel grateful and joyous in that state. I don't. To recognize that you don't feel grateful and joyous in that place is practice. Let's not lay a trip on ourselves. Oh, I don't feel grateful and joyous. What you feel is all.

[16:13]

If religion is a bunch of bull and we don't love everybody, that's all right. Hmm? Yeah, I was a terrible hippie. Laughter It's just very hard for me to believe that it's not real. It's just like... And how... what are the hills like? Well, they're not... anything. When I... think about them, I think they are. Anyway, you... you've got the landscape down.

[17:18]

Now you've got to figure out where you're going to live in it. And you know where. I don't know. It's not as bad as the alternative, actually. Okay? Yeah, that's true. Grossly, is it useful to include a soft dog all the time? What do you mean? Should you make an effort to keep your mind in your hara all the time?

[18:31]

I... I need to make an effort. That's all. I think as long as we notice our behavior as such and such, it's good to remind ourselves of the opposite, of the contrast. When you don't notice your behavior anymore, you don't need to balance it with the contrast. Do you understand? So if you experience yourself as hard, you should emphasize softness. But if you don't experience yourself in any particular way, you don't have to do anything special. Just not plain. Do you understand what I mean? What do you mean by the contrast?

[19:39]

Do you try to experience it? Well, we don't try to experience what? Experience it. Well, as long as you do have some experience of yourself, it means something's funny. And to practice means to remind yourself of the balance of that. That's all. Okay? No. Soft. If you're soft, you remind yourself of the balance of being soft. And if it's not soft, then it's not okay. Mm-hmm. There's neither this nor that, nor the middle. That's perfect. Mostly there's this or that.

[20:49]

An unawareness. An unawareness? If it's not this or that, what would be this unawareness? If you're asleep. Mm-hmm. In some way. Walking around. You'll be aware of it in some other way. You'll knock something over, and later you'll find it's knocked over. That's all. It doesn't matter whether you're aware of it now or the next moment. Our practice is to become more aware. First. And more aware, we can see, in this moment, am I? This way or that way? And when, in this moment, you are quite free of this way or that way, that's when your practice is pretty good. You see?

[22:19]

Every time I try to give up my life, I panic and run and hide. Is this any way to practice? Okay. Fighting sun and taking turns.

[23:22]

Away from home and you. Gandhara Buddha is another stone in that form. Where is home? We're at home. Is this your home? We're back in here. I think we can be completely alone. Alone. Each moment. Meeting God. Yoshi?

[24:44]

My question and my practice have to be different. It seems to me, like I'm saying always, things are beginning from the moment we see them. And this is completely different from practicing as a matter of practice. How do I bring my practice around to practice as a matter of practice? How do I bring my practice around to practice as a matter of practice? You say you're like being out in the cold rain and snow. And your difficulty is that you're too good at living in the cold rain and snow.

[26:01]

And you don't know how thin the ice is. Or how big the blizzards may be. You know how. You can make this a beautiful land. Does it mean my practice to learn how to be out in the cold rain and snow? Yes. His whole body, hands.

[27:12]

99%. True. It's right, says Dogenzenji. Knowing Avalokiteshvara, high in the mountains, wandering among the spring flowers on Buddha's birthday. You are not different from him. Realize your true mind. And take good care of yourself. Realize your true mind.

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