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Day 1

 

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your morning
well welcome to say

so ah
we've been trying to and to to decide exactly when security is more oil will be
ah celebrated and it turns out it is tonight
i will go into any explanations of why this is but it's
come from one day to another back and forth but i want to remind everyone
and tonight you have this particular she annual memorial
and so each of you kid can be prepared you don't have to we will offer incense no flowers to bed will offer flowers and if you like you can say address
suzuki roshi suzuki roshi
or just bow
are
something so it's not necessary to think up something to say but if you really would like decision for you may
and
so it's very nice ceremony and
so because
ceremony is tonight i want to i can dedicate my talk to a
reading something or suzuki roshi with my commentary

so in then mind beginner's mind
i'm kinda in the beginning of this book
the is but together
he talks about posture and breathing and a very fundamental activities that were doing during jersey
and ah
each one of them is really quite wonderful and every time although i notice where he say without reading the book every time i read ah
one of these festivals
i am reminded of something or learn something
so at times
and it's actually
great stuff to ponder during the sheen
so this one is called mind waves which you know about
right you have them
so she's when you are practicing exam do not try to stop you're thinking
let us step by itself
yes since as and will not try to stop are thinking even though we know this we sometimes think
we try to stop i thinking
what we do is
when we realize that weird
ah mind is wandering
we just come back to pasture reading
it's that simple
but we do not try to stop i thinking
and it's doubtful whether stopped by itself
but that that's ideal idealistic we had stopped by itself but i'm thinking just keeps going on and hopefully it would start by yourself that's nice so something can send your mind just let it come in and let it go out
that's it
i'm
it will not stay very long although sometimes we have a loop
the loop to keep going around the song that keeps redirecting
if we're obsessed by something
but is ideally the but he's talking about the mind calming down
when you try to stop you're thinking it means that you're bothered by it
you want and i think that a remember him saying
jet a was a turning point for me
once
don't be bothered by anything
just don't be bothered by anything
ah
and i have kept it as a clue i guess you'd call it
not to be bothered by allergic that to be bothered by
my thoughts are the thoughts that are in my mind
and that to be bothered by feelings or emotions or pain
just not to be bothered by it
and and it's a big it's a tall order because when we have intrusions we don't like intrusions
pain is an intrusion thoughts or an intrusion can be an intrusion
a pain especially is an intrusion because our whole life is dedicated for most people to be uncomfortable
and to avoid pain
so how do you do that
so when used tried to stop you're thinking it means that you're bothered by it do not be but bothered by anything
it appears as if something comes from outside of our mind
but actually it is only the waves of your mind
and if you are not bothered by the waves gradually they will become calmer and com her
in five or at most ten minutes i don't know that you you might have be completely serene and calm
i promise
at that time you're breathing will become quite slow while your pulse of become a little faster that's interesting
i never heard that before
am
so it will take quite a long time before your mind before your com here it will take quite a long time before you find your calm mind calm serene mind in your practice
doesn't come true because
it takes a long time before we can stop being bothered by stuff by the the waves in her mind
we say ride the waves
don't let yourself get inundated by the waves you have to be a good swimmer
so we're actually swimming
in
in big mind
so just the waves are simply too
expression of our big mind
so it will take quite a long time before you find your com for reminding your practice many sensations come many thoughts or images arise but they are just waves of your own mind nothing comes from outside your mind that that's interest
a statement
usually we think of her mind as receiving impressions and experiences from outside but that is not a true understanding of my mind the true understanding is that the mind includes everything so when he touched about mind is talking about big mind he's not talking about
her small mind and he don't talk about us my mind but when he says or might include everything he's talking about big mind
so when we sit doesn't we sit doesn't in the midst of big mind and everything that and the mind is expressing itself according to our ah
it to our way of thinking
big mine
ah
yeah
smaller individual small bond is an expression of the waves waves are expressions of our small mind which is important otherwise we wouldn't be able to operate but big mind is the essence of mind and but he's talking about
so he says
the true understanding is that a mind includes everything big mind when you think something comes from outside means that something appears in your mind
nothing outside yourself can cause any trouble
you yourself makes a waves in your mind if you leave your mind as it is it will become come to the this mind is called big mind
so all of our thinking according to this understanding is waves of our mine mind wave the expression a big mind as it meets circumstances

and because we depend so much on
our made waves we don't recognize that mind waves is simply an expression of our universal mind
our essence of mine so
the model is that the
put a nature
dom okay here is are essential
essence of mind
oh and doesn't is to settle ourselves a big mind and so will we set ourselves a big mind
the residual
the activity of a small mind is always active
so this is residual mind
the residual activity of her mind small mind
our individual mind
i'm so indulge in we just settle ourselves at the center of the universe actually
alice is the cosmic mind
to mind it is at one with the cosmos
ah

so the residual activity of mine is still going on all the time like bubbles coming up like a fish tank
going to watch the fish tank and you watch the bubbles coming up with the water in the tank is is quite serene
it doesn't move around much that's that's like big mine and the bubbles and the oxygen bubbles that for the allow the fish to breathe
so if your mind is related to something outside of yourself that bind a small line from small mind is the mind that relates because it's dualistic were big mind is singular
but big mine
splits itself off in order to ah
act in in the dualistic world
splits itself of means it allows it response to circumstances in a dualistic way
so we say non dualistic
and and duality it doesn't non-duality duality doesn't
obviate duality it includes duality within itself
so i'm it's a big miners most mine is the same thing
but
they're different functions
the function a big mind is a small mind but that's how big mind expresses itself

so if your mind is related to something outside of itself that mind is small mind and limited mind because duality is always limited if your mind is not related to anything else
that there is no dualistic understanding in the activity of your mind
you understand activity is just the waves of your mind big bad experiences everything within itself
do you understand the difference between the two minds the mind which includes everything and the mind which is related to something
actually they're the same thing but the understanding is different and your attitude towards your life will be different according to which understand it you have
that everything is included within your mind is the essence of mind to experience this is to have religious feeling
even though waves arise the essence of your mind is pure
it is just like water clearwater with a few waves
as waves waves are the practice of the water
to speak of a waves apart from water or water apart from waves his delusion water and waves are one big mind and small mind i won when you understand your mind in this way you have some security in your feeling as your mind does not expect a
anything from outside it is always filled or fulfill their with the a mind with waves in it is not a disturbed mind but actually an amplified one whatever your experiences whatever you experience is an expression of big mind
so
when he says pure pure meds for him
non-duality pure mind is door
know it a platform such as the sixth and sister why no talks about
people who are bound by purity
not real and but they're bound by purity and a dualistic way rather than a i learn dualistic way they separate purity from impurity
but and misunderstanding purity means non-duality
doesn't mean pure as the opposite of impure because both pure and impure are expressions of big mind
big mind includes everything not just something but everything
and it doesn't make judgements or
a separation because
big mind has no opposite
that's a big man that's the that's it
a big mind has no opposite when you sit ins or then
and you experience pain
what we do usually a usual reaction is to not like it not want it and try to get rid of it
which is the cause of suffering may cause of suffering trying to get rid of it
when you become one with it that's big mind there's no opposite where there's no opposite to the feeling you have you know when you don't create an opposition then ah
you are bad any big mind
without any opposition and therefore you're comfortable
what makes us uncomfortable is our opposition

so
the expression or the solution is malleability
to be malleable to go with something resident oppose it
this lots of it a secret of a key dough
to go with
two when you when you have a face it your opponent to not go in our position but to go with the opponent and so the at the opponents own
a energy is helping you to ah
ah not be conquered by the opponent

so that everything is included in your and where am i
so do you understand the difference between the two minds than mine which includes everything which is essence of mind and the mind which is related to something which is dualistic mind actually they're the same thing but the understanding is different and your editor
you turn your life will be different according to which understanding you have
that everything is included within your mind is the essence of mind to experience this is to have religious feeling even though waves arise the essence of your mind is pure it's just that
just like clearwater with a few waves actually water always as waves and waves in the practice of the water to speak of waves apart from water or water apart from waves his delusion water and waves are one big mine and small mind i one when you understand your mind
in this way you have some security in you're feeling as your mind as not expect anything from outside it is always filled and mind with waves in it is not a disturbed mind necessarily but actually an amplified one so whatever you experience is an expression of big mind
the activity a big mind is to amplify itself through various experiences in one sense our experience in this come coming one by one are always fresh and new
but in another sense they are nothing but it continued continuous are repeated unfolding of the one big mind for instance if you have something good for breakfast you'll say this is good
good is it is supplied as something experienced some time long ago even though you may not remember ruin this if i think what he's saying here is that
ah we have preconceptions and i might as always prepared through preconceptions and so it's hard to experience something
no
it's really hard to experience something pure and new because well it we are because i my voice expressing something that we learned
so to express something clean and new is something before we learned
site
this moment it's just this moment with no pastor or or future
just to actually experience the essence of his moment the essential of this moment is to let go of preconceptions
tellico knowing
so agree based you know what we say it was a nice breakfast was good compared to a breakfast is not so good
the north not only to say that if if we don't compare to something that's a good so this is a dualistic world where always comparing one thing with another
the oneness of essence of mind is every experience is totally new and would just what it is
so that's our doesn't to experience every moment we live one moment at a time
total at life experience on each moment
without any preconceptions or or relating to another experience
it's just all one went out our positions or a position
so with big mind we accept each of our experiences as if recognizing the face we see in a mirror as our own
i think what he threw to here is
doesn't five ranks where it
one of the ranks tugs about
at palm of dote on which
the
the old woman of the old man looks the merit doesn't does not see the original face because are looking at the back of the mirror and of the front
hmm so for us there is no fear of losing his mind because you can't lose it is simply you can't lose is something you can't gain and something you can't lose
this is the original face
when we say show me your original face this is it
it's like looking in the mirror
and singing the reflection without reflecting
soon as you reflect than it's no longer a pure experience
what what isn't pure experiences when you're walking down the street and you see somebody's
some am
ah reflection in a store window
and she
you don't look familiar are you don't even say anything you just see years of exactly as you are but when you look in a mirror purposely you have a preconceived image of yourself
a toilet same today as yesterday
really hard to look in the mirror and to see yourself as you are sometimes a photograph you can see to and going out i thought i would like this
so for us there is no fear of losing his mind there is nowhere to come to or go there is no fear of death no suffering from old age sickness because we enjoy all aspects of our life as an unfold
adding a big mind
we don't have to pick and choose what we like or dislike
ah
every experience
it's just this experience
it's a big mind and my way when we're shitting is that in
just with big mind
it's quite wonderful
whatever is going on sometimes it's painful sometimes it's not painful sometimes it's a blissful sometimes it's kind of a
you wonder if you wonder what you're doing and then the always made waves going on and you think i only had one moment of bliss
but something much deeper
then our experience actually deeper the next x momentary experience
so because we
enjoy all aspects of her life as an unfolding a big mind we do not care for any excessive joy
so we have imperturbable composure which is called samadhi
somebody is a imperturbable
composure
that when you have this connection well as a connection because collection means is a dualistic
this immersion or you're living it in big mind whatever happens
it's just what happens so this is called with the mind of wisdom
somebody
there are many somalis
but ah
don't get it cause the king of somebody's is actually the image matters but the king of somebody called gg user by which you heard up
if somebody ah
i am
ah
soap joyous samadhi is called josh ago
a self-fulfilling samadhi
self-fulfilling means
true fulfillment is being one with big mind

so and it isn't with his imperturbable composure a big mind that we bet to thousand

you have any questions
dean
hi

yeah

who say okay
i was
yes
yes you you it is not that you gain and lose it but you covered in uncover it
you know you got it is just the uncover it or cover it so we call it nine coverings ah
ah and you to talk says my coverage but sometimes it doesn't sometimes excessive and deliberate way but a m
ah
we either put a lid on it
so when we sit in zazen we should take off the lid let go let go the you know mine coverage and just let ourselves be free of mental ah
a struggle
and just experience enjoy big mind
a true mind
i'm suzie q version because resuming big mind resuming our true big mind
so are we have you know you can do this samadhi is both
ah
the summary of sitting still and the somebody moving around
so they're not too different things but they to somebody of moving around includes the dualistic mind
but the summary of sitting still is a more like more pure jazz and in a sense because it's that there's no duality in it
but you can lose it is that you lose it is that you obscure it
because it's a natural state is not like some special thing
it's just a natural fit
ah but we
ah because we have because
we need to
a supporter itself we need to find a way to live in this world with other people and and then we gradually created an ego
a a m
composition herself
we've put together for certain things put together various elements to create a self self identity and more we create the self identity putting things together in our basket
the further we get away the more be obscure or somebody
show how to course in the world without obscuring
the a natural state which is mahdi
ah
oh and we at some point we realized this is the problem
and then we'd look for hung to solve problem religion or science or whatever there are three various disciplines for doing that but they're not all based on big mind
so where we find our a dharma dharma big mind that very nice

ah yes yeah

take it will we hope so
ma guess is
you know i am

i think if we
i'll pay attention to the elements and the details of a ceremony
but
if we paid too much attention
well level to make a mistake
and then we fall into oh my god i made a mistake
and then you know my go
but if we can ah
i have some ease and malleability will we do a ceremony
and we make a mistake it's okay
it's okay to make a mistake
you know if we had have some light heartedness about it than is some that lightheartedness carries our somebody
but a rigidity covers it
so one of the problems with having ceremonies is that we want everything to be so perfect that we it covers are samadhi because we're we're looking for perfection rather than opening up
so i think when we do ceremonies we should do it in it
respectful
i'm serious way
with lightheartedness
so that we don't worry about made making a mistake and a mistake mistakes are it really important
it's really important because they take the edge off of perfection
with a which actually makes the thing perfect

yeah
that's the main thing is when it's ten wholeheartedly that's as carries the summer
the all heartedness is what does it
whatever you do hope whatever your whole heart and wholehearted means
oneness it if half-hearted men's division
when his division this not samadhi when the unity that somebody
it takes attention and and a
energy and all those wonderful characteristics
yes they're all they're together in harmony so harmony
ah is a kind of samadhi the summary of her a total harmony
there are many many somalis you know the whole book of different kinds of of somebody's
did you use a my
the summary of really light and to boy

it

well it means fear
if we are hang on december him his fear
so we don't know it
assign fear to r
stubbornness
but ah
when we look at the what it is that keeps us from
just letting go and trusting our big mind it it's usually attributed attributable to fear
so how to let go of fears may be more your question
underlying your question
but what would happen if i was let go what would happen if i didn't have to hang out of this thing because we have
ah we think we're being driven by various forces but actually we're driving various voices
so you know everything that is something from outside that's coming in and as which is not true but the way we
i'm ah adjust to those circumstances within ourselves is
ah what
oh
drives our life
so the elder their lowest circumstances outside her impinging on an earth or whatever and are supporting our life but how we respond to those things is is how we practice
because everybody is born into some particular circumstances like are not like rich or poor you know good circumstances
a difficult circumstances but the way we respond to those circumstances is what creates or life
so we don't say it's the outside
so-called outside circumstances it's the inside circumstance the the way we accept or deal with
the circumstances that is actually a a widow life is about that way he says it's all a in our our own
in our own a at the physical mental activity that makes it look like things are coming from are determining as for part like from outside but it's actually the way we deal with the inside or it within our own mind and understanding that creates or lives
so somebody were very wealthy can be miserable and somebody very poor can be happy
yeah through

o'malley malleability
that means being able to ride the waves
without being drowned by them

yeah we blame the outside
but blame his big deal where are we blaming
circumstances where our problems
so we don't blame circumstances for our problems then we have the opportunity to be free
but as long as we're blaming outside circumstances were caught
even though that you know somebody would grow the gallows new ropes around her neck
a tough luck but
how we deal with that how we deal with that is most important thing in our life
it's like how do you do we die in different ways so to speak everybody dies in different way some with the rope around her neck some people like a bed some people get shot some people
we have all different ways that that happened
but malleability means to go with me to be flexible and go with because that's an inevitable so we make ourselves happy or miserable depending on how we go with or resist
something's we have to resist of course
but it said riding the wave and driving away
the waves are you know when you rise up and the this is dr called driving away and then you reach the top and then you right away and then you reach the tap and you drive the way said were always try the waves
that the waves are or the activity of mind
and ah so how we respond to circumstances is
what makes us
a cheerful or
resistant or happy or
i'm able to negotiate our life
the james
as a questions

yes

yes

yes
yes

yes we all feel the same way
my all depressed yes
the wave of depression
i am

well
i think it a we have to be a little bit acrobatic
matt
to find some lightness within you know it's always wonderful to see a person who's really got a lot of problem you're suffering and so and can joke and smile through it
that to me that's like
ah
this is difficult but we have to find someplace in as that's neutral
and that's big mind big is neutral
we have to be a blip if we can't
i come back to to our big our essence of mind and rest in it then we just suffer because everything is transient
this is not the only time it was reagan there was nixon you know we felt this exactly the same way but everything changes you have to realize it is not stuck and she met everything's were going through this okay this is what's happening now how to respond to that and then this is
terrible thing is happening how to respond to that
so that flexibility you can eat otherwise he just drought in your suffering
drowning your depression
so depression there but it doesn't have to overwhelm you
everything is changing just to will change
to sit where their patience patience
is a virtue
patience is a virtue even though you know all this mayhem it's happening people
it will change

yes yes it
ah

you know that the just some
little anecdote about a bad running over the cliff
and he holding onto a branch and then
the by a but eating away at the branch and lions down here you know wanting the to his foot and
and she's a strawberry plant growing plugs the strawberry i had a vicious
so ah
we can't let the force of depression
roll the what ruler
herself
merrill the whole hurtled for a while that is not let us not there that is not the only thing is not the only thing
when have to be able to keep our light glowing
and not let it be put out by depression

sent the wider
yes
yes
we have to kit to instead we have to expand our view
otherwise or will get very narrow and now and then we get stuck in a narrow view so to allow myself to have a wider bigger view that's that's the only way
because otherwise we're stuck in the closet
i myself
that's what yes kasabian agency to respond that's right not to react because we want to react
i think every day
can i gotta shoot them
those that pass through everybody's mind
but we don't act on it will expand our mind so that we can encompass it
the campus are the town difficulty
mark

yes
a religious feeling is feeling of
ah
i'm security in the universe
wherever you are the universe you have
ah
security no matter what's going on

well it's emotional i mean lead to bet that you want to relate to it you can relate to an emotionally or mentally or physically or
everything is included as a matter of fact there was it wouldn't be security
well
it's interesting because
people think of religion as a relating to a deity
ah but if you take up the deity
i'm
ah the skills
you like
isn't the mind or borrow china these are the like icons of
our religious activity in buddhism they are the essence the the essential thing so religion is not something fixed we think of religion as a a a fixed belief system
edited religious not necessarily affects belief system
yeah reverence references good reverence and devotion yeah
references to feeling of ah
a big one with
and devotion is the activity
hello

no

yeah

i

spirit
well
i think it's both
guess it both individual and collective
we have
each one it was contributes ourselves wholeheartedly to our activity yeah
wait well
ah okay
matthew
a sphere
well depends on what you're talking about
he

yesterday
a somewhat controversial out whether
worse
ha
sorry go along university dr so to speak
your easier by knowledge
the and other aggressive regard
i like the the big nine aircraft small i as yes
yes
that's a great question
because it does the universe care about me means that i'm separate from the universe
so when i let go of my separation
then it doesn't matter because i'm taking care of the universe and the university me because we're one thing
and whatever happens is correct even whether it was a kid or not
the work the university care of me whether i like it or not
you know it's like sugar she that be careful about one enlightenment
because when you get it you may not like it

but yes the universe is taking care of everybody
whether it will whether we whether it likes us are not effective
and we want to be liked by the universe so if you were to be liked by the universe is to like universe
yes
baker people say nobody loves me well that's because you don't love anybody of course
when you love everybody people love you
though when you love the universe the universe mcu you know to people you love may be cruel
yes cruelty is a part of life sorry no we step on the hudson don't like that you know week
cut cabbages
we we grow cabbages and cut them off and eat them
can you bet it is not really cruelty
they could ever know what it what it what a cabbage feels when i become a cabbage on the genome
but you know the people are born
and cabbage patches

as well as storks