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i went and anyway if you have any questions or interest this morning or other comments and are you know
whether reported you know how it's going for you

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when he has the question was whether it's a situation said it's important for it sends them to be non dualistic
oh gosh
the

this is and in a big question your question or
you know all of us in some way natural instincts and
another way you know we could describe it is and we understand you know that everyone in buddhism we understand everyone has buddha nature
a buddha nature is not something that is
i am
this is certain kind of designation for us to indicate
when your language is so difficult you know i instead to say something
but isn't as you say thing thing exists in time and space has a beginning and end very nature is not something that begins or ends in and doesn't exist in time and space
so we're always trying to know aim i understand or have some seven instead besides being a person and or with form and shape and color were else as someone who is beyond space and time
henry get in a little taste of this from time to time way
no will disappear into our activity or
and we forget to be judging or i'm doing right now better or worse to the bagger i well i'm doing and granite were when we're not busy judging in
read disappeared into our activity in that way we we have this kind of sensitive
and we're not bound by space and time and use your way
her we're not limited by
having a physical body with aches and pains
and we're and also were some money know
as a physical body in take something
and when we exist just in the one world of duality and then in know we keep trying to improve
andrew we will be caught in are often an endless kind of improvement to
and of course in the end we're going to die so
a well and then sandwich for improving and whereas as the goal of life
but
and in i to have some sense of nine to our the your
you know that we also have been in that not bound in israel not limited by our body and at any moment in time
given it and
appearance of light or dark at in joy or sorrow
ah isn't semi also unbounded or not do
and this is i said is when we disappear into the moment and we stop judging
how things are we have a tape this
and it's not exactly the idea that we just eliminate the world of duality that that we can exist in both worlds
the world of duality in the world is not a dilapidated
how so we understand that in order to have accurate kind of discrimination or accurate kind of
sense of what is really good or bad or right or wrong earth
and know how things are we have to
catch things with their awareness you know it better when we don't have some preconceived idea of what's right and wrong and bigger bag
so non-duality is us the basis for accurate i knew
judgment when we are going to be judging
otherwise and
we don't the passage on judgments when we observe the world and and
buddhism is also in are often described as to see things as they are situation changed it and set to see things as it is
i'm not sure his english was bad or if he was
making his then point
it makes a as my fence in know to see things as it is
there you have some sense of the reality and non-duality fan
but we can't see things as it is in nursery and a well we're busy with their judgments themselves and holding onto our dualistic world and dualistic reality said to observe things clearly are accurately we need to let go of that in have the basis of non-duality
you to observe them
but anyway this is
more or less a lifetime study so i hope that i haven't answered your question in that you can
and i continue to and you know look into it
or yourself
ne and using to bring up something
balin
the way that we've had to
each other
it you tried to when you're a resident here you try to recognize as a resident
and then staff and bad to them when you are when you and passing each other
so some of year i've been stopping in bowing in a as though you were a student
where you can i
please come over here and bound front of the altering and know

we did that you know when we have mailed here in the her away and you know we have this instead of eating bowls with a spoon chapstick and obviously that we have the table grass and the lab napkin in the drying clothes and we've gotta hold your kit you know so if while you're eating you know yeah
drop your chopsticks on the floor
when the whole place stops
and one of the servers comes and picks up your chopsticks and takes the murderer and thousand front of the author
and brings them back to you
this is to honor your mistake rather than just skipping over it
it's very tempting you know just right
in the cg can reach a ring
crabs and faster than before anybody can say
baker's symptoms they've kind of bounds way from the assistant

but anyway there's something to be said for are doing these things flagrantly and and
devotedly
am
so you missed the bow
and going
add
he also was it more to that today interrupting the narrative

us entries and and and flowers in
earth and sky
water stream rough
a cat
blue jays that
but practically speaking we weren't you know
the be able to quite in a manifest that
you know there's some beans embarrassing to have a thousand and arms they can do a lot of bowing and and lot of different directions to die the different features and thing
hey we're kind of limited know it so at some point if you practice down a bit you know mean the idea would be you have the spirit of bowing with that necessarily bowing to everything
i've done that practice had to take care
i am but know and also and when we when we bad to each other and for it's it's something right in the booty and neighbors to the building new are the good in nature or enlightenment and me boston right in your and divided
now do they take awareness preparing to nine do the separated and fell
of course the we want to be especially certain you know especially sure too bad to someone who forgets about
better ruin
otherwise i mean no taste the food and nature's us are there
there we wouldn't want to discriminate realistically about you know or that person's network bound to see forget about
raymond bad to her anyway
hey
here's an example is the of not do this depicted to ever you may you about
it and decide who is worth it and who isn't
yes ruth

hmm yeah
huh
an
i would guess or my
that's an idea about shame and embarrassment as you say that the rose there
and
shame is related to a kind of inherent belief and not being given know i'm not good enough
and and the rest of that is i'm not going to nephew
control other people's behaviors and reactions as well as i'd like to
i mean of course it's a rather
young kind of feeling knowing something we decide when generally play in a before language even
i haven't i'm not i'm not gonna nap it and you're making mom and dad happy or in them and they still seem to have suffering in their life
and we decide the know it's employees from my thought
and and
you know if this wasn't so you mean the fact that this is so universal
here's to say that you know it must be part of the design
it must be part of what it is the beginning rather than to say that some mistaken sorry because i had the wrong parents are in a container and it's actually useful that we've decided it's me because the people who decides the opposite of them
when they grew up the column sociopath
the
so this is actually important decision that we may now to take on it will do believe were responsible for everything
and yet he knew at some point re
and have where when
we realize at some point in your life as you said it's limiting new it's in the way
so then you can re-examined what's beneath it
what the thinking is whether they're thinking is accurate and weather
whether you know it ever would be possible to control your behavior and nap
that other people's behavior you know in other people's reactions to you were sufficiently control
that was what i was saying beginning in my top is it possible to give a talk actually where you are like man were either good you feel better about yourselves and
and i've i've done it i've done this being good enough is it ever is it actually possible permitted do that
we know to be getting definite concern i don't and i don't think so
which is where i'm when you know in order to give a talk and when they end up not been good definite sense and there's gonna be some
degree of shame or embarrassment because they have an entirely that go about that even though even though i can see that the child is fear of the world
are and that kind of possibility is fairly
so in the context of buddhism you know it becomes more like i'm going to rather than i'm going to do something reaches trying to produce these particular results in know we're going to be sincere
and and express herself
without trying to harm somebody but still expressing the we are and what we're about and we're going to be sincere we're going to be and we're going to make an offering from a rather than trying to
make a deal
what if i behave this where you're going to do that
where he's going to offer our thing and they were going to let somebody else do what they do rather than my behave might behaving this way is gonna mean that you behave that way that's more like a bargain for
the it's the kind of contention and a baby
there were sitting over in that tend to
i'm paying the weekend in a move towards
ha authenticity some authentic expression and myself
add some something that sincere authentic
and sincere nurturing fear means we can be conscious about not harming somebody or hurting somebody in our expression
you know i mean classic thing right to pay i'm angry is different than beating the person
so and i liked the idea of after a dimension of offering you know that our life becomes in our brain or even in and urethra
i rather than a kind of from bartering or a kind of commerce
there is something worth during am i going to get something back the appropriate thing back if i did it
huh apparently i think
and you know as you're finding at some point in their life we do reexamined
the things which and
and anyway to come back to his people to the idea of shame been deciding i'm not getting as are not good enough to fix everything for these other people are a sense than to control their reactions to me they're not necessarily happy they mean
and you know so many things are going on in one's parents life of course that we have not a clue about as a kid know financial setbacks and have problems in
and whatever whenever they are
and we're not going to be able to fix it and sometimes even when chris we try to fix things for them by getting sick
one theory about as her for instances it's a way to take away the pain of the opposite gender and
have you have asthma that takes that opposite gender parents mind up their pain and puts it on you
and they forget their pain to take care of yours
no answer it actually works in a way we don't set out then to limit yourself and get as or and but and it's maybe not the most effective way to take their mind up the pain but we come up with these things to do
and
but anyway the behaviors that we had to deal with shame or whatever it is at some point we noticed it's not just protecting as a remedy said and then and then that time weekend way more with this notice how we do that to protect ourselves at some point we decide i don't i've seen that
computation isn't actually work in a news for a limited me
and i would do better to express myself and hazard you know they're not liking me has it and what what they might do or say and other our let go of what they do with them
i had to do this is a to at some point you know i wanted to cook and make everybody happy at some point if the oatmeal too wet
you need to be able to curate we're working hard and if the mr dry there's people are the group comes in and says the minutes to dry in after children we should be easy page as you should just be a restaurant swallow it
and then there's people who come in and now you put raisins and then those other macrobiotics you will come in and your point in as
so at some point it's pretty clear you can't control
when what are you gonna do if you're going to curfew you do something sincerely and wholeheartedly in
you know without judging yourself and and and operated people and then they've been like it or not like it in answer to thing
ah and
so anyway
a part of that is letting go of
moving beyond are setting aside shame or part of that anyway is not showing people's reactions
no reading them have the response they haven't like something in that write something as they will
and of course it's gonna be easier to do that when we understand or realize that that's more to do with them than is clear that
are like internet like something is more about who they are than just about me and the kind of and what i went food to offer what i offered
home
ha well how we doing here where time is it oh that's that
and let's do if you would for a moment while hit the bell and we can chan ho
are you're ready

yeah
i am
i thought we could go visit for few minutes and may betray and a little earlier than we've been ending this and
times they ever longer to packer without a good cabins etc
restart the yoga class at the usual time about ten fifteen and then
i think patricia printing to end shortly after eleven thirty or that
those of you who are going on the stage at twelve i have plenty of time
and
i did want to
i say follow up i'd say a few more words about in no time after the retreat and
one of the things about the way that
when know it's partly about the way institution i present a yoga and the sand
but you know the less that you
that effort
pepperdine is actually a way to we are not feel you're dealing
not and if you're trying hard enough and you know you noticed less you perceive that
so one of the things you know that's been happening this week is recalled
when preceding more noticing more acknowledging more about what's going on their lives
no red berries love of notice a superficial level but an underlying levels of my life as well
i so
we know among other things this mean
feeling
are likely to arise
and especially now that the retreat is over during the betrayed their support of everyone in the momentum them
context to be near together with others but as to treat and then he returned to your lives
you know it's quite likely that
they will continue in nice for
a few days and sometimes longer and know some degree of
shifting going on in your life
and and then when we do week of sitting are we used to refer to the time after the sitting there sitting is called says shane when we can vacation so sometimes we had an expression you know
for after this they seen the processing lose
there's a kind of time and it's useful in to the extent that you're able to there's a kind of time after an intensive
in your workshop where retrieved like they said
it's actually useful if you can allow yourself the space and time to be a bit confused or disoriented
i know not clear not necessarily focused
rather than train in a to go back to the previous organization of previous when you have for organizing and structuring your life
have you just and try to get back to the way you used to do it and what was the point you know and you won't be able to exactly
have if you can get yourself a little time to be disoriented or not quite focused in the use your radio find you'll be able to come to some new way of organizing restructuring yourself in your life
in this morning keeping now with what is come up on the depth of your writing retreat
i saw this sometimes you know takes a few days and said to the extent that you can
allow that even if you have things to do allow yourself a bit of
are just kind of space in your life to find your way rather than knowing your way and rushing ahead
to find your way and go the more slowly and feel your way along and
your step by step and
we'll what's going on and find out how you'd like to respond to the events of your life
i'm rather than in are being
complete the adult and capable and competent for and i've got it together and i know what i'm doing and trying to arrive at some kind of immediate
a structure like that
some of us weren't going to get it out in the first place but you know
it's tempting to try to arrive there nonetheless
so in this way you'll be able to actually continued to feel your life than to
you know in a certain sense and be more in touch with your heart and let your heart
i responded things and
so anyway this kind of period
no not quite oriented are focusing you use your way is to be expected and sometimes it's accompanied by
ah sadness or grief for anger or fear
a whole range of feeling
as this is not something to be
you know worried about your you'll find new
no to

to come to a new our way of going about your life you kind of have to let go of the old race or this is we can't just go from one organization to another organization knows this kind of being not in a more amorphous state for a while and then you
we'll come up that a budget or your creature in altogether how you're going to
structure yourself for some creative thailand
we're doing this all the time but this kind of for work this week
are you know kind of speeds up the process
and i would like to us a in that regard that
in your part of what's made this week so powerful and strong is that you've all been so
i broke it in courageous that i'm entering into the depths of their lives
the way we have this week
how and i want to i wish you well
know if we're continuing our journey
so if there's something
take an earth something you know else you want to say i bring up for way
right off
yeah
huh
huh
he's you sound like you're doing quite well
and you know i i can't i'm not recalling right now you know exactly how says it
erasing is the word so if i say something i'll just make it up if you don't mind
you know somebody wrote a poem one time that was and is this a poem or did i just make it up
a a
this is you know is there an external authority or and my is it up to me here
a

anyway this morning i'm thinking about humility in regard to
we know just been willing to be with things being willing to be with things and connect with things things including the whole range of objects in shapes and sounds and forms in tasting that in thoughts and feelings
in people and
and
there's a certain humility there and winner in in as in the sense of being with things with the sort of feeling know
feeling compelled the are given to control them
being with them in some count of away where you know we're not as first a special or in the sense that wicked
know we sometimes have the idea we were special in africa tell all those things what to do or they would be especially nice to me
i think that a lot when i'm driving
get these people realize what a spiritual person i haven't
clear the road ahead of me
for the it is not in a particularly humility
so i think humility is were willing to be in traffic jams
the

who know we
and that sense and read
what kind of ten demeanor it's been like a good week here it as hers so once we find a good price we tend to want to stay there
as long as we can
so it's a kind of humility as them to go on to continue on the journey now you stop for a while some faith and then are you continue
and you want eyes and
obviously you won't always be at the top of the mountain with the wonderful views and times you will be in the valley
sometimes he'll be going downhill and sometimes up
and some cases will be dry in some places will be read
sometimes it will be harder cold
and it's more of a sense of humility just to be with things as they are like that rather than
i'll live in in the air conditioned tradespeople temperature has had
no and because i'm so wonderful you know i will just have this nice break from were like it
our humility allows us to
our random words with circumstances can be with ourselves in a variety of reasons
read
hmm
sorry i didn't get to talk about office
hmm
i have an author in our in your various office at home
it does seem to know i'd rather appreciated to offer incense and
if someone guys we offer incense and chance something
i'm and i have pictures and these people know
so it's an again in a similar navy to humility away to recognize our customer visits and used for way to recognize or one this roof
everything or that kind of potential possibility
in to remind us that
we're not just them
limited person
when you're caught up in the daily
agenda and successes and failures a bright day but also someone here in iran
solar and nature that isn't much bigger and larger than that
huh
huh
huh
you know
one thing that
i found useful for which is not in europe a particular kind of
i directed or
and a suggestion bed i do find it useful from time to time to
no acknowledge your so too are sort out what is
my deep intention oil and suzuki roshi cause you're in most requested in most ways
what is an interpersonal fact is they cause know they say sometimes your true heart's desire
so even if you and you don't feel like you can
sadly it is quite important for you to acknowledge what is your wish in your life
and that gives it a kind of power support sometimes we don't acknowledge or
our deep racial to heart's desire because we feel like it could never happen
what's the point of even or wishing for it because i'm not
a good enough to have it and i don't deserve it anyway
so it is for to acknowledge this
you know in most ways
it doesn't have to be complicated you know sometimes it's is simple read for it to be okay for me to be here
i'd like to be able to breathe easy recently
and let go of my
you know graph so it road
him and we know sometimes when written fears in know to acknowledge this helps us to settler is is the kind of anchor
or a direction arrived
which otherwise caught up in the various circumstances and conditions we don't know which rated turn or what to do
and as we go along we can actually set on more and more on our
two heights desire in most ways that of know we actually settle on it more deeply in her life is
based on that rather than just based on getting through are coping with the circumstances
and it will give us some
anyways they say either you know settling your anchor in the factor sometimes the kind of direction to go then
our kind of focus
at this way you know it's something that comes from you
and out of your own being rather than you know something that somebody else said
i will be the good thing to do where the right thing to do or something like that
and of course you know one of again another kind of
in most ways would be you know how can i manifest my inmost waves throughout my life i break to do that
huh
and so in this way in a we actually honor ourselves
and support and
ourselves
why don't we i'm for chant whoa and then making
go on about a businesses making bag lunches or what have you written
yeah

when i feel
a plane