meditation we have is
how did a good time now
how you doing are you glad it's over thank god we managed to get through that

when them go as opposed to work what's the alternative
ah
i'll pay attention to them
sometimes that's kind of the same thing
you know some that that if you don't pay any attention at orchard that's an inside to let go of them
because then they keep going like i was trying to tell you
a
did you hear me that the
hey you might have to pay attention to them first in order to wreck the within this is you know classic also in psychology and know trying to let go of something you don't acknowledge has called denial or repression
so we're at the or there's a tendency i know in meditation to practice denial or repression but it's not accept the idea
said before you say goodbye you say hi and goodbye
see it so long
the

you know it which which is the it that you referring to
sitting
i am

well i found that them a caddies europe to i know about ten years
at physically
physically it got easier you know
and
but you know i like just isn't very easy
whether you're sitting know
you know two or three of you to her have mentioned you know gina i could be used but it's really hard lazy
no even something you love or you know you can have a relationship and it's are now after twenty years it sydney hard or whatever know it's not
and
so it's not just the you know what you're doing it's it's really difficult the particular activity
ha ha
but in that sense though i think it you know obviously it makes a difference if you know you have some interest
i just kind of inclination for meditation
i'm patricia night have been living together now for fifteen years and patricia's yoga teacher native standing i like she likes yoga
and that doesn't mean it's easy for her to do yogurt or it's easy for me to sit but we somehow have an affinity for it or there's something about it that kind of resonates
who is now and then
and it's the same way again with a relationship if you're going to you know over a period of five or ten or twenty years you're going to have difficult with somebody you know
and so you may as well start with someone you like
it was someone you think they are i don't like this press environments but if i work hard you know it'll get better
bet that's a kind of a bad start in sl
you may or may not find in the long run that you have a in a an affinity for meditation or inches so i happened to have an interest in so you know i made a decision i don't care whether this is difficult to know i want to learn to meditate
i just wanted to do that
when you can also sort of lay a trip on yourself and save it would be good for you to learn to meditate go said
so used to if you have that kind of idea you don't practice for very long know
it's hard to keep up that kind of edited
and to do something by willpower by cursing yourself into it in your doesn't make some says
oh yeah he'll say over time whether it's and then but something they can then than are they set one other aspect is that there is in know sometimes it takes a little while to get familiar with something you give yourself time to get to know something a little bit before you make it a decision you don't necessarily decided that an activity or a person
near the first half hour like this like this isn't premier this is remaining maybe maybe you know pretty well but also you might bring to the end of the week before you decide to share this meditation step is
her
hmm something else
hayes

the purposes to intensify the pain
the
you think this was hard this period
i always said for about five minutes
the
okay
and
where generally you know if you sit down
you know for a period anyway you will notice something about and the way you the way you work for you are
you know whether you tend to think a lot a wet wet wet right now today your tend to obsess about her our our focus on are you know
because the way or were wearing his words m
now you could be aware of any number of things the way you were of one thing rather than another we have some tendency
and you know part of that is a kind of like so to speak comic habit may will have some habit or tendency is what we pay attention to him what we don't pay attention to him
no we notice i'm thinking or feeling or physical sensation and
and then we have some focus what i what i wanna do or what are the way i like things to be or
and so was start to notice something about how we've organized yourself when you sit down and you sit still and you're not busy doing something theoretically in our busy doing something only you might be see yourself doing something sitting to just like you doing your regular life
what is generally speaking there's a chance you you ever grow better chance to notice what it is you do do and because the basic idea buddhism is and more clearly you notice what it is you do do you can do something else
but until you realize that the way you think are the way you perceive the world is how you decided to do it
then how can you change it it just stuff it happens to you
the most of us are going through life having our life happened to us without realizing we actually organized yourself that way we were doing it that way
where noticing how people insult as rather than how people appreciate as or whatever it is you know
and so will will tend to say the things that confirm already the braves and ideas and gods we already have
so with the meditation generalised is to notice the way things are and there's way when when ways described but it's also and that sense to notice weight is you do do
and how you do it
one of the classic kind of ideas and buddhism is that you know we have as instant of experience and then we have some feeling about a pleasant or unpleasant and then there's grasping reverting we try to grasp what's present in averted turn away from my unpleasant
and so we spend a good deal of our life grasping reverting rather than having the original experience in the first place
and then once you're involved in grasping averting it's very hard to let go
but if you don't notice the way of grasp revert and things and it's very difficult to let go that's why it's difficult to recto is because we're not noticing
what we're doing
and so again the idea here is in a rather than i'm gonna do this i'm not going to do that
oh you know i can i can institute some plan on myself
it's a better when did his his to notice how we're doing things and then once we are aware more aware we actually have wearing a different kind of place in know in which actually possible for us to decide whether to go on doing things that way or not
that's the kind of freedom and liberation from the way we've always done it unconsciously
so when you sit over a longer period of time and it's much more likely that you get to
i kind of deeper level or sense of how you go about doing things now what what you tend to focus on what preoccupies your word the the emotions or feelings that are underneath kind of and are driving you are pushing it this way that so you'll have
a different kind of opportunity to confront those use the because and i was kind of joking but it's actually because of difficulty in the face of difficulty
your underlying tendency or capacity or way that you go about meeting things will pop up
and you won't always realize what your attitude or response the things is until you know it gets hard
that are you get depressed you get sad or you're angry and are you feel abandoned or betrayed
and he will act some way and it's all just you sitting know you're not doing it with anybody after why you can think it teaches or this or that and the other students or this that and
so innocent as have a lot of fun with that
and we find it kind of useful you know and
do you know as far as heavens and some insight on who we are in and what a what i have a tendency is
hey and as you find it in a year near response to things doesn't work particularly well to do what you set out to do then you can point you can do something else i said yesterday during the instruction that and you know i spend a lot of the are sitting and gritting my teeth in
no not been able to breathe and yeah eyes gets crunched up and various things and i bet that was good and you know i get somewhere by doing that so i persevered
for many years
and then when they had that why don't i just what if i get if it gets to that i'm just going to move and it would be better to have a good state of mind
then to be traumatizing myself like that continuously
so i would sit for a minute or two and then move if i got upset
and gradually i could sit for two minutes or five minutes and without getting upset this is in the middle of a like a week of intensive sitting you know
i answer that's an example of noticing you know how is doing things which is i've make it different know if it gets difficult
and then i'll just grit my teeth and persevere and that's the way to do it and be stubborn and
and i decided to do it some other way once i realized that that's what i was doing
and then i figured out i didn't need to do that
i had some choice
have love more choice than we you know generating knowledge in our lot
can
what if you're really interested you know in the is in longer periods of sitting go for it
huh
and it doesn't have to be this incident you know that the positive people are really sweet and polite and not nothing going of the boston is but by yosemite there in southport but you know the the process that at spirit rock and they have sit in all over and you know here if you're aware of our intensive so i said if you're not here you don't ship will come looking for you but they can give you a lot of
lag and know and if you if it's hard to sit on the cushion how will sit in a chair and if the shares difficult in a week and library across the how with these big plush easy chairs try one of those and if that is where were we and we have these little meditation rooms and set it up however you like you know individual room for you know
take care of you know
so so they're much more easygoing the northern us and we're kind of severe this and people
well that was the bell for breakfast so
more effective than than
when the person that is you know a lot of people sit cross legged request a good posture is you know i didn't know exactly if you know
in a to say more effective with we'd have to decide more effective to what
right yeah the but you know the ideas that
it in overpass it doesn't emphasize posture similar so again that's the difference of tradition
the ideas that energetically in a you have more energetic and an openness and you're aiming to have your body instead of been slumped in some way you're aiming day of your body open but you see this is different ways to practice
because you can't just sort of insist like i'm going to be open if you're insisting you're gonna be opened and you know that's not been opened
so at some point in the you know what's effective is to notice what it is you are doing so if you're slump it's effective to notice i'm slumped into feel like what it feels like to be islam
and then at some point you may say like jay
we may just feel like a caution since you're relieved to sit up with the
you know and then and then when you notice your there and at some point you might try different positions in know what were you feel good when he's where's your energy where's your vitality where's a good balance of
you know being calm and settled and being energized and you know what's the balance between being focused and been over the intense and and irritable so we're studying all of these things
and some people focus more on you know one particular way of doing it or not your system then people are focusing little more past year and to pass them focus in a little more what's called mindfulness backers and particular form of noting what the the object of awareness
so
as far as effective parlayed that has to do with who you are and then we know what works for you
and what's your interest is in and i i've always been whether physically oriented so i just this was i like this
and other people are in know differently oriented and says something else is more interesting my daughter's doing a lot of aikido right now
no she she likes the the physicality of that and the inner the the energy editing changes people and and interacting like that and you new tossing been costume
so what's effective is what works
okay thank you
let's take a minute to get up and flair for cushions and bow and then when we're already will
oh
and i think it's wednesday
so
he's the by wednesday during these retreats you know it's
it's a little bit uphill until wednesday and then starts to be done and just like a regular week you know how say
anyway if you have any questions or comments or inches this morning or something you'd like to share with the rest of us a welcome to do so

how are you and are you doing with the week ago
everything
ha

yeah that's interesting isn't it that's fifteen minutes when you don't have to do something
we don't have something to do here that's what meditation is intended to be no not doing
read so we can just sit here and that much
but here's new anyway we'll get we'll find something to do

britain
yeah you say
yeah yeah not doing can be much harder than doing
that's where we have terms they have you know workaholic and things
okay
maybe i'm a know if you if you want i can give you something to do in that man
politically
i will make it easier follow your breath
the
each instant of the inhale and exhale
okay
oh
oh
helping us something else this rain
huh

i as far as places that are you know my sacred i only know i know that you know some cases and more sacred because of the way that people the way in the things that people do there
so that kind of sacred i can understand
i hear at as a hurry nowadays many people year round who actually care about hazara and take care of things here
ah you know and pick up after themselves and are concerned about the environment and then you know it feels
that's sacred finding
and then they're the kind of sacred places you know a drag we've been joking services wig about sedona and what is it about sit down eds jan the vortex or something or other special price anywhere i don't know about that sort of thing it's strike in i can't tell you
about this kind of places
we have more the idea in sand that
you know wherever you are is sacred when you arrived there
when you show up then in our sacred shows up with you
when you are wandering around her in a not really present where you are not not seen smelling tasting teaching nut sense in being alive where you are then you know it's not sacred
selling then we have know write stories of as a story of
two monks who were walking along and where them steps and said this is the summit a domestic beak
it just is not any place in particular
i'm the other one said yes indeed isn't it a pity
i think that as you know dries and humor
isn't a pity that this is as good as it gets infected
but if you're busy seen in this isn't that grade than it's not sacred and if you're when you're actually appreciating where you are then it's the summer domestically
and they say that even at the center is a nice they pick you might think this summit of domestic pig is a pristine beautiful place but they say actually the weights there are six foot tall
some of them are twelve and you can actually get lost in the weeds at the seminal domestic pig
but many people than lose their heads trying to get to send more special grace with probably have
hmm
so anyway and then we have this kind of idea you know about sacred places

in other traditions and you know like if you read don juan carlos castaneda know they knew you can sit out to find your
power spot various things like that
i don't have a problem with that either
you want to practice like that
you can go on the zendo here and see which seat is the one for you
professor
the sacred said
try them all out
assistant professor

huh
huh
huh
huh
huh
huh
huh
how i want to have droughts enchanting with you
ah
i like a very simple jan jan and or that is very easy to learn the words because there's only one word
and it's the word whoa h o in japanese how is the word for
our dharma or good is teaching or reality
and and the way we chant this is i hit the bell and then which is all chant hall and then when you run out of breath you inhale and start up again and you chant you know we say a chat with your ears so you listen to the sound
let the sound or vibrate through you resonate through your body
and make the sound enter into the sound with your voice
this is the kind of chant and that you can enter at whatever page your tone
you feel comfortable
the joins with others
often times when a group chance together like this there will be in a very stones and and harmonics in various things so you let it out as and rush to you
and then after a minute or two i will hit the bell and then you can finish the better on the sound will gradually die out
okay

hello are you doing today
pacific
as several people i saw this man they said
i was speaking of initiative those blue jays if she got some for initiative
they keep figuring out new tricks specific bit
the pan and you if you have any questions or comments inches and checking around and meditation
we welcome to
are being for fourth up

i am

yeah
well as they say and then that's your mind
something there has been testing and edinburgh
ah

ah

and it's it's an interesting point
classically embarrassing and you know they've been meditations are mean it is one of the bit most basic meditation practices to follow the bread and so classically it's a the value for the that the nostrils or the father
as in the abdomen
in the zen tradition seems to emphasize more following the breath in the abdomen
noticing the sensations of the abdomen rising and falling
ha and you know the as a term and japanese called horror which is for the area couple inches below the abdomen said parent you too
focus on
are there at some point they become something of a problem when people say to focus on something because then we start to ignore everything else
they were actually in her to focus on something without ignoring everything else
and this is similar to if you're working and you so if you focus on it with and ignoring everything else in someone so when someone says a lower wants to as your question different champ
ah and you're you're interrupted so the idea of concentration
ah insane practice is to focus on something with everything
how something like that now it's a little hard to say
and
but we're not trying to a screwed everything else and we stay focused on the abdomen so
because anyway again if you focus on the abdomen sometimes than people soldiers are completely safe
and what's the point
you've succeeded at following instructions but you're making yourself stiffer and that wasn't the idea of the instructions in the first place
i went i read an article on an interview with reggie jackson and know is quite a bit baseball player
and i used to be known as mr october because it did so well in the playoffs in the world series
oh some other great players don't do so well
in the playoffs or world series
reggie jackson was a bit of a and the kind of a show off or something like that people kind of said he referred to him as the straw that stirs the drink or something like that
but anyway he was quite a good base for prayer and he said something drenched in because if you talk to
you don't see this or thing they often but oftentimes if you ask a baseball player when the pitch comes when you focus on and they say well i concentrate just on the ball and i tried to shut everything out of my awareness
and just focusing on the baseball
reggie jackson said i'd concentrate on everything
and now i want to include that you know and maybe that's why he did so well in october because they're these huge crowds and he said i don't try to exclude anything i want doing you know it's like waving at all into your concentration
so instead of trying to establish a little area of concentration and then keep that other stuff out it's like have everything come in and be part of one's being and then organize that are focus that on something
this is the idea of knowing sand
it's considered that when you set up a concentration that excludes or pushes things out and you've set up a little concentration and something in in know then you have this boundary and you have to try to keep that together and it's inherently very fragile because how do you do that and keep seventh others
step out and then keep your little focusing
and that kind of boundary situation is are so many difficulties because you know you have a fear that something's going to get in you trying to keep out and when it does you get angry and you have a stress to kind of keep up here
a little area of focus
so you give yourself extra stress and anxiety how am i going to keep up this
my barrier my focus and excluding these other things
i say you have anxiety and fear and anger and you have an no disappointment when something gets in
if you can't keep it up you may feel helpless
so it's a different kind of idea of having com or stability by including everything
right in the long run certainly it's more you have greater capacity
in your life and you have greater com because you're not busy in are trying to keep he bowed everything else besides what you decided to focus on
but then again you know this doesn't mean to be scattered so and of this is a kind of this is why know something like this is called practice practice practicing on how to be concentrated rigours you know that a without it being too narrow and without it has been scattered if it's just scattered it's not concentrate
so it's an it's an interesting kind of study
that makes sense
huh
haha
yeah there wasn't any image with it

dennis chapman she says welcome to the party
a
it's probably some part of you you know tucked away for quite a while now
and this is one of the things that happens in meditation as you
as you settle the soup the surface level of you know year which normally busy and active and doing this or that and taking care of things and is that citizen comes down than other parts of it did
you know kind have been tucked away or you know on hold now attended that a bubble up at times
come into your awareness because your awareness isn't preoccupied with an overlay focused on same activity and getting it done
as so there's a certain amount of know there's kind of them
so it's kind of nice actually know it said
and we're developing new meditation is a way to be with think so
you we're studying how to be with something whether it's like that a kind of sadness or or tears or are you know one's anger rage
and we're in meditation the kind of the context is to touch it with your awareness touch with your breath
and to be with something rather than deciding ahead of time
i'm i'm not giving into my feelings i'm gonna be an adult or i'm you know i understand how to beat you know
and i'm not gonna have a can do with that and you know that kind of it's used for the be able to do that obviously know when you have something to do in and you know if you go into surgery don't want your surgeon
you know in the middle of the surgery in a breaking into tears you want him to like a professional
and to the word that you know you iron ore
but certainly in their lives in know we wanted we want to have some in part of the idea than the meditation dollars in some safe place to just be with yourself and be with what comes up i know various parts of you that you know when remove ignore it or you know
i threatened by or you know it was gonna make it difficult to get things done or whatever so here we don't have to get anything done and now it's a fairly safe place them to actually notice or fail what what's beneath the surface
a

ah
yeah
yeah
he found out that martha speaks italian notice is a portuguese that she's features spanish colombian yeah
ah
so she speaks italian israel is spanish
ah
a lecture at is where the within it was in the day and rumor
yeah he he's worked at the dining room sometimes is so maybe not right now
yeah
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yes

historic car so should turn this
huh
the chanting i would like to encourage you to be more robust know
so
it's it's change him with more of your body and mind set is big so rather than you can just chat with your head and that's something like whoa yeah
oh
and then if you put your stomach into it your abdomen your horror your string you're more your body knowing you go
well
we practice this you know in the fall and spring we have this dream and practice great so there's a group of people who made the channing and they hit the bells and the little drown hearing and then you go out into the woods and you'd said you can knock over the trees with your voice and things
and you get what the stream is rushing and new safety can chant loud enough you can still hear it over the stream and various things so anyway to the extent that you're willing
sometimes i encourage people you know by explaining that how is not just the japanese word for diamond but it's one of the three syllables at santa claus repeats

and it's also in some native american if american languages it's no peace be with your chow shalom
oh anyway the ideas that you can do you know you don't have to just make is the the energy
anyway at some point you know kind of smooths out but initially if you focus on energy and then that the sand take care of itself and was yesterday anyway when i was when i would stop to inhale i could hardly hear the rest of you
and as a bunch of you out there i now on the island
so if you're willing anyway
wrote for little more energy into where's that the naka here with them
well
from it was provided
prison
what's going on
sorry your some of you are living today
i am
we'll meet their as as we have been at ten thirty and then
i guess it these jane and saying you're leaving at eleven
so we mean rear
virginia are you know otherwise i would plan to make roughly ten thirty to twelve and to said it bears people

huh
so if you have any m or questions or interest this running iraq him to remote yes

yeah
i'm also using you know the language of the week and he would want to be able to
a taster sense which kind of thinking is which which kind of experiences where it so by tasting salty and sour and sweet and and so mood after while he will become familiar with various kinds of thinking and be able to know which is rich
and this is what you're finding out so
oh and there's not any particular supposed to n
you know you do have choice and we're actually in the main thing here is than to be aware and conscious oh i'm going down his reverie and me see what happens when i go down reveries of this particular it
and in are so if you're if you're finding out the thing is to be finding out getting information as opposed to how it's first to in which is going to be doing out to be so you'll find out when i go down this kind of reverie it's a dead end i can a reverie it's exit or something
there
and this way you give yourself a lot of permission to know you know the protests and richness of your being of your mind
and you know the fullness emissions of responsibilities it derive
otherwise you'll be before you even know which is which you'll be limiting yourself
in this sense you know we give ourselves and permission to
am
you know how to fiasco pronoun and
and we can always be sure which is which
many people have that kind of experience of being stuck with problems and difficulties in its when they go for a worker another some kind of absent mindedness where the answer comes
there were not sure exactly which is richard
and finally of course at some point classic the or traditions in your teachers birth to help you with those kind of things
so you know that was the security you can be sitting and then if you're in a particular kind of reverie in you get him
a one time said to me
and use you're pretty away from in a about a half hour of the period than you conk out a new policy
i'd be sitting and send some to
the you you should sit up right near me so i can get up and hit you
i felt honored and know that he would notice this in new make such you regret
you know because if it's somebody that
you know it can't be helped
he just like disability
a pen
and i had a kind of experience i get recently of
working with someone in
and i had a lot of food things and she said that was good and out in what was that she'd seen as to whether raisins gotten mixed better in with the down there
and then other attempts she say come back
that they're like don't go there sir centers if you're working with somebody or you know sometimes the world brings you back in various ways
but we're we're finding out which is which annual you know you'll know better after a while
i'm from your experience in your own taste and enriches which are not is that
yes
huh

huh
hmm
forget it
again it's all part of in the feast
whenever apathy
yeah
you know the thing is we say an inner as image of the day just don't stick to anything that may be okay but you know next week if you're still doing it maybe it's a problem
at at at
you know anyway or six months from now and this is what the way i'm in a meditator this is what i'm going into this is the things i think about and or interview
and because anyway then in a wendy's because our life than just changing moving in room will notice different things in
because we're aware of things in a weekend as you're aware like of the tastes of the food you know we make different choices about what to put in the ditch and how to do it and and part of that is we also learned to appreciate all the ingredients one
i'm and a wonderful flavor and taste of things and as they appeared
and and their appearances not necessarily work with that they would be yesterday we that there would be nectarines and there was a precursor
so if you stick to something like where are the apricot you will have a hard time
i mean where are the nectarines
i have to have them
yes

ha
don't go there
the
i i forget what i said the other day but roughly speaking you know of here
when our eyes are open for the most part we tend to get more into survival mode
more into noticing and through our eyes seen what might be attractive
chase after that and what might be dangerous avoid that
and you know this is something as human beings over many centuries or whatever in a with
the way we were organized for the most part
i'm so a meditation were trying to shift down of and know their i don't know about trying but in a in meditation we will be shipped in out of this kind of survival mode
and it may be in a dead delight joys your eyes because it's in a right and they're so you're attracted to it
and and the ideas looking downward to shipped out of that mode now most schools meditation exist suggest you close your eyes
which if you close your eyes than year you you can much more shift out in the mode of what's out there that i'm attracted to and did i'm in no need to avoid a run from
so when you close your eyes you go more inward and you're not so worried about that
and your awareness then then with your awareness you can notice what's there when you're not involved in that survival mode
so that's all well and good but as soon as you open your eyes than there it is again fix it
so in the long run
in over studying how to have her eyes open and not have been drawn this way are attracted to bad or don't want to look at that in own just have our eyes meet what's there
and be with things and not an not be like
john are fixated on this and then no avoiding that and
so our eyes are set up that way and were part of the point of meditation is shifting out of
that survivor mode not again not that the survival mode is not use for we should be able to shift into it you know when it's appropriate the problem is
yeah mostly we shift into survival mode for very slight and minor reasons that have nothing to do with survival
and then where were doing an acting in responding or reacting and as though our survival was at stake
when all it was as you know there aren't any nectarines and i'm going like you in their turns ah
like as though it was survival so this is but this is kind of challenge for us and then so you can experiment anyway and close your eyes and you know if you find that your eyes are going off someplace within close your eyes and just being with a little bit and see you then again
and then at some point said you can open your eyes and just have your eyes not particularly looking at anything are looking for something or looking out for something
just be present in your just gazing downwards so this is the kind of idea of what's involved with that said they said
hey i usually
i know about you i use the power but then i forget sometimes too
yeah the custom wood be come in the door closed to do about good you said
but the back door anyway we forget sometimes
yeah
it worked out alright
raylan

i'm more or less in the course of things
side to side movement of the head or you mean rotating
a rotating of the head is associated with emotions
so
probably it's and what's most likely is your son
and then if you in adobe certain places as you turn your head from side to side whether or not it's where it it's kind of like stuck
and years the
so if your head is just in the middle than there may be some feeling
you know that if you move your head one where know that you would feel something that you know at this point and you may not be ready to feel
or it may be you know it may be painful or it may be scary or
oh you know it any number of thing so
that's and then on the other hand you know if you're just moving your head you know any of us can generally we can move her head and looked to the rider mover had to let but if you do it will slowly is more information when you do it really friendly and and notice like this little bumps
so where there's little bumps and depending on the subtlety of your movement when his little bump there's actually some material or information there some feeling her memory or story
ah you know and if you spend some time there it doesn't necessarily
you know he doesn't necessarily get a whole picture but
and get a little feeling of something and then when you bring your head back to the middle and know that you'll move past that replace and it also works no coming back we have been different little bumps as you move your head back to the middle
i'm so certainly we all have times in your life when were more or less
i'm i'm focused in a certain way and we may not want to
am
so anyway this is my this is what you know the first thing that occurs to me has been possible possibility that there's something
also in the work i've been studying more recently
ah you know to look to the right to the right side of their body is organized a relationship to mail and the left side everybody's organized relationship to female
this is true both for men in for women and this is not that half of us mail and half of us female it's organizing relationship too
so in other words when you turn your head to the right you're one of the things you're doing is impressively hearing you're turning towards female or you're turning away from mail
you know you can be turning away or you can be turning toward
and use a male and female for most of us a lot of that is when you change to the right you're turning towards mother away from father when you turned to laugh you're turning towards farther away from mother
and our bodies know this without our having to know it
so you may be at a particular point like i'm not i'm not you know i'm just going to be here
and if you're just here you may be
am i don't know so you know any number of things are possible
and over time you know something was shaped you'll notice your known as if you'll notice various things after subsequent in noticing on my head is
seems to be stuck here
you know other bits and pieces of information or coming in your head will have movement again
there be some feeling welcome
side bending is associated with an body

and that's a little bit that's a different kind of control

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ah

oh that's is the middle of a whole long story
it was quite a well known knowns antigen one point he just went off to live with the homeless people of shepherdsville
does he wasn't big on taking over responsibility
he also with frequent brothels and then
fell in love with across prostitute so there you have it
now he didn't it excluded things from his practice
pepper
and he tended to say in a y'all are missing out this this is where enlightenment really is that
at
ah
yeah it's a week at a refill
i'm just going an
hoot you week you with investing in eq
and finally when you knew they were looking for a new habit for the temple and he was the next person in line they didn't know where to find him he wasn't at any address he was living in greece
was out under this bridge with around homeless
so they knew he liked to certain kind of mellon
and so in melon season they got some but if they got a monk you know but to dress up as a as a merchant a farmer and to push this kind of melons around
so sure enough you saw this kind of melons and he goes there is there's that really good
and then the person suspected it was easier because of the in the brightness of his eyes and his passion
and he said you can have one if you can take it with no hands
the
and he said i'll take it with no hands if you give it to me with no hands
and then he said in a right this way buddy
we have a job for you
i love this sleeping under the bridge step
that
with
he was out
right out
isn't he was quite a and you know how to know what you gotta you know that certain way the hand pick car
quite idiosyncratic you know
some little village someplace that made a jesus shrine and at a statue the statue of jesus the date commissioned an artist today and the internet
for them for this little village spend a lot of money to have the statue down by rightist and day
so then they that they will get this well-known increased a to come in dedicated
and they were chanting everything and then after while eq came over and paid on the statue
and they were all outraged and he said it could have gotten anybody to do this and got me i'm doing it my way

how well
ah
here's the kind of people like a like this kind of people you know
i mean
huh
huh

well then have it folks
it's time for breakfast pastime and
let's do it how here